When Shi Xu came to a foreign research institute for the first time, he saw the neatly arranged reagent materials in the laboratory, as if he had fallen into a golden hole all of a sudden.

"It's good to be rich." Shi Xu twisted his neck and sighed, one gram of precious research reagents costs hundreds of thousands, and they have no sufficient funds in their hands to do experiments, so they can only wait for the appropriation, and they worry about how to save and use them all day long, but the laboratory is directly equipped with basic equipment.

They said that they would study and discuss together, but how could the Wellington College really publish their research results, so they just talked nonsense while taking them around the institute and showing off to them how good their research environment was.

Shi Xu felt that these people were like pyramid schemes, and they were about to be hooked into the gang in minutes, so he pretended to be interested and smiled at the leading director, and suddenly someone patted him on the shoulder and whispered to him: "Mr. Shi, your friend is coming to you." ”

At this time, there were only two people he could think of, but he didn't want to see them now.

"I'll come back later."

The staff walked away in understanding, Shi Xu turned his head, and was startled by the director's sudden approach: "Is there anything wrong with you?" ”

The director's shrewd and calculating eyes squinted with a grin, as if looking at a fat sheep waiting to be slaughtered.

"At that time, our institute sent you an invitation before, why did you refuse?"

That was when Shi Xu was in his second year of doctoral studies, and he was only full of Song Yihan at that time, and he was fascinated by men, how could he have the heart to go abroad to live a lonely and lonely life.

However, if you say this kind of thing, you are afraid that you will be taken as a fool, so Shi Xu replied to the director smoothly and politely: "You are very good here, but it is more convenient for me to take care of my family in China, and my academics are not good, so I am afraid that I will live up to your expectations." ”

The director shook his head regretfully, and then tentatively said, "Then if we can help you settle your family here, are you interested in working here?" I won't tell you anything, I'm very optimistic about you, and you can get better development here. ”

Shi Xu knew that the director did not lie to him, whether it was resources or equipment, the research environment here was indeed more ideal, but Shi Xu couldn't say what the reason was, he was subconsciously rejecting this idea.

"I'm sorry, I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint you again."

The director was not in a hurry at all, he shook hands with Shi Xu kindly: "It doesn't matter, I am always extra patient with talented people, my invitation is valid for a long time, and you are welcome to come at any time." ”

Shi Xu hesitated for a moment, but nodded, and then he asked the director as if he remembered something: "I heard that the research institute here shares resources with pharmaceutical companies, do you know what solutions are there for memory damage?" ”

The director touched his chin and pondered, and said, "We don't have any research on human brain memory, it belongs to the scope of bioengineering, I can try to help you contact the researchers in medicine and ask them what they think." As he spoke, he joked: "You're not going to go into the biological realm just to refuse my invitation, are you?" ”

Shi Xu smiled and shook his head: "No, I love my research, it's just that I have a friend who has a difficulty in this regard." ”

The director is clear, and after a few more casual conversations, he walks away.

Shi Xu didn't have much hope for Song Yihan's memory, but he always had to give it a try, it's not that he doesn't like the current Song Yihan, it's just that the current Song Yihan is too good, too good to be true.

Like foam floating in the sun, there is always a danger of breaking

Shi Xu thought that he was really a crazy person, and the more dangerous things were, the more he loved and became obsessed, and he deserved to be punished.

Thinking of this, he walked towards the place that the staff had said before, and every step knocked on the smooth marble floor, making a series of "da-da" sounds, and he stood at the door of the lounge and knocked on the door.

"May I come in?"

No one in the door answered him, but Shi Xu heard two familiar voices arguing quietly.

Shi Xu didn't expect the two of them to appear together, and began to hesitate whether he wanted to go in or not, one trouble was enough for him to have a headache.

In the end, Andrew opened the door for him, but instead of letting him in, he quickly locked the people inside without giving them time to react.

Song Yihan: ...... I truly believed in his wickedness.

Shi Xu looked at the key to lock the door in Andrew's hand, and said helplessly: "Where did your key come from?" ”

Andrew buried his head: "I took the ...... from the administrator"

Shi Xu didn't believe it: "Take it? ”

Andrew's head was buried lower: "The administrator is asleep. ”

In a place where Andrew couldn't see, Shi Xu let out a helpless chuckle: "You're finished, the administrator will definitely arrest people everywhere when he wakes up." He patted the big golden retriever on the head, "Raise your head, I won't scold you, it's your boss's duty to scold you." ”

Andrew saw that there was no reproach in Shi Xu's eyes, and suddenly laughed heartlessly, he scratched his head and was embarrassed: "Shi, I have something I want to show you." ”

It was the first time Shi Xu heard Andrew call him so seriously, and he had a premonition when he took the papers.

He understood what the meaning behind this paper was, Shi Xu looked at the red-faced Andrew, and seemed to see his past self through him, but it was a pity that he would never learn such a warm expression.

"Andrew, why do you believe in love at first sight?"

Shi Xu touched his trouser pocket, there was no smoke, he was unconsciously accustomed to the days without smoke.

Andrew leaned against the wall opposite Shi Xu, and for the first time he saw his sweetheart show such an expression.

"Isn't love like this, the heart is hit in an instant, and then 'it's this person', 'I'm going to pursue this person', love can't think about it so much, you run away when you think about it." Andrew was originally a little nervous because of the confession, but when he said this, he suddenly felt that his soul was sublimated.

The corners of Shi Xu's mouth hooked a shallow arc, and he looked at Andrew seriously: "You know? The word 'shine' doesn't suit me at all, I'm not a sunny and resolute person, I have an inferiority complex and a terrible self-esteem in my bones, I crave the recognition of the outside world, but I just want to pretend not to care, I don't have the interest to think twice every time I get up to answer a question, I stand up and seem to finish speaking lightly, in fact, my hands have to shake for a while when I sit down. ”

Andrew was stunned and said in a panic that he didn't care, but there was uncertainty in his eyes that he didn't even notice.

Shi Xu handed the paper back to Andrew: "Don't believe in love at first sight, because you can't be sure what kind of person you fall in love with at first sight." ”

He asked Andrew for the key to open the door, and the big boy's voice sounded behind him again.

"What about him? Are you sure he's the person you want? Andrew's voice was unwilling and frustrated, "Don't deny it, you look at him differently." ”

Shi Xu inserted the key into the lock hole, did not turn, his forehead against the door and muttered, "How can I be sure?" ”

"Andrew, if I am your 'shine', this person is my 'shine'."

It is the light that he can never find in his life.

Shi Xu opened the door and watched the eavesdropper stand up straight in a panic, scratching his head as if he had just done nothing.

"I'm not eavesdropping, I'm just figuring out how to get the door open." Song Yihan turned his head and found that Andrew was no longer outside, he pinched his fingers a little nervously, not knowing what the two of them had just said.

Only the sound of the clock was left in the quiet atmosphere, and embarrassment flowed between the two, Song Yihan held his breath and wanted to break the atmosphere, but was preempted by Shi Xu.

"Andrew confessed to me."

Song Yi was cold, he was anxious and angry now, afraid that he would say something that hurt Shi Xu, so he could only clench his hands into fists fiercely and suppress his mouth: "I want to know your answer." ”

Shi Xu looked at Song Yihan's eyes, saw through his forbearance and depression, and also saw through his panic, as if he was afraid that he would throw him away.

But how to lose it? No one taught him how to leave someone he still loved?

"Song Yihan, I thought a lot before I came in this door, I should have told you 'Andrew is a good boy, I must be happier with him than with you', I want to make you sad and make you sad, and make you regret that you have treated me like this, but ...... Why can't I say it? ”

Shi Xu tugged at the tie on the neckline and let himself breathe a sigh of relief: "Song Yihan, what's so good about you?" Why should I love and hate and then forgive you? ”

"Warm ......"

He saw Song Yihan walking towards him excitedly, and stretched out his hand against his chest to stop him from getting closer.

"I'll only say these things once, so you can listen carefully to me."

Shi Xu's hand holding Song Yihan's collar was trembling, he forced his cowardly self to be tough, and said in a dumb voice: "Song Yihan, it's not that no one loves me in this world, so you have to cherish it when I am willing to love you again and again, there will be no third time in this kind of love, if one day you want to abandon me and get rid of me-"

Shi Xu poked at the position of Song Yihan's heart, poking one word at a time.

"I'll dig out your heart."

Shi Xu didn't know if Song Yihan could accept such a sick and paranoid him, in the past, he wanted him to be loved very easily, so the love he expressed was only one thousandth, he was afraid that his majestic love would make him pressured, but now he doesn't want to be like this.

He wants Song Yihan to see him completely, even once, he has to be truly loved by him.

Shi Xu was ready to scare people away, and he was also ready to be pushed away by disgust, but Song Yihan always exceeded his expectations.

Song Yihan left a tear in his eyes, drop after drop, as if there was no end.

Shi Xu was stunned, and the person in front of him was also stunned, he touched his cheek, as if these tears did not flow from him.

Song Yihan suddenly understood that this was his soul crying, and his soul was saying-

"Shi Xu, it's not just my heart, as long as you are by my side, I can even give you my life."