Lu Guangbai didn't dare to prompt too clearly, so he could only say: "You'd better think about it." ”

"How do you think I haven't thought it through? I just thought about it, and I can't remember what I used to be like. I thought death was a relief, but you saved me and told me that life is precious. But he didn't tell me that precious life was not lovely at all. ”

Miao Li had already noticed that he was constantly looking behind her, and she knew it. Then he said, "Senior brother, why do you ask these words inexplicably? You have always called yourself a gentleman, and what you do is what a gentleman does. Everything stopped at the number of rites, and now it seems that all of this is beyond the number of rites. Did someone ask you that? ”

Awesome, it would have been perfect if she had guessed that someone had asked him to ask that.

Zhou Shuxuan clenched his fists and hid them under his sleeves, gritted his teeth and said, "I asked him to ask." ”

The matter between the two of them, they can solve it by themselves, Lu Guangbai stood up and retreated.

Miao Li's face did not change and asked: "Then my answer, is it exactly the same as you think?" ”

"Yes, as I thought. He had already said he was going to take you away, and you could have left with him. ”

Miao Li was silent. After a long silence, he spoke, but instead of answering his words, he said, "I really don't want to be a mother." ”

Zhou Shuxuan's answer blurted out, "I really can't help you!" ”

Miao Li has nothing to say, she really can't help herself. I didn't want to stay here anymore, so I bent down and saluted Zhou Shuxuan, saying, "The concubine retires." ”

How did it become like this inexplicably, Zhou Shuxuan couldn't understand what was going on. Can they revive her as a person, but not save her heart? Or did it kill her feelings for herself?

Miao Li's words were not finished, but she didn't want to say them. She was supposed to leave, but she stayed here for the sake of those feelings. She wanted to leave, but she wouldn't.

After that, the people of the Ministry of Internal Affairs came like flowing water, and it seemed that there were countless things.

Miaoli didn't see any of them, and lay down on the bed to sleep peacefully. When she couldn't sleep, she lay on the bed in a quiet daze, and the noise outside had nothing to do with her.

At the end of the day, Xiaohong came in to see her with her eyes open, and said, "Niangniang, the emperor has already sent the court clothes over." Niangniang will be the most noble concubine in the future. ”

Miao Li replied sullenly, "The most honorable is the queen." ”

"The emperor doesn't want to, he's already coming slowly. The slave maid heard today that the imperial doctor went to Zuo Xiang's mansion again, saying that Zuo Xiang was really crazy. The slave and maid may not see it, it is estimated that the emperor asked people to say so. ”

Miaoli was quietly in a daze and didn't answer her words. Xiaohong is used to it, she doesn't speak and says more, "People from the Internal Affairs Office come over every day, and Niangniang should also go out to see her." After all, we have to deal with it in the future, although we are not afraid of this, but some little ghosts are quite difficult to deal with. ”

Miaoli turned over and said, "I'm not feeling well, you can help me deal with it." ”

Xiaohong glanced at her helplessly, and she didn't know if she was really uncomfortable or fake uncomfortable, so she was probably making excuses again.

Miao Li was silent for a while, and asked, "Xiaohong, do you think I'm a little unreasonable?" ”

Xiaohong was also silent for a moment, and replied: "The slave maid said that the mother is not allowed to be angry. ”

"You say."

Xiaohong was bold and said: "The slave maid thinks that there is a little bit that the emperor has done nothing wrong and has become like this, and he must be very uncomfortable in his heart." It seems that after that incident is over, you will have a earth-shaking change, Niangniang really can't do this, otherwise the queen will really succeed. Two people can't live like this, and the emperor may not be able to take the initiative more...... Mother, hurry up and get better. ”

Xiaohong wanted to persuade but didn't dare to persuade too much, so she could only talk about it like this. After finishing speaking, she secretly glanced at Miaoli, but she still didn't have much expression on her face, so she said: "Actually, these are also secondary, the last thing the slave wants is to see Niang Niang like this." You used to talk and laugh, but now you are always dead, and the slave wants you to be happy. Now that life is so good, there is no need to toss yourself like this. ”

Miao Li suddenly mentioned an irrelevant matter and asked, "Do you know that a few days ago, there were two little palace maids who were beaten by twenty boards and then kicked out of the palace?" ”

Xiaohong nodded, "The slave knows, I heard that she said something that shouldn't be said." ”

"They said that my senior brother and I looked like a family, and Liu Er was my and my brother's child, and this sentence happened to be heard by the emperor."

Xiaohong was a little unconvinced, "How did Niangniang know?" ”

Miao Li laughed softly and said, "Because it's not the first time I've heard it, Lord Lu has heard it a few times." In fact, it was accidental that the emperor heard it, and their main purpose was to let the entire palace know. You can go outside and inquire now, and someone must be saying that I have already given birth to another man. ”

It's not that she doesn't know anything, on the contrary, she knows a lot.

"Niangniang......" Xiaohong was surprised. Miao Li almost didn't even go out of the palace gate, and she actually knew so much.

Miao Li continued: "The emperor is not inexplicably angry, he thinks that I have changed a lot, it must not be accidental, someone said something in front of him. You only know that I don't care much about him, but you don't know how I feel when I see him casually pull another woman's handkerchief out of his bosom. ”

She admits that she has changed, but some things are indeed quietly changing.

That day, she fed Liu'er and accidentally spilled the soup on her body, Zhou Shuxuan came out with a handkerchief to help her wipe it, and then left the handkerchief here. I thought it was his thing, but I was going to put it away, but I found a small Geng character on it.

These things reminded me of some things about her parents' generation, which have always existed in her memory and don't want to think about them.

Miao Li sat up from the bed and said slowly: "My father and mother were originally very affectionate, the two met at the poetry meeting, and they were attracted by each other's talents and became biological children. The talented and beautiful women walked together, which was originally a good story. Until they returned to their hometown to worship their ancestors, they met a girl who had escaped from the hands of human traffickers. My mother saw that she was pitiful, so she bought her, and she was originally a maid, but later became my father's aunt. After that, there was a problem in the relationship between father and mother, and the mother did nothing wrong, and the father just didn't treat her day by day. When I was a child, I didn't know why, but when I grew up, I realized that my weak aunt was a ruthless character. ”

If this kind of thing happens at home, the child will inevitably be affected, Xiaohong shouted distressedly, "Niangniang......"

"I haven't finished yet, but when I finally raided the house, my aunt was the first to run, and my mother committed suicide by hanging herself for my father. Sometimes I see the high beams in the palace and wonder if I will die on it in the end. I'm short-sighted, I don't see the end of my life, I can't predict how long I'll be able to walk with him, so I'm afraid. ”

When Xiaohong heard these things, she held back a sentence for a long time, "But it's different, the emperor ...... him."

"Nothing is different, it's all the same. Do you think my father is stupid? He's smarter than anyone else. And my mother, if you've ever seen her, you know what a beautiful woman is, and I'm not even one percent of her. Clever and intelligent, I don't dare to compare myself with her, and in the end I ended up like that. She couldn't deal with a single woman that day, I don't know how many more I will face in the future? The queen who is always waiting for me, learning from my concubine Wan everywhere, the soft and weak Concubine An, and there are many, many more after that. ”

After Miao Li finished speaking, she lost her voice and continued to look at the curtain in a daze.

Meng Qianfan's last words were not to allow the children in the family to be officials, and her mother only left her a sentence: if there was a chance to marry someone and marry an honest one.

Xiaohong stood in front of her for a quarter of an hour, and finally pursed her lips and said, "The slave doesn't persuade Niangniang, I just hope you can be happy in the future." ”

Happy, so simple two words, but so difficult to do.

On the second day, someone from the Internal Affairs Office came over again, saying that Zhou Shuxuan had already chosen a palace for her, and if she could, she would be invited to come over and have a look.

Xiaohong wanted to refuse with the excuse that she was uncomfortable, but Miaoli asked, "It's also where you want to live in the future, do you want to go and see it?" ”

Xiaohong thought she wanted to let herself see it, so she nodded. Miao Li said, "Let people prepare, let's go and see." ”

Xiaohong was surprised and delighted, Miaoli hadn't been out of Ciqing Palace for more than a month, and she was going out for the first time, so she hurriedly asked someone to prepare things. Dress her up by herself, this Miaoli goes to the inner palace for the first time, and she must dress up beautifully and meet those maidens and can't lose the battle.

Miaoli doesn't care about herself, let herself dress up. The people below were neat and quickly cleaned up, and Miaoli sat on the sedan chair and staggered forward.

After walking for a distance, he asked, "Where did the emperor give me to live?" ”

"If you go back to Niangniang, the emperor gave Zhaoyang Palace. Niangniang is really blessed, there is magnificent, to the Longde Hall and the Qinzheng Hall are very close, within walking distance. ”

Miao Li couldn't help frowning, she didn't know if she was blessed or not, but she knew that it was really too ostentatious.

Now that she had arrived at the Imperial Garden, Miao Li glanced to the side casually and saw a large number of people standing by the small lake. The woman was reaching out to put a cloak on the man, looking so unloving. Little Red looked up at her and asked her if she wanted to stop. Miao Li just glanced at it and then looked away, without the slightest intention of stopping, and let people continue to move forward.

But a figure rushed over by the lake, and shouted very imagelessly while running, "Sister." ”

When someone shouted at me, I had to stop. After stopping, Miao Li helped Xiaohong's hand down, with a slight smile on her face, and said to the person who had already run in front of her: "If you run so fast, you are not afraid of falling." ”

Li Youfu panted and said, "I'm afraid that you will slip away, didn't you see us?" ”

Miao Li just wanted to answer, but a group of people behind Li Youfu also came to the front, so she saluted in a regular manner, "The concubine asks the emperor for peace." ”