The night was like ink, the rain was pouring down, I didn't think about hiding from the rain, I sat straight in the rain, and my whole body was drenched.

At this moment, I really have the idea of suicide, there is no hope in life, it is better to die, I really don't have the courage to face the future life.

I slowly stood up against the wall, thinking about how to find a painless way to die. Slowly walking into the dark alley, at the last moment, I still want to leave quietly, I don't want to alarm others and make a fuss.

I walked aimlessly along the alley, and after walking a short distance, I suddenly stepped on a soft thing, and almost tripped over, when I heard someone on the ground crying out in pain: "Amitabha, who is this, why don't you have long eyes?" ”

I wiped a handful of water from my face, and barely shone it with the light of my mobile phone, and I was shocked to see that there was an old monk sitting on the ground, with a bald head, a white beard, and his body was as dirty as a begging for food, and it was the one who stole the drunkard's food in the sheep soup restaurant.

"Master, why are you sleeping here?" I joked, I felt interesting, and my worries were put aside for a while.

The old monk raised his eyes to look at me and smiled: "Donor, it turned out to be you, sit down, it's really fate." He moved to the side, leaving me a slightly cleaner place.

The place where we sat had a roof high up barely enough to keep out the rain. No wonder he chose to take shelter from the rain here.

"Master, you're going to kill me." I leaned against the wall and closed my eyes.

"Oh?" The old monk was puzzled.

"You ran away, not only did I have to pay for you, but I was beaten and beaten, and even the most important thing was lost." I smiled wryly.

"Lose what is outside your body." The old monk said.

I opened my eyes and moved my body: "Abbot, you really eat a lamp grass and speak lightly, I helped you, you didn't have a good word, and in turn you said cool words." ”

The old monk said: "Donor, you still can't let go." Look at me, I used to be the presiding abbot of a big temple, admired by 10,000 people, making money every day, believing in men and women and countless others, treating me as a living Buddha. But what about me, now I put them all aside, brushed my sleeves away, came out to ask for food, and was bullied and white-eyed, what do you say I want? ”

"Yes, what are you trying to do?" I looked at him, "You're a big fool." ”

The old monk was helpless: "Donor, speak to speak, don't hurt people with bad words." ”

"Okay, okay," I said, "then tell me what you want." ”

"First you have to ask yourself what you need," said the old monk, "and then you can decide what you do." Don't forget the original intention. Well, the purpose of my current life is to cultivate to a higher level and comprehend a higher Dharma, so I have to go into the red dust and experience it again. ”

"I've never heard of being bullied and being able to experience life. According to what you say, you can become a Buddha when you are a coward. I said.

The old monk said: "I love the rich and not the poor, enjoy the glory and wealth and be scolded by others, there is no difference between these two things in essence." There is no one heavy or any light, it is all water that responds, and I do not move. ”

I snorted: "I really don't have a backache when I stand and talk." ”

"That's fine." The old monk looked at me: "Donor, ask you a question." ”

I was so disheartened that I hugged my shoulders and didn't speak.

"If you had to do it once, would you choose your current life?" His voice rang in my ears.

I closed my eyes and thought about it, I really hadn't thought about it. I think it will still be, after all, I have been in prison, and after I am released from prison, I will be inferior to others, if I don't work hard to be a master, I will not be reconciled in my life. If you have this ambition, you will inevitably go to the opportunity when you see it, and maybe you will have to live your current life again.

But I know one thing, my current life is actually unworthy for me. I simply don't have the ability and mood to sit in the position I am in. When it comes to what kind of leader, Fu Shaowei is even more suitable than me.

I figured it out, people, life should be steady, how big feet are and how big shoes are worn. When the resources are there but the ability is not, don't force them to do it.

"Elder, I have to ask you," I said, "if you don't do it, how will you know where the limits of your abilities are?" Isn't it all about stepping out of your comfort zone now? ”

The old monk's laughter came from his ears: "Stepping out of the comfort zone means that you have to test little by little and expand slowly, not let you ride a rocket and be greedy for progress." Even if you get what you don't deserve for a while, you will definitely lose what you shouldn't have lost in the future. ”

I muttered these two sentences, getting what I didn't deserve, and losing what I didn't deserve.

My heart moved: "Master, I didn't ask for your Dharma name......

"Get out of the alley and look up." The voice faded away.

I opened my eyes suddenly, and it was quiet in the alley, and the old monk disappeared for some time.

I blinked, stunned for a long time, this is a master.

I got up from the ground and staggered out of the alley, the street lights were shining outside, and I looked at it by the light, and there was a row of houses opposite, one of which had a sign on it that read "YTO Express Station".

Looking left and right, there are many posters on the wall. I'm a little confused, I just asked him the Dharma name, what does this old monk mean by looking up?

The rain had stopped, I wiped the rain from my face, the depression just now had passed, but I was still a little depressed in my heart. I have figured out some things, I am fortunate to have lost my life, and now I just want to go back to my hometown and live in peace.

Just as he was leaving, the courtyard door of a private house on the opposite side opened, and a person came out to pour dirty water. I hurriedly flashed to the inner wall of the alley, because this person was the drunkard from the Sheep Soup Restaurant, and this kid had not been lightly injured, his face was bandaged, and he was wrapped in a white bandage.

He didn't see me, he poured dirty water and went back to the hospital, and the door was still open. I cautiously walked over, leaned on my back, took a deep breath and looked carefully.

The small courtyard inside is not big, due to the low-lying terrain, it has just rained and is full of water, there are two people cleaning up, the basin is filled with water, and then poured into the bucket, and it is taken to the outside of the courtyard to pour.

I hid in the corner and watched these two people come out alternately, and it took more than half an hour to work before the yard was barely cleared. The drunken man scolded and said that it was really unlucky to live in such a place, and that it would rain heavily outside and that it would inevitably rain lightly in the house, and it would not be enough to clean up.

Another human, Lao Hu, don't forget to take that thing to the antique street at dawn to see if you can sell it.

I immediately understood, could it be the royal coin they were talking about?

I was secretly frightened, I was able to find this place, relying on the guidance of the old monk, who is this monk.

The courtyard was the two of them, and I didn't know how many people there were in the house, and I was suddenly full of confidence, feeling that all fate dictates, and if I could find the whereabouts of the royal coin, I would inevitably lose it and regain it.

The two of them finished their work and went into the back room. I gritted my teeth, dared to enter the courtyard, and crept to the back room. The door is open, look in through the crack in the door, there is a mahjong table in the back room, there are three men and one woman playing mahjong, all of them are old men and women in the market. The drunken Lao Hu and another person were sitting next to him talking, Lao Hu was holding something in his hand, I was shocked to see it, it was the imperial coin.

"Do you think this thing is worth it?" Lao Hu took the imperial coin and looked at it over and over again.

The old ladies who played mahjong said: "If you go to the appraisal, you will know." I think it's worth a lot of money, and it looks like a rarity. ”

"It's scary, and there's a ghost head on it." Old nonsense.

One of the people who played mahjong said: "Lao Hu, in order to get such a thing, the brothers have not taken any risks, you have to sell it at a good price, don't swallow it privately." ”

Lao Hu smiled: "I don't have any other benefits as a person, that is, I value affection." You can rest assured, no one is missing, and all of them are beneficial. ”

I'm looking at it from the outside, and I'm anxious about how to get the royal coin back. It's definitely not okay to break in, I'm an ordinary person now, there are so many scoundrels in the market, don't say anything about being beaten up, and then slander me for stealing things, I'm a dumb person who can't say if I eat Coptis chinensis.

Now we can only wait for the opportunity.

The sound of mahjong in the house is continuous, they are not sleepy, playing mahjong while chatting, Lao Hu is drinking tea, a little excited, waiting for the dawn to go out to sell the royal coin.

I have conceived a lot of plans, one of which is to ambush Lao Hu on the road when he goes out, but it's not good to think about it, this is close to the train station, there are many cameras, just take a picture, I am the nature of a roadblock robbery, it is best to solve it here, without leaving any hidden dangers.

After talking for a while, Lao Hu was still drinking tea, and the other person went into the back room to rest. As soon as he left, the rhythm of speech in the room gradually slowed down, and the mahjong players concentrated on playing mahjong, Lao Hu was also a little unable to bear it, stretched his waist, and fell asleep in the sofa.

The room fell silent. I'm nervous out there and now is the best chance.

As soon as I gritted my teeth, I didn't get into the tiger's den, and I fought hard. I crouched on the ground, on all fours, and slowly crawled into the house. The mahjong players stared at their mahjong tiles, and Lao Hu was drowsy, and no one even paid attention to me for a while.

I was like a stray dog, silently, crawling into the house step by step.