It's been a long time since I've seen Xiao Meow, and it's been three years since Han Yi first saw this cute kitten, and he's always been a good listener.

After Wu Yingying's death, he would often smile and feed Xiao Meow, but Xiao Meow was sad every time, and he was not in a hurry to eat, and the two cat's eyes looked at Han Yi directly, and then stretched out his little paws from time to time to rub on Han Yi's arm, or he was transferred to Han Yi's arms and then buried his head in Han Yi's chest, as if he was feeling Han Yi's mood and coaxing Han Yi to be happy. In the past few years, the little meow has almost become a big meow, although it has gained a lot of weight and a lot of energy than when I first saw it, but it is not as lively and cute as it was at that time, like a cat will become a lot of sorrow when it grows up, Chen Ze also found this problem a year ago, and wondered if it was because he didn't have a girlfriend, until he saw Xiao Meow and a little female cat together......

Han Yi hugged Xiao Meow and said I was very happy, no need to be like this, eat obediently. Xiao Meow looked at Han Yi again and again with a hesitant expression, and then reluctantly picked up the cat food and put it in her mouth. I may be thinking that the master should also grow up, and there should be some changes.

Although in the past three years, Han Yi has taken care of Xiao Meow even less often than Lin Ziqi and Gu Xue, sometimes the itinerary given by HF is too full, Han Yi has gone around the country to sign and sell, thinking that Xiao Meow has forgotten himself, or has lived and flown with that little female cat, or with an owner who can take care of him more. But every time Xiao Meow obediently waited in the small house that Han Yi bought for it, and then threw herself into Han Yi's arms and was coquettish.

Han Yi sometimes thinks that even a cat can remember a person for so long, how can I easily forget it, and how can I be easily forgotten.

He had wanted to go to Yan Shuang countless times, but he was called back again and again by the person in his heart, timidity, cowardice, impulsiveness, longing, sadness, all emotions were intertwined, twisting Han Yi's heart into a cloud of blood mist. He already felt that the person he might be tortured was not a ghost, but seeing the melancholy prince-like appearance on his promotional poster, fans couldn't stop, and they didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

Sometimes people are like this, the more glamorous they look on the surface, the more they don't know how embarrassed they are in their hearts. It seems that only a person can be done well when he lacks love, and he can write amazingly when he is desperate, because no matter how clumsy his essay is, as long as he writes a tenth of his own sorrow, he can make the world hide his face and cry.

Sometimes Han Yi is very envious that Xiao Meow can be a cat, and he also wants to be a cat, waiting for the owner to feed him all day long, and is only responsible for spoiling and raising fat. You don't have to care about the eyes of the world, and you don't have to care if someone dies because of yourself.

But it is also possible that it also has its own troubles, the unknown life is always better than its own, and some people say that in fact, no one is much better, but you have not experienced it, but he thinks that if he can change it, he is willing to exchange his life with anyone.

Handsome appearance, popular writer, good income, healthy body, what a good bargaining chip...... But why do I envy those people who live an ordinary life so much, how can I be willing to give up everything and change to an ordinary life.

Han Yi wanted to regret it, but he didn't regret it, he couldn't think of anything he had done wrong, whether it was Xiaolu Yanshuang or Wu Yingying.

Xiao Meow became inexplicably excited, Han Yi turned around, and saw Lin Ziqi, the Lin Ziqi who had just rejected him.

"You're here?"

"I thought you wouldn't want to meow."

"I just didn't want it."

Another long silence, Han Yi felt that he was quite good at chatting before, especially in the face of such a beautiful girl, but he didn't know why now, but he often didn't know what to say, maybe he knew what he wanted to say but didn't bother to say it, he felt that all this was meaningless, and the words on his lips were suppressed by gray life.

"I know you're pitiful, but everyone is pitiful, you waited for Yanshuang for four years, and I waited for you for three years, and in the end I rejected you personally, and Yingying's thing, aren't we uncomfortable if you are uncomfortable?"

"I know you're uncomfortable, but I'm not only uncomfortable but also blame myself, if you're smiling in front of you like that by someone you don't usually pay much attention to, you know that your current pain of simply losing a friend is nothing, if you have a similar past." Han Yi looked at Lin Ziqi and continued, "I also know that there are many poor people in the world, and I am just one of them, I look very beautiful, maybe in front of those who can't even eat enough and can't even tell about their suffering, my pity is nothing at all." But you know what, I'm a coward than they are, and there are a lot of people who have been through a lot more than I have, and there may be a war somewhere in the world, but they can still find a little joy there through things like the army that protects them has won a battle, and they can at least feel some happiness if they are given a large bill by a passer-by. But for me, even if my books are exported abroad and translated into many languages tomorrow, and my status surpasses Liu Feng, I still feel that it doesn't matter. Even the person I've been waiting for me doesn't know what to do with her if she comes back one day, even though even the chances of that are slim. The most important thing is that I know that poor people must have something to hate, but I really can't think of anything to hate about myself, I can't do anything from the beginning to the end, I always think that I am very good, but I have always been led by fate, if I was born to be a mistake, I was born to face this, then I am relieved. ”

Han Yi said so much in one breath, but his heart was inexplicably very happy, Lin Ziqi may be the person he can talk to now, and he doesn't expect her to understand, but at least with Han Yi's understanding, Lin Ziqi is a good listener, the same as the little meow next to him.

When Han Yi said these words, Xiao Meow was very scared as if he was frightened, he might not have seen Han Yi like this, so he shrank aside and didn't dare to make a sound, Han Yi breathed a sigh of relief after speaking, touched Xiao Meow's head and said yes. Lin Ziqi still didn't speak, but the eyes that looked at Han Yi changed, after Han Yi said what was on his mind, Lin Ziqi could finally see him clearly, it turned out that he hadn't changed, but the world had changed too fast, and he was just a child.

"Do you know Ziqi, in fact, sometimes the pain of life is far more than death, there are many people who endure great grief and continue to live for a reason, not because they are strong, they actually want to die a long time ago, they actually want to die for a long time, just because they are cowardly, they lack a little more courage than those who are born again, in their hearts, they admire those so-called people who can't think about it, you don't understand, because you don't understand the pain. Every time I think that I almost committed suicide, I regret why I didn't jump at that time, if I still have a little worry and hope in my heart, Yan Shuang is no longer counted, but I still can't let go of my family......"

"Han Yi, thank you for your hard work." Lin Ziqi already wanted to hug him distressedly, saying that I am still here, yes, I was born as a human being, and I have worked hard for you......

"I want to be your concern, and there is hope." Lin Ziqi said with a sob.

"Forget it, some time ago, I was just blocked in my heart by myself and couldn't get out, so I forced myself to pretend that nothing happened, and I forced myself to pretend that I could see the future and let go of the past, but the words I just said to you made me wake up and see myself clearly, I don't love you, but you are a good friend."

"Actually, you don't know if you like me or not, do you?"

"What?" Han Yi was startled by Lin Ziqi's question, wondering how she had come up with such a judgment.

"The person in your dream, in fact, you can't tell whether it's me or Yan Shuang, we've known each other for more than three years, and the time you and Yan Shuang have been together for only three years, you're actually not sure, the name you shout every time you dream is Lin Ziqi or Yan Shuang, right?"

When Lin Ziqi said these words, Han Yi was also stunned for a long time, she always thought that what she should like was Yan Shuang, the figure in the dream, after waking up, she also took it for granted that it was Yan Shuang, he never thought that it was Lin Ziqi.

Sometimes, when facing Lin Ziqi, he had a different throbbing in his heart, and he had the feeling of falling in love with him, but Han Yi always attributed the reason for this feeling to "Ziqi looks too much like Yan Shuang, so he mistakenly thought that Lin Ziqi was Yan Shuang at that moment." ”

But he never thought that the person who appeared in the dream, that face, might be Ziqi...... and Yingying's diary...... Has the person who has not been heard from really been replaced by the person in front of him?

Lin Ziqi hugged Han Yi and said Do you know, during the time I took care of you, the name you shouted in your dream was already Ziqi......

It's already ...... Ziqi......

Xiao Meow shouted happily and walked away, it seemed to be very willing to see Lin Ziqi and Han Yi hugging each other like this, Han Yi didn't know what to do now, he was sad enough, he couldn't even figure out who he liked now, he had compromised too much with this world, and the love that he thought he insisted on had actually become another person in the dark? In this way, Yingying can be blinded, except for the most humble obsession and dignity in her heart, everyone is happy?

And Xiaoshuang, too, will be very happy......

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