The old man looked at me, his smile was still as kind as before, but how did he feel a kind of creepy coldness, he said: "The so-called love, yin and yang are combined, complement each other, there is no perfect person in this world, even if there is, two perfect people, they will not love each other, even if they love each other, they can't stay together for a lifetime, only two incomplete people are the most perfect, complementing each other's gaps, like a pair of gears, supporting each other, like yin and yang gossip, together is a piece, A complete circle without gaps, if she is strong, you will be weak, if she is weak, you will be strong, as a man, as her lover, how can she retreat because of a little blow, 'She's not my girlfriend.' If you are really so weak, then you don't deserve love in this life. ”

Listening to the old man's words, I was surprised that my jaws had already taken off the threads, and my unconscious jaw may have fallen to the ground long ago.

Who is this old man, why is there a saint-like light around him at this moment, is he a poet? Is it a love expert? Is it a philosopher? Is he the master of truth in life?

Why is what he said so profound, so poetic, so intriguing, so incomprehensible, although I can't understand it, I am still so moved.

I could feel the boiling blood, and the moist eyes, as if I were a lost lamb in love, longing to be saved, to be guided, and those words were as if God were saying, 'Brave child, I have told you the truth about love, and the rest is only for you to take a step forward and bravely open this door, and you will be able to get your love, your love, your love, love...'

But outside the door, it wasn't my girlfriend, it was Chu Man.

How to talk to him, think about the old man's crutches, the power of the smash just now, if you are saying no, I am afraid that this time, it will be accurately hit and beaten to the cripple.

Looking at the old man's expression, he seemed to be still immersed in the emotions of an impassioned speech.

This old man in the sixtieth year, although he was thin and full of white hair, but his face was ruddy, his voice was sonorous and powerful, his eyes were shining with vitality, and the hand he held the crutches could clearly see that the bulging green tendons were a healthy old man no matter how he looked at it.

But he lives in a ward for brain patients.

The clothes he was wearing could see that he was a long-term hospitalized patient, and on the edge of the clothes, there was a name written with an oil-based pen, although it was washed a little white, he could still vaguely see three words, Li Guomin.

There are also piles under the bed, and all kinds of daily necessities are also written with this name, which is the same as the name on the marking card at the head of his bed, which is marked in red, special food.

Why does such a vigorous old man live in the hospital for a long time, why is it a special food, and why does he write his name on the items? Alzheimer 's? Afraid of forgetting?.

Special food generally refers to people who can't eat independently, need to inject nutrients, or intubate a gastric tube to inject liquid food, and the old man in front of him, no matter how you look at it, doesn't look like a person who can't eat, let alone a sick person.

The look in his eyes now, depressed? Happy? Agitated? Sad? Miss? In the complicated eyes, it is really impossible to see his mood at the moment.

He didn't look at me, he took out a worn-out wallet from his pocket, the old wallet, the leather on it was peeling, covered with cracks, whether the original color was black or brown, I couldn't see clearly, but the old man seemed to cherish it, gently opened the wallet, carefully stroked a photo inside, it seemed that he was very lost, and very lonely.

Since I was admitted to this hospital, not counting the time I was in a coma, I have been in a coma for most of the day, although I have been arguing with Chu Man, but I can feel that the old man's gaze has never left us, he seems to be very gentle, because we are laughing, but he will sigh softly from time to time.

An elderly man who needs special food, living in an intensive care ward, but has no guardian by his side, for so long, except for the nurse who occasionally comes to change the dressing, no one else has come, what about the old man's family? Why not take care of it by your side.

Speaking of changing dressings, although I didn't pay much attention to them, I have a vague impression that after I was admitted to this ward, the nurse came once, and when I changed the dressings for the old man, he was very quiet, as if it was not the same as now, very quiet, very weak, very weak lying on the bed.

It's like a real seriously ill patient, dying and breathing.

But now, that energetic look, and, needles! Following the injection tube, I saw that it was put into the largest doser, and the needle was not inserted into the old man's arm, but hidden under the quilt, and a large soaked water stain was clearly visible.

The nurse once complained to him and pulled out the needle himself, but it turned out that he pulled out the needle and inserted it under the mattress.

No wonder, as soon as I woke up, I smelled a strong smell of medicine, probably the nurse who has been working in the hospital for a long time has become accustomed to this smell of medicine, so I didn't notice it.

But why did he do this?

Said he was not sick, but lived in the hospital, said he was sick, but did not get injections.

The old man seemed to notice my gaze, he was very embarrassed to pull the quilt over, and said: "Oh, people are old, and various organs of the body are useless, I didn't expect this age, and I will wet the bed when I sleep, hahaha..."

It seems to be talking to himself, but it is clearly hiding it from me.

An old man who is obviously in good health, but has been hospitalized for a long time, obviously does not need injections, not only does not refuse, but also tries his best to accept it, and does not hesitate to destroy his reputation, saying that the infusion is bedwetting, what threat has his life suffered? Only by pretending to be sick can you live?

I can't think about it anymore, I'm a person with more than 17,000 foreign debts, if I can't do it, I'm going to sell myself into slavery in the next second, so don't get involved in more things, some things, the less I know, the more miserable my death will be.

Let's follow God's guidance and open that door and find my love.

It's just that my body is a little stiff, and it is difficult to even stand up, but I still want to pretend that I don't know anything and say: "Grandpa, you are right, men should not retreat, and women should be cared for and loved." ”

I don't know why, there was a burst of cold light behind him, and the old man said leisurely: "It's not that women should be cared for, but that men want to be cared for, they need to be cared for, care is not a kind of giving, but a kind of return, young man, always remember my words, if you find the person you want to care, no matter what threats or temptations you encounter, don't give up, because once you give up, that regret can't be compensated for in your life." ”

Someone who wants to pamper? Threat? Remorseful? Compensate? Hearing this, I couldn't help but stand on the bristles, thinking of the sadness and loss in his eyes, was it because his family was held hostage by someone? He is not allowed to pretend to be a patient, not to wet the bed without inserting the infusion tube under the bed, and not to hesitate to wet the bed? Is this the only way to save your life?

Thirty-six strategies are the best strategy: "Ah, haha, yes, she, she needs my care, and she needs it now, I have to go and chase her back." After saying that, I walked out of the ward without looking back and closed the door.

Seeing Chu Man outside the door, sobbing sadly, her thin body, trembling because of crying, red and swollen eyes, hanging with crystal tears, at that moment, she seemed so lonely and helpless.

Seeing her, I froze in place, I don't know why, my heart, I felt a twitching pain, a sour feeling in my nose, and my vision involuntarily became blurred.

No matter how willful and domineering she is, after all, she is just a girl, what I said just now, did it really hurt her, in my heart, I don't want to pay off her debts, I actually still want to hear her voice, see her very arrogant, listen to her say that she wants to destroy me, but never really destroy me.

Chu Man raised his head, looked at me with teary eyes, and said in a choked voice: "Xiao Ting, I'm sorry to let you see me crying, but what to do, why does my heart hurt so much." ”

Her words made me lose all my defenses, what a man's dignity, face, machismo, what love, what ex-girlfriend, what a woman, what a crazy girl, at this moment, in front of me, this woman is the person I want to take care of, her tears, her crying, inch by inch broke my heart, shattered my self-esteem, I can even kneel in front of her now, apologize to her for what I said before, and ask for her forgiveness.