Zhou Shuxuan felt that he was dazzled, and he actually saw that Miao Li seemed to have a faint smile on her face, her eyes were full of ridicule, and the whole person seemed to be a ghost.

"You...... You're awake. ”

Miao Li snorted lightly and said, "Yes, I'm awake." You can continue to torture me until you are satisfied. ”

"I ...... No, I didn't think to torture you, never. He said a few words that he himself was extremely weak, and he didn't believe it himself.

Things have evolved to such an extent that more than just torture can be said in two words.

"Since you don't, what are you stammering? You should say this with confidence and refuse to admit it. ”

Zhou Shuxuan still wanted to explain, "I really ...... Never had ......"

"Yes, you never have. My hunger for three days and three nights has nothing to do with you, because you don't know. As soon as you come back, my children will be gone, and it has nothing to do with you, it is not that you grabbed me and asked who the children were, and they were not allowed to ask for a doctor. None of this has anything to do with you, that's what you mean, right? ”

"I ......" Zhou Shuxuan saw the sparkle in her eyes, and her tears couldn't stop sliding. I felt that something was stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say a single extra word.

"I don't want to see you again, you can go."

Zhou Shuxuan was silent for a while, and said with insufficient confidence: "I am also very uncomfortable if the child is gone." ”

Miao Li smiled and asked, "Will you feel bad too?" Do you also have a heart? ”

"I ......"

Miao Li turned her head with difficulty, not wanting to see him again.

Gao Fu hurriedly ran back and said, "Your Majesty, Concubine An wants to see you." ”

Zhou Shuxuan glanced at the bed again, but Miaoli was unmoved. said to Gao Fu: "No, go straight to execution." ”

"But ......"

"Get out!" Zhou Shuxuan shouted, and Gao Fu had to withdraw.

There were only them left in the house, Zhou Shuxuan looked at her, still trying to explain, "I ......"

Miao Li used all her strength and roared: "I told you not to say it, I don't want to see you again, it's useless for you to say anything, get out!" ”

Is there anything else that can be said to think that he can still be forgiven? He brought all the suffering, so why should he be forgiven?

The people outside heard Miao Li's voice and came in.

Mama Xi came over and pulled Zhou Shuxuan, and whispered, "Your Majesty, let's go out first." ”

He's here, and he doesn't do Miao Li any good.

Zhou Shuxuan closed her eyes and didn't dare to say anything more, afraid that she would be more emotional, so she hung her head and went out.

Jiebizhi also heard the voice, stood at the door for a moment to relieve his mood, and then walked inside. looked at Miaoli's situation expressionlessly, there is still no major problem with people, at least their lives are worry-free. Q: "Is there anything uncomfortable?" ”

Miao Li shook her head mechanically, she didn't feel good, and she was uncomfortable all over her body. But she didn't want to live anymore, and she didn't want to seek medical treatment.

"It was someone who moved his hands and feet in your medicine, so it caused the slippery tire, and it was useless for me to come earlier, there is no way." Jie Bizhi explained, which is equivalent to helping Zhou Shuxuan explain.

He didn't think that he would do this, it was also for Miaoli's good, she could torture herself a little less if she complained less.

Miao Li said after a long time: "There is no point anymore." ”

Her children are gone, so what's the point of pursuing them? Even if she knew who was harming her, her children would not come back.

Jiebizhi didn't know what to say, so he only did what a doctor should do, and said, "I'll prescribe some medicine for you, and try to stay in bed to recuperate during this time, and you will get better slowly." ”

After that, the atmosphere in the entire Qingquan Palace was too sluggish, and no one dared to speak loudly, and they walked on tiptoe.

Geng Qingru was killed by the rod in the end, and he didn't even give a more formal reason. The county lord of Changping made trouble and made trouble, but in the end there was still no result, so he could only accept it and silently led the corpse head back.

The trend in the palace seems to have changed drastically, and there is one less lady who is not much.

Lin Yanchi was still sitting in the palace drinking tea, not worried that the fire would burn on him. As soon as Geng Qingru died, she was safe. It has long been said that it is not certain who is stupid and who is smart, but now it can be seen that the really stupid people are dead.

Geng Qingru is dead, Miaoli's child is gone, Zhou Shuxuan feels guilty and painful, Li Youfu is sad for Miaoli, and Lin Yanchi is the only one in the palace who is happy.

But going on like this is definitely not a long-term strategy, one day the fire will burn to the body, so she can't be the only one, there should be a few more people in the palace.

She had long felt that such a fight was meaningless, and it was impossible for the emperor to like them or accept them. Even if Miaoli died, the emperor probably wouldn't look at them more.

But she really wants to see if there is really a heart in this world that will not change, and the true feelings that cannot be destroyed, especially the emperor's heart, the emperor's feelings. Even if there really is, she can destroy it with her own hands, and she feels happy.

Anyway, she doesn't have the luxury of being happy, so let's just make a game.

After Jie Bizhi came to see Miaoli for a few days, he didn't come back again, and it was really uncomfortable to look at it more. If he continues like this, he will get sick himself, so he would rather take care of Liu'er than take care of Miaoli.

Lu Guangbai had to go over, no matter how inconvenient it was, he had to go over. He knew that his existence would be a hidden danger to Miaoli sooner or later, and he had already avoided suspicion, but it turned out to be like this.

The human heart is dirty.

Now Miaoli's medicine is all boiled by them, and it will not go through other people's hands. Lu Guangbai sent the medicine that had been boiled to the bed, and Miaoli habitually took it and drank it habitually. The whole action was done in one go, without any emotion.

No one will feel better when they see her like this, Lu Guangbai thought for a while, and still persuaded: "You have to eat something, otherwise it will be useless to drink more medicine." ”

Miaoli handed over the medicine bowl, looked at the quilt and said, "But I don't have an appetite and don't want to eat anything." ”

Before, when she was in a bad mood, she could say that she was working hard to eat more for the child, but now she is the only one.

"But......" Lu Guangbai wanted to persuade her that she had to eat to live, and knew that she didn't want to live for a long time, so he changed the subject and said: "But Liu Er is still clamoring to see her godmother, I was going to bring him over today." If you continue like this, you won't be able to hold him in the future. ”

Speaking of the child, Miao Li seemed to have a little spirit, and said: "When you just took him back, he was only a little one, and he was afraid of breaking his little arms and legs when he held it in his hands. It was already so big in the blink of an eye, and I remember when we milked the deer to feed him. ”

If her child is born, it will grow up slowly, and she will also call her mother, but unfortunately she doesn't have the opportunity to hear it.

Lu Guangbai said along with her words: "Yes, the first time I had no experience, I was kicked by the deer and recuperated for several days. ”

Miao Li continued: "I still remember that in the past, Master asked you to go out to collect medicines, and you couldn't dig up a few plants. Then I came back with a bag of mushrooms, wild vegetables and all kinds of wild fruits, and sometimes I would hunt a rabbit and catch a pheasant, and turn it into a square for me to eat. The angry master wants to drive you down the mountain and let you go to open a restaurant and be a cook, and don't study medicine with him. ”

At that time, Lu Guangbai saw that she was too thin, and she only ate a little bit of everything, so he tried his best to let her eat more, so he spent all his thoughts on cooking for her. At that time, he still boasted that he was a scholar, and he didn't even care about the gentleman's cooking.

"I also said that he made so much trouble, but he ate the most every time. Later, he would order food, tell me every day what he wanted to eat, and hook me up to go down the mountain to buy him wine. Lu Guangbai smiled and said this to Miaoli, trying to say as many happy things as possible to make her feel better.

Miao Li said a few words rarely, "That sweet and sour wild fruit, I have to eat a lot of that one every time." I don't even know what it's called now, and I can't find it if I want to eat it. ”

"Didn't you name him? I want to eat the fruit after eating, but I don't know what other people call it. But I don't see anything else selling it, it seems to be called Zhaoyun Mountain. It looks like an autumn child, but it doesn't taste like it, and I haven't seen it before. ”

A slight smile also appeared on Miaoli's face, it turned out that the ordinary life on the mountain at that time turned out to be the happiest period of time for her, and she had never been happier like that since then.

Sometimes she wondered if it hadn't been so coincidental at that time, and Zhou Shuxuan hadn't happened to appear there, would it be another result. Will it be that after a long, long time, she was finally moved by Lu Guangbai, and then accepted him and lived another life.

If she had insisted a little more at that time and never forgave Zhou Shuxuan, these things would not have happened later.

Unfortunately, there are not so many ifs.

Miao Li lowered her head and didn't speak again.

Lu Guangbai took the initiative to speak again and said, "If you like it, I can go back and pick some for you now, and you can eat it tomorrow, and if you want to eat anything, tell me all about it." ”

She doesn't have anything to eat now, and she's never been a craving person.

Miao Li suddenly raised her head, looked into his eyes and asked, "You said in the palace that day, if I can't stay here one day, I can find you at any time, do you still count?" ”

Lu Guangbai nodded without hesitation, "Do the count." ”

"I'm really embarrassed to trouble you again and again." Miao Li covered her face and said, "If you still do the math, can you please give me a pill, I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning." Every day I live is uncomfortable, painful, and I really can't go on. I know you want me to live, but I really can't. I've tried hard, but there's really nothing I can't do. I don't want to, not at all. ”

In this world, there is nothing worth her nostalgia for.

How could Lu Guangbai let her die, so he paused, and after thinking about it, he said, "I'll take you out, let's go back to Zhaoyun Mountain or go to other places, just as if nothing happened." ”

Miao Li was silent for a long time and nodded.