I am a fatherless and motherless person, I grew up in an orphanage, but I always don't fit in with the people around me, I feel upset when I see them crying non-stop, I don't like them like this, since I have been abandoned, why can't I be stronger? No matter how much you cry, it's not like being in this orphanage, with a group of lonely children.

Maybe it's because I have a bad temper? I don't have any friends, I spend all day alone, often looking at the outside world in a daze, I always think, those who have parents are all happy?

Later I learned that not every child with a father and mother will be happy, just like he I met.

I'm good-looking, and it stands to reason that someone of my kind would have been adopted very early, but because of my eccentric temper, I missed out on a lot of families.

However, the people in the orphanage liked me, and I had a lot of fun in the orphanage. Sometimes it is common to take a group of boys to wreak havoc, or pull girls' braids, and even go to the women's toilet.

Even if I was chased and beaten, I was very happy, as if this is the only way to live, these days, it seems that a lot of things are missing, but it has always remained in my memory, occasionally remembered, or feel warm.

When I was 8 years old, my facial features had grown, and people often came to me and said they wanted to adopt me, but they were scared away by my little tricks, I was a person who was content with the status quo, and I couldn't guarantee that I would be able to go anywhere else and be so free. Slowly, the dean was a little dissatisfied with me, because the orphanage also needs to survive, without those donations, there is no sustainability, someone comes to take me away, I am not happy, this is a big taboo.

Fortunately, the dean also took pity on me, and even if he was angry for a while, he always said: Don't do this next time.

I promised to do it, but next time.

The girls in the orphanage are very right, there are some older girls who often come to play with me, and I can't get used to them, and when I am upset, I will spit or secretly put bugs on their beds.

It seems that since I was a child, I didn't know how to accept the kindness of others, I didn't know how to get along with others, and the kindness of others was a burden to me.

One of them is named Chen Xiao, who looks pretty good, a few years older than me, she will come to my side from time to time, she will always give me something to eat, I actually don't dislike her, "Don't you think I'm annoying?" Bullies girls a lot. ”

"That's because you don't like them, and if you do, you won't be so fierce." She smiled and said, "Tang Cheng, I think you are so good-looking." ”

The children who grew up in the orphanage all understood the world very early, and I belonged to the more precocious kind, and I blushed when I heard this sentence. Few people praise me so much, or so bluntly, staring into my eyes and saying.

Later, I got closer and closer to her, she would participate in all my pranks, and I became more and more dependent on her.

We have been together for a year and I have absolute trust in her.

One day, she suddenly said to me: "Tang Cheng, why don't we get married when you grow up?" What do you say? ”

I don't know what marriage is, what to do after getting married, I just know that what is shown on TV is that we will live together and grow old. Thinking that she was good to me and that I liked her, I agreed without even thinking about it.

"Then you go to a place with me tonight." She said mysteriously.

"Where to go." I haven't been anywhere else except the orphanage.

"You'll know when you go, I tell you this, and I can't understand it." She still didn't speak.

I thought, we are all going to get married in the future, she will always be good to me, and I should believe her, so I agreed.

If I had known where she was going to take me in the first place, I wouldn't have said yes.

I still shudder when I think about it.

After dinner that day, she told me to go out at ten o'clock in the evening, and even thought about the route, why ten o'clock, because at half past nine someone would come to see if everyone was in the room. The child slept quickly, and when everyone had slept, I quietly ran out and saw Chen Xiao waiting for me at the top of the stairs.

I ran over and said, "Where are we going?" If you are found by the dean, you will be beaten. ”

"I'm not afraid at all when you take me to do those pranks."

This sentence aroused my fighting spirit, and I became bolder: "I will go, I am not afraid of wherever I go." ”

She smiled smugly, and then led me out of the corner, it was amazing that I, a person who did evil in the orphanage, didn't even know that there was a dog hole here.

"Chen Xiao, you are so amazing! How do you know here? I sighed.

"I'll tell you later, I'll take you to eat something delicious first." She led me to run.

For the first time, I felt what freedom is.

She took me to a restaurant, pointed to the three men sitting in it, and said, "That's someone I know, who said he was going to invite me to dinner today, and I brought you with me, do you think I'm interesting enough?" ”

At that time, I was stupid, I looked at the colorful and fragrant dishes, and nodded busily, "Mm-hmm." ”

The three men looked quite kind, dressed in suits, and looked very high-class, like those who came to our orphanage to adopt children.

One of them smiled when he saw me, took my hand and said, "You are Tang Cheng, right?" I often hear Chen Xiao mention you, and I have long wanted to ask her to take you out. ”

I was afraid of life, and I didn't like strangers, so I pulled my hand back, "I don't know you." ”

Chen Xiao glared at me, "He's my uncle, how can you be like this." ”

I didn't think of the question at the time, if she had an uncle, why would she go to an orphanage?

I have an indescribable trust in her, and I will believe her unconditionally, and I will say, "I'm sorry." ”

The man smiled and waved his hand, "It's okay, it's okay, come, eat, eat and see, it's not to your liking." ”

Food has a natural allure to people, and I looked at those things and swallowed, "Can you eat it?" ”

The three of them looked at each other and smiled, "Of course, if it's not enough, you can still call." ”

In the orphanage, I could only eat these things without starvation, and the person who spoke to me at the beginning kept handing me water.

I ate so deliciously that I forgot to ask Chen Xiao why she didn't eat it.

I ate and ate as if I was stepping on a white cloud, fluttering, fainting without knowing anything.

When I woke up, I felt pain all over my body, the most painful thing was the place where I pooped, I subconsciously reached out to touch it, it was full of blood, I was scared, tears fell like a click, I didn't dare to make a sound.

I felt like I was kidnapped, kidnapped by bad guys like I did on TV. I was in a small house with only a bed and nothing else.

I heard movement outside, and I crawled over, yes, just crawling, and I was in so much pain that I couldn't bear it, and my whole body was involved.

I was lying on the side of the door and heard Chen Xiao's voice, I thought she was here to save me, I was about to speak, and her voice came from outside, "Boss, can I take him back now?" ”

"No, I haven't played enough, this is your reward, this person brought this time is not bad, I'll give you more. He will leave him here for three days, and you will come back in three days. "This is the first person to talk to me that day.

Chen Xiao just left, and without any extra words, I realized that I had been deceived and deceived by Chen Xiao......

I was hit physically and mentally at the same time and began to cry loudly, especially loudly.

The man, known as the boss, ran in and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

I pushed him away and cried, I didn't know what it was at the time, and when I grew up, I realized what I had lost, and I felt disgusting in my heart! Filthy!

Maybe seeing that I was crying too much, he took me to the hospital, a hospital with few people, I stayed there for two days, I was much better, while he was away, I went to the toilet, I wanted to jump through the toilet window.

Unexpectedly, at this time, I met the most important person in my life, who stood below and said to me, "You will fall to your death if you jump." ”

I felt like I'd known him for a long time, and I told him everything, "I've been kidnapped, and I have to jump from here." ”

He said, "Kidnapping? Really? ”

"Really." I nodded vigorously as if that would allow him to trust me.

Thankfully, he believed and saved me from my misery. When he led me to run, I felt so grounded.

We spent two days together, and he took me to his house, which, oddly enough, was just him and the babysitter. He told me that his name was Song Ziming, that he had done something wrong, and that his father was going to send him abroad. After he knew that I was an orphan, he said: "I feel that you are not bad, you stay in Rongcheng, it is better to go with me, I will call my father to pay the fee, anyway, he has money, so I have a companion, and you also have a place to go, do you say okay?" ”

The encounter in the past two days has never happened to me, I think that since he can save me, he will not harm me like Chen Xiao, I promised, "As long as I leave here, I am willing." ”

I went abroad with him, and while abroad, I got to know him better as a person. We often drag racing together, and whenever I do, I sit in his passenger seat, and some people laugh at me, saying that I am his little tail.

I don't reject it, the tail will always grow on him and will not separate.

Maybe because of Chen Xiao, I will be inexplicably disgusted with such creatures as girls, I think they all have bad intentions, they are all wolves in sheep's clothing. On the contrary, I trust Ziming more, and the more time passes, the more I find that I have different feelings for him.

I am willing to watch him all night and night when he is drunk, and I feel uncomfortable when he is uncomfortable, and I will take the trouble to help him wipe it when he is sweating, until he sleeps peacefully, I will not be relieved.

Slowly, I realized that it was love, the love of one person for another.

The appearance of He Huan broke the original balance, I found that Ziming likes girls, he is different from me, I didn't like He Huan at first.

Over time, Ziming is a fan of the authorities, I can see that his "love" for He Huan is more like curiosity, at first he will spend time dating He Huan, but after a long time, he began to be impatient. Based on this conclusion, I don't hate He Huan anymore, and I'm a little nice to her.

So much so that he later learned that He Huan was arranged by his father, he just felt that he was being fooled, not how uncomfortable it was to lose He Huan.

I understand him, his family is not easy, and his mother is like that, I want to give him more warmth, so I have been with him all the time.

He knew what happened to me before, and after returning to China, he immediately went to find the three men back then, they had a bad life, two of them had died, and the remaining one, I also invited a few people to take care of him, which was regarded as revenge.

Ziming asked me, "Tang Cheng, why don't you have a favorite girl?" ”

God knows how red my face was at that time, I didn't dare to say much, so I had to mess around, "He Huan, but she likes you." ”

He smiled heartily, "Say it earlier, where does it matter if a woman has a buddy." If I knew, I wouldn't have won the love. ”

I smiled and said nothing, always remembering his words: women are not as important as buddies.

Even if I can only be by his side in this life, there is nothing wrong with it, as long as he has my place in his heart.

However, he met Bai Manyun, a hateful woman who completely took away Ziming's heart.

The first time I helped her put on makeup, I could see that Ziming was not ordinary to him, but thinking that Ziming was using her relationship, I put up with it.

Sometimes, feelings are the best edge.

I miscalculated, Ziming asked me again and again, how to please the girl, what to do when the girl is angry...... And so on.

I realized that Bai Manyun would be Ziming's lover in this life, and at that time, he would no longer remember me as a brother.

Thinking of this, I confessed to He Huan, joined forces with her, and did a lot of things, and finally, they separated because of a misunderstanding.

At that time, I really thought that Bai Manyun was dead, and it was uncomfortable to see him, but I was happy in my heart, and I knew that time would heal all the pain.

The happiest days are when he comes to my house, I cook a meal and wait for him, and help him do the laundry, just like a normal husband and wife. I'm like a pervert, I'm crazy, and I keep fantasizing that Ziming won't find another person and live like this with me for the rest of my life.

However, Bai Manyun is back.

I targeted Bai Manyun several times, and the quilt Ziming found the clues, he came to talk to me, I confessed to him, I didn't expect that after I said that sentence, our relationship would become so bad, I knew it was like this, I wouldn't say it to death, I would rather hide it for the rest of my life.

It was getting harder and harder for me to see him, Song Ming had a new child, and I finally saw him, and his attitude towards me was extremely cold, which made me feel scared.

Also, people like him must think I'm disgusting, after all, I've had that experience before......

By chance, I went to Lao Gao's place and learned something, and I made up my mind to help him interrogate An An's medicine.

I used a lot of methods, but they all had to be attributed to those bugs, and Qi Jun couldn't stand it, so I said it.

I wanted to see Ziming again through this time, so I took Qi Jun away.

Seeing his dusty appearance, I suddenly softened, since I love him so much, why don't I allow him to live a normal life? Shouldn't I be happy that someone loves him? At the end of the day, I'm still selfish.

I want to let him go and let him live well and love people well.

However, fate didn't give me a chance, when Qi Jun smashed over with a stone, I still helped him block it, in fact, it's okay, I really let him go in this way.

It hurts to be hit on the head, but seeing Ziming's panicked appearance, I suddenly stopped hurting, he still has mine in his heart, but he just doesn't understand my love.

I've been crazy all my life, and when I handed him the USB flash drive, I suddenly sobered up, I hope he and Bai Manjun can love each other well, and I will be a woman in my next life, and then compete with Bai Manyun.

The only thing that is a little lonely is that this love, only me and him know, and it is not tolerated by the world.