Chapter 23
The most memorable gatherings take place after the most memorable festivals.
At that art festival, Han Yi and Fang Siyi sang Lin Junjie's "Wings", and because of that time, Han Yi clearly realized that what he liked was Yan Shuang, but what he should like was Chen Xiaolu.
After the art festival, there were fewer rumors, there were fewer people of the opposite sex around Han Yi and Fang Siyi, and Chen Xiaolu no longer sent breakfast, and everything seemed to be peaceful.
Not long after, Murong Lingfeng and Leng Qin came together.
Han Yi never thought that these two people would have such a high-profile early love, and the book co-authored by the two was published on the day their relationship was announced, revealing sweetness and happiness between the lines.
Han Yi organized a dinner party to celebrate the two of them, celebrate the publication of their new book, and celebrate the two people finally coming together.
On that day, Yan Shuang drank too much, and Han Yi looked at Yan Shuang and drank too much.
When Han Yi insisted on not drinking, Yan Shuang had actually drunk too much, she cried and laughed in a daze, shouted Murong Lingfeng, and then called Han Yi.
Hu Lei and Wang Tao sent the two people back separately, and on the way, they witnessed the two crying.
Han Yi didn't go home, looking at the stars on a chair in the park, and Hu Lei looked at Han Yi without saying a word.
Han Yi confided in his heart to this friend, pretentious like a girl.
Han Yi told Hu Lei that he didn't know who to like, he had never been so confused in his heart, he felt that he should like Chen Xiaolu, and he felt that he should like Yan Shuang. I had a crush on a talented musician for a year but couldn't sing, and the voice I imagined her to be came from another person who liked him. Satirize! Destiny! The realistic and sad words urged Han Yi to burst into tears after drinking.
I always thought that the person who pressed me to the second place in the competition was Yan Shuang, from that day when Murong Lingfeng returned to the dormitory and said, "I heard Yan Shuang listening to that song", the song "Blood Velvet Flower", Han Yi had already determined that the voice that often sounded in his dreams was Yan Shuang's.
But...... Why did Chen Xiaolu use her familiar voice at the festival......
Under the influence of alcohol, not long after, Han Yi fell asleep on Hu Lei's body, and Hu Lei was not at ease and stayed with his brother like that.
A year later, Hu Lei told Han Yi that he had affectionately shouted her name countless times in his wine-filled mouth that day.
That name is Yan Shuang.
No one else knows about this matter, and Hu Lei never says it to the outside world, including Han Yi himself.
Yan Shuang is not a fool, he can see that Han Yi takes care of him, and it seems that Han Yi likes him, and Han Yi also knows that she knows, and the two are just tacitly good friends with each other. In fact, Yan Shuang was also entangled, the feelings of youth were always so unclear, she felt that she was moved from the bottom of her heart by her concern for Han Yi, and she felt that she should always love Murong Lingfeng. A few years later, she understood the difference between love and liking, liking is just a momentary throbbing of a girl's heart, and falling in love is eternal.
After experiencing that night, Han Yi's mood fluctuated a lot, but he finally figured out this truth, he only liked Chen Xiaolu out of appreciation, not liking, and his original intention for Yan Shuang may be because it was not her beautiful voice, but more of the emotions cultivated together. Because he found that he had formed an instinct to be kind to Yan Shuang, a habit that could not be changed.
The next morning, Han Yi expressed his intention to Yan Shuang, explaining his original intention to wait for her until graduation.
Han Yi didn't expect her to have an early love with herself, she just wanted to have a self in her heart after graduation, when she didn't have the burden of early love, and give herself the most authentic answer without other burdens and emotions.
Almost at the same time, Chen Xiaolu, who was also present at last night's banquet, looked at Han Yi, who was drinking sullen wine for Yan Shuang, and seemed to be stimulated by something, and gave him the gift she prepared for Han Yi's birthday, in fact, Han Yi's birthday has passed for more than a month, and her gift has not been sent.
Who would have thought that Chen Xiaolu, who has always been outgoing, would be so subtle in doing things.
It was 99 hand-folded paper cranes, placed in a box. Every thousand paper cranes were filled with what Chen Xiaolu wanted to say to Han Yi.
That night's banquet almost changed the rest of the high school life of several people.
That night, Han Yi climbed to the top of the building and carefully read the words that Chen Xiaolu wrote to himself by the faint light and moonlight.
Under the bright moonlight, people's heartstrings are always so easy to be emotionally fluctuated, Han Yi thought about it for a long time, and was also deeply moved.
However, Han Yi, who realized that he couldn't like Chen Xiaolu, decided to cut off contact with her in order not to hurt her deeply.
And he himself was treated in the same way.
Since then, the atmosphere in the class has become very oppressive. Han Yi became silent, and Yan Shuang also applied to sit separately from him, and Han Yi gladly accepted. Chen Xiaolu, who has always been arrogant, has also become taciturn.
Several people seem to have only learning in their hearts every day, reading books without stopping, not crying or laughing, and not communicating with others.
In fact, everyone knows that their hearts are not learning, but their hearts that have been injured by reality need a dose of anesthetic to anesthetize themselves, their nerves, and their bodies, so that they think that they are not abandoned by this world, even if they cannot be with their own world.
A few people who have not graduated from high school naively think that they will always like the person they like at the moment, and the same is true for Han Yi, he thought that Yan Shuang was his whole world, but just a year later, he understood that time is huge for the tempering of people's hearts, and a year is enough time to make you less crazy and allow you to have a calm attitude in the face of your original emotions. In fact, it's just that the feelings are buried in the bottom of the heart by time, even if you can't see the fire burning, the temperature is preserved in the deepest atrium, as long as it is slightly stimulated, it will still ache faintly.
The process from madness to calm is not the process of feelings being diluted by time, this process is called growth.
Han Yi drank all the wine in the cup, and Fang Siyi touched him: "What's the matter, didn't you swear never to get drunk again, and will you break the vow again after a while." ”
Lin Ziqi, Gu Xue and the others didn't know why they had to look at Han Yi blankly, but they always knew that something was wrong. Only Chen Ze stupidly shouted loudly with a beer glass on the side:
"Mr. Han, don't stop, come one!"
"The feelings are deep and boring, and the feelings are iron and vomit blood, Mr. Han."
"Come!" Han Yi should be with him. was hammered on the stool by Fang Siyi.
"Well......" Sisi said embarrassedly, "After today's drink, we are also familiar with each other, Han Yi is relieved to have you to take care of me, he can't drink anymore, bye-bye......"
So he dragged Han Yi away stiffly, and Han Yi's screams were heard in the distance......
"I'm not drunk! I'm just skewering beer! ”
"No, you're drunk!"
"Don't pull my hair, ahh
"Code words for this girl!"
"Hmm...... Let's go, too. Lin Ziqi said helplessly with a look of consternation.
"Agreed."