Perhaps because the thunder was so loud that I was a little dizzy, I was taken out in a daze, and when I became conscious, I was lying in the hut in the cave lake, and the situation was not very good.

The main thing is that it is inconvenient to describe.

Seeing that I was a little distracted, Bai Jinghong frowned and asked, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I said, "My legs are numb......

"How long has it been, why are you still numb." His tone sounded impatient, as if he was tired of my squeamish and eventful temperament, but he still reached into the quilt and rubbed his palm on my leg.

I said, "You've known for a long time, it's not you, you...... Where do you get so much strength? ”

Bai Jinghong glanced at me coldly, and said coldly: "You have been lying down for twenty years without complaining, and you have the strength to pierce the sky." ”

"Then you can't ...... as you die"

I was embarrassed to say the word "stab", so I pulled his arm and said, "We're reconciled now, right?" ”

"Nope."

"Why not, you ......"

Bai Jinghong glanced at me again, turned away again, and said, "You want to be beautiful." ”

No, brother, such a frivolous prodigal behavior is not in line with your setting, I knew that he was still angry with me, and hurriedly pounced, and the little bird was attached to him weakly and bonelessly, but Bai Jinghong thought that I delayed him to rub my legs, and with a twist of my arm, I could only lie back honestly.

I said, "I was wrong. ”

He didn't ask me what was wrong.

I said, "I really didn't take you as fruit, I didn't come and go without being summoned, I always thought about you in my heart, and I never thought of driving you away from my heart for a moment." I'm just stupid. ”

"Are you stupid?" Bai Jinghong said, pulled my arm and rubbed it again, but his eyes still refused to look at me, and said without much emotion: "You even know what Benjun is planning, why are you stupid?" ”

"That's because I know you."

"You know how I don't know what I'm angry about?"

"You ......" he said this, which means that he is not so angry that he is not called to come and go immediately, then I really don't know what he is angry about, could it be that I am angry at the sword I stabbed him twenty years ago, but I remember that he didn't mean to blame me at all. Or is it angry that I am close to Yuxi? This matter is also worth being angry about, but Bai Jinghong has some cleanliness habits, if he really takes it seriously, he will definitely not touch me.

Or am you angry with me for the marriage between Tianjun Zhang Luo and Emperor Feiyu? But didn't I also open my face and regret it......

I have thought a lot in my heart, and when I think about it this way, I have indeed done a lot of wrong things to him, but to admit my mistakes, I must also have a priority, which one is more wrong, and it is more important.

Bai Jinghong could hear what I was thinking, so he asked, "Have you thought about it?" ”

I shook my head, and he threw away my arm, ruffled my clothes, and prepared to leave, meaning let me think about it slowly. How can I let him go again, time is running out, I want to see more at a glance, and hurriedly pull him along, "I...... My waist is numb, you can help me rub it again, and I will think about it again. ”

Bai Jinghong sat on the edge of the bed, reached over and rubbed it heartlessly, I was afraid that I would not be able to keep him, so I could only pick out the most annoying one from the mistakes first, and said, "Are you angry that I promised you and Feiyu a marriage?" ”

"It's not."

"That's angry with me......"

"Why are you trying to stop it?"

Bai Jinghong took pity on me for being stupid, and finally stopped embarrassing me, but this answer made me even more confused, "Didn't I say in the palace, since you and I have our own plans and conflicts, there is no need to get married again." ”

"Just because it's not necessary? If it is an unnecessary thing, it is not necessary to succeed or not. ”

"Why is it not necessary, you once said that you wanted to marry me, although I am so old-skinned and old-faced, I am embarrassed to mention the word marriage, but if it is not necessary, you can't marry someone else."

"It's still not necessary." Bai Jinghong pulled out the palm that was rubbing my waist, sat on the edge of the bed with his back to me, and said clearly: "If it is very necessary, if you don't guess my thoughts, or I don't have any intention of entering the Tianji Tomb at all, then this marriage is necessary, and you won't stop it, even if I don't agree, will you try to force me to agree like you did twenty years ago?" ”

"I see, it's actually me that doesn't have to be necessary for you." After that, he stood up, wrapped his clothes, and walked out, this way was very decisive, and it was not at all that I could stay if I yelled about the pain and pain.

I understood what he meant, and I really didn't think about it from his point of view, and if I were to change places, I would be annoyed by this attitude problem. I have always felt that my attachment to Bai Jinghong is not true and sincere enough, except for shouting in my heart that I like him and is good for him, but there is always something that is not enough, and this suspicion makes me have no confidence to say the word "love" to him seriously.

But it's not like I don't love him, I just won't.

I put on my clothes and walked out of the hut, and saw Yu Xi leaning under the tree by the lake in the cave with a grass in his mouth and waiting for me, Bai Jinghong stood by the bridge railing at this end with his arms in his hand, and saw that I was hesitant, so he said: "Come with him, you don't make an appointment to go to the Tianji Tomb together, you go, I won't stop you." ”

I asked softly, "Why not?" ”

"There's no need," he said. ”

I didn't know what he was thinking, so I walked up and forcibly pulled his arm away, held his hand and said, "It's not that I haven't thought about being with you, but everything in the Tianji Tomb is invisible, even if you meet, you can't see each other, think about it, your father and aunt have been in it for more than 20,000 years, and they haven't seen each other, they must miss each other, and miss you dead, you finally look forward to the day when your flesh and blood are reunited, I hope your family can be reunited." ”

Bai Jinghong still lowered his eyes to the ground, too lazy to open his mouth to deal with me.

I went up to him again and hugged him, and asked sadly: "Is your injury okay, does it hurt, have you slept well all these years, ......?"

I had a lot of words to say hello, but Bai Jinghong pushed me away like this, held my shoulders with both hands, looked at me and said, "Bai Su, I'm tired." ”

I was dumbfounded, and then dumbfounded, "Tired?" You can't be tired, how can you be tired? Yanyan said that you won't get tired of loving someone. ”

I couldn't help but shed tears when I said that, I kept pushing him out, but the thing I was most afraid of was that one day he said that he didn't like me, if he didn't like me, I wouldn't know who I was.

I stopped him from my sight, and cried and said, "I beg you not to let me not see you, I haven't seen you for twenty years, and I want to be with you every minute now, and I don't want to be separated from you for a moment, from beginning to end, and I don't want to be separated from you for a moment." In the past 20 years, I have been sad every day, asking myself every day why I am so cruel, but I have never regretted it at all. ”

"Later, I figured it out, I once said to you, like is to treat me as your heart, liver and liver baby, hold it in your hand for fear of falling, hold it in your mouth for fear of melting, willing to give up your life for me, more willing to practice yourself for me. If this is liking, then the so-called love of the world is always deeper than liking, and doing something deeper than risking one's life for others and practicing oneself for others. I don't know what is deeper than this, at the beginning I thought it was to give up, give up what I wanted, give up the days that I would always be happy with you, fulfill you, for your good, but I gave up, you are clearly not good, but I know that you are not good, but I still have no regrets. I realized that love is useless in the first place, it doesn't make life better, and it doesn't really hurt people invisibly, but if you lose it, your soul is gone. Whether you love someone or something, it can make people firm in whatever they do. ”

"So I once hurt you firmly, and now I firmly want to hug you, no matter what awaits us in the future, I will not be afraid anymore, I am not afraid that you will not live well alone, and I am not even afraid that you may die, I just want you, I can want a day is a day, I can want a moment is a moment, even if I don't go to the main hall to stop it yesterday, when it comes to the day you get married, I will definitely go to the scene. Jinghong, will you let me do it again, will you let me do it again? ”

I shed tears pitifully, looked at him pitifully, but I was really not afraid in my heart, and I was not afraid that he would reject me, even if he rejected me, it would not change the fact that I loved him, so I continued to love him and continue to be firm for it.

Bai Jinghong only looked at me, was silent for a long time, and still didn't say yes or shouldn't. I was always a little disappointed in my heart, but I didn't want to be embarrassed, so I raised my hand first to wipe my tears, and Bai Jinghong held the hand I raised and asked, "What about Feiyu?" ”

I chuckled in my heart again, and said nervously: "She has taken care of you for twenty years, so you can't treat her badly." ”

"I'm going to lock her up, right now."