"Old woman, can you get up from the rock? I would like to see if the words on it are really eight different big rocks, as one person said. ”

Shi Yue said to the old woman, remembering the words of the beggar grandfather, "There are eight big stones on Xiaotian Temple that are warm in winter and cool in summer, and they write the eight hardships of life. ”

The old woman smiled slightly, nodded, and stood up, Shi Yue saw that the big stone had "illness" written on it.

Shi Yue was very strange, "Old woman, why would you sit on such a stone?" Unlucky"

"My eldest daughter has passed away, and I hope that my younger daughter can be healthy or, if possible, I want to be sick in her place, as long as she can live well, I will be happy."

The old woman's simple and unpretentious words made Shi Yue feel very distressed, but Liuliu, who was standing behind Shi Yue, did not speak.

"Liuliu, aren't you still thinking about Senior Leng Mian? Wake up. Shi Yue whispered into Liuliu's ear, and Liuliu shook his head and raised his head to look at the old woman's face.

"Why did your child have surgery? Is it some incurable disease? It is illegal for you to abandon your child without permission. Liuliu rarely said words to warn others, and with a serious face, Shi Yue could imagine how important this was to Liuliu.

"Old woman, don't be careful, she just asks casually, because she grew up in an orphanage, so on this issue, she has more right to speak, and she is more sensitive than ordinary people, isn't it Liuliu? And my parents don't know where they are? ”

After Shi Yue finished speaking, he thought of his life experience, turned sideways slightly, took out the mirror in his trouser pocket, prepared his face, and behind him was the face of an old woman, and muttered in a low voice, "Is she my mother?" ”

"Why did your child have surgery?"

During the period when Shi Yue was looking in the mirror, Liuliu asked energetically, and seemed to care about the answer to this question.

"It is not good to say it, so that you will not be afraid."

"Did you throw it on your own initiative?" Liuliu's many questions made the old woman feel uncomfortable in her heart.

"No, when I was just chatting, I learned that they were philanthropists who opened a public welfare orphanage, and many of the children in it were sick and had certain physical or mental defects, and I asked them to help my children, and they gave me the address and phone number of the orphanage, but when I went there, it had already moved."

"Have you ever entered the DNA system to find a child over the years?" Obviously, it has become a conversation between Liuliu and the old woman, and Shi Yue was left aside, and no questions could be inserted at all, but what Liuliu asked was indeed what Shi Yue wanted to know.

"This child is cursed. She has a sixth finger on her hand, and a child like ours must have surgery or it will bring misfortune to the family. ”

"You are talking nonsense, ignorance, you know that a family of 25 in India all have six fingers, a total of 600, they call it Lady Luck, the darling of God."

Liuliu's emotions were a little excited

Yes, this is the first time Shi Yue has seen Liuliu speak so loudly and glaringly.

"Six-six, what are you doing? This is an old woman, shouldn't you respect the elderly? ”

"Old man, she threw the child away, does she know how many sins the child has suffered over the years? She doesn't deserve to be a mom. ”

After finishing speaking, Liuliu walked down the mountain by himself, and even Shi Yue's hand was released.

"Don't mind, old woman, then I'll go back first, and I'll come to see you later."

When she was about to leave, the words of the old woman made Shi Yue unforgettable for life.

"She was right, the child was thrown by my own hands, I took advantage of the fact that the people in the orphanage were still there, and I went to the bathroom under the pretext of excuses, but the people from the orphanage came several times and asked many people, whether there was my presence on this mountain, and others said no, because I had been hiding."

Shi Yue finally understood why the cold-faced senior at the gate of Oda Temple had never heard of the old woman at all.

"That ......"

Before Shi Yue could finish speaking, the old woman took out the medicine she had picked up on the mountain.

"This is a treatment for stuttering, my eldest daughter is eating this, the treatment is good, but then I encountered an accident, the child just now she was right, I am not worthy of being a mother, this is what I specially picked for you, you can drink and try it when you go back, three times a day, I hope you will get better soon, but stay away from people who will bring you harm, and you must know how to protect yourself."

The old woman began to pick up a cup again, and when she was about to drink it, Shi Yue grabbed it.

I sniffed it vigorously, and although the smell was not heavy, it stayed in my nose for a longer time, and I could indeed smell that it was full of wine.

"Old woman, you always numb yourself like this, it's really not good."

"Child, the wine I gave you last time, did you say what you thought, people sometimes, between half dreaming and half waking, is the most sober and happy."

"Old woman, what you said is not right, I admit that the medicine and this wine you gave me, after I drank it almost before and after, my stuttering was indeed better, but my heart was even more uncomfortable, wine has never been something that can eliminate sorrow, it will only make people more uncomfortable, at that time you made a mistake, you need to be punished."

"Desertion? I know, I just came out of prison, I regret what is the use, and neglect the education of the eldest daughter, how she has grown up over the years, may be no less than the youngest daughter in the orphanage, so in the end, the eldest daughter was tortured to death when she encountered a perversion, and I have the responsibility that I can't escape. ”

"Old woman, if you can recognize your mistakes, it means that you have grown up, don't blame yourself too much, otherwise it will not be good for your health, and your age cannot bear to drink so unscrupulously anymore."

"So what? It is said that being a parent for the first time, there are some things that can be forgiven by the child, but I don't think so, if you don't learn the responsibility of being a parent, then giving birth to a child is equivalent to harming her, the life of the living person and the happiness of the future, if you can't give it, don't bring her to this world, or else, it is to make her suffer. ”

"Old woman, have you ever met an old monk who often walks on this mountain? Merlin and I have met a few times, and I think you can talk to him about the eight hardships of life. ”

"I've been here, I haven't met anyone, the old monk you said, there are still a lot of this Oda Temple, but no one wants to deal with me, because I am a sinner, I am here to atone for my sins, I hope my daughter can forgive me after seeing it."

"And what if your daughter can't forgive?"

Shi Yue looked at the old woman, and opened Liuliu, who was about to go down the mountain and disappeared, as if he wanted to find some kind of connection between the two people.

"Then I will always stand here, because I am a mother, when I was young, I only cared about my own pleasure, I didn't understand the importance of children, I just felt that I was tired, I didn't want to care about them too much, but when I was old, I understood how difficult a person's world is, watching children come and go with their parents, how can I not envy."

The old woman walked in front of Shi Yue, snatched the quilt from Shi Yue's hand, and began to drink again.

After that, I wiped it with the back of my hand and wiped it on the side of my mouth, making it feel like I was enjoying it.

"Old woman, if you are always like this, you will become a drunkard, and when the time comes, I will stop paying attention to you like everyone else, do you think that is good?"

"Child, just let me drink, the wound in my heart can't be healed, the wine can make me forget my troubles for a while, I'll drink too much later, and I'll leave."

"This is the mountain, how do you go, it's very dangerous, I'll roll down twice, it's equivalent to the life I picked up, that is, the person who talks to you in front of you now almost becomes a dead person, I say this, do you want to continue drinking?"

"Kid, didn't you drink too? As soon as you came over, I noticed that your eyes were wrong, people like me who drink a lot, know like-minded people too well, we all think the same, make ourselves happy, and ignore others. ”

After Shi Yue listened to the old woman's words, she fell into a deep thought.

The things he had done, including what he did to Mei Lin, stealing a copy of someone else's error correction book, and getting Feng Feng's exam skills, but choosing not to tell Mei Lin, etc., was to pass the so-called most important exam for himself, but he lost his best friend.

Shi Yue was saddened, and the old woman immediately opened a cup of Ling.

Shi Yue hurriedly stepped forward to stop, "I won't drink anymore in the future, I accept the reality that I have been stumbling all my life, I hope you can accept yourself too." ”

"Child, let's go, you are still young, there are many choices in your life, so beautiful, but I am different, I have stepped into the grave, if the little daughter can't be found, even if I die, no one will give me a pension, my life is for nothing, do you know why I don't make that big stone?"

The old woman's hand was raised, and it fell immediately.

Shi Yue looked in the direction of the old woman's raised finger.

Slowly walked to the location of the big stone, and found that there were still a few pieces around, Shi Yue one by one

Reading the big words on it, I compared it with the other big stones I knew in my head, but there were two less sufferings in the eight sufferings of life.

And on the stone in front of the body, a big red character is clearly engraved, "Death." Against the backdrop of the gray stone, this big red character looked particularly terrifying, which made Shi Yue feel cold, and quickly trotted to the side of the old woman, pulling her hand.

"I'm a little scared."

"Me too, because I don't want to die, no one wants to, and when I die, no one will know at all, my death means that there is no such person as me in this world, I didn't make a contribution to the society, but caused trouble to the society, my two daughters must hate me very much, I am the scum eliminated from the whole society, I am a scum."

"Old woman, don't talk about yourself like that, maybe I can help you find your daughter?"

(End of chapter)