But Fang Jide turned around angrily, put his hands behind his back, and walked out.

I called him a lot, and he ignored me.

Under the bamboo shop, Zhang Bailiang suddenly came out, he came to me at once, I shrank to the bamboo shop in fright, the half-hidden door, and the open back door, there was a cool breeze blowing.

I suddenly found that my skirt was gone, the lower half of my body was flooded by the wind, a chill slowly crawled all over my body from the lower half of my body, I saw Zhang Bailiang in front of my eyes, he smiled and said: "You look at the bamboo shop, squeak, what a wonderful sound......

I screamed, and suddenly I heard someone calling me, Fang Qing, Fang Qing?

I opened my eyes, and I was sitting on a beach, and it was so beautiful. I looked at the light at the junction of the sea and the sky.

I suddenly heard a voice saying, "Fang Qing, wake up now." ”

I feel lost, am I not awake?

The voice was gentle and kind, as if it could be trusted. He said: "Look, Zhang Bailiang has been punished, and all the pain he gave you back then has been hit back on him, do you feel happy?"

I shook my head.

The voice said, "Do you want to wake up, or do you want to stay here?" ”

"It's beautiful. I'll be right here. ”

"Have you been here before?"

Fu Yankai took me here, and when I drove with Fu Yan, he often drove for two or three hours to take me to the beach to watch the sunrise.

Living in a seaside hotel, I turned my head and saw a big hotel behind, Fu Yan put his hand in his trouser pocket, and walked slowly with his head down.

I said and shouted at Fu Yankai: "Old Fu, come here!" ”

Sometimes I call him Ayan, but Fu Yankai is much older than me, and I always jokingly call him Lao Fu.

In this uninhabited beach,. The glow of the sun reflected us both in a beautiful orange.

He kissed me carefully, and he said, "Fang Qing, your first time is for me." ”

I shook my head, no, I didn't have the first time.

Fu Yankai said, "Let's go, I'll take you to see it." ”

He pulled me and walked towards the hotel, into a room, and I remembered that this was the hotel I came to when Fu Yankai and I were together for the first time.

He lifted the neat cover, and I saw a bright red flower blooming on it. When I opened the first time with Fu Yankai, my menstruation had just ended, and I didn't pay attention at the time, thinking that it was because my menstruation was not over.

I shook my head and said no, it's not a red.

Fu Yankai held my shoulder and watched me speak, but his voice was low, as if it was in my ear.

He said, "That person, didn't touch you, you think, you think about the scene when you woke up that day." Don't you believe me? “

If there is only one person left in this world who can make me believe, it must be Fu Yankai.

I looked at him and suddenly noticed that outside the floor-to-ceiling window, the sun was out.

In the clouds on the horizon, the sun struggled to leap out of the horizon, and the light instantly shone everywhere, and I felt warm up on my body.

I looked at Fu Yankai: "You didn't lie to me?" ”

He smiled: "When did I lie to you." ”

I snuggled into his arms and felt my eye sockets swell.

At this time, a voice suddenly said, "Fang Qing, when you hear the pendulum clock, at seven o'clock, you will wake up." ，

I opened my eyes and found myself sleeping in a bed that was not the seaside hotel of my dreams, but a room full of pear wood furniture.

I felt very relaxed, very comfortable, as if not a single cell had been fully rested, and I had a long and chaotic series of dreams, but at the moment I sat on this hard bed, and I clearly felt that I had woken up.

But how did I end up here?

It seems that he fell asleep in the car driven by Fu Yan?

I walked out the door, and there was a small hall outside.

Fu Yankai was in front of the case, practicing calligraphy.

Hearing the voice, Fu Yankai raised his head and said, "Awake?" While pulling out the paper under the pen, he casually stacked it on one side. Behind him was a bookshelf full of old books.

I used to watch him write, just like everyone else played golf, writing was one of his leisure activities.

I walked over, stood beside him, sharpened the ink for a while, and saw that he had just pulled out the paper on one side, it was a blue character, his words were thick and powerful, and Fang Jide's style was completely different.

He handed over the pen: "Come, you write a few and I'll see." ”

I took the pen and wrote a random sentence about when the spring flowers and autumn moon were,

Fang Jide studied in the private school when he was a child, and he learned the three-character scripture, and he also practiced Ma Ao's nose. Later, when he grew up, he learned carpentry, and calligraphy did not fall behind, and when he was a child, carpenters made cupboards and wardrobes, and needed to mark the years and months, all of which he wrote on the log with ink.

My uncle and I were forced to practice for many years.

But I feel sorry for my grandmother, I always finish writing as quickly as if I have completed the task to help with the housework, I didn't work hard, I only learned a skin, and I was barely a showman.

Fu Yankai didn't dislike me this time: "It's okay." ”

I put pen to paper again, and at the beginning of the second sentence, I wrote a dream word inexplicably.

Fu Yankai looked at it, looked at me again, and said, "Zuo Ziju, who got in the car before, is a psychiatrist, I asked him to do a hypnosis for you in the car." ”

My hand trembled, and the soft tip of the pen pulled a long ink trail across the paper.

He said: "I should have obtained your consent, but I am afraid that you will not cooperate." The next is not an example. ”

I remembered his voice in that dream, put the brush on the inkstone, and was silent for a while: "Then, you also participated?" ”

He nodded: "The reason why you often feel cold legs and feet is probably because of the incident when you were a child, and you mentioned the bamboo shop several times......"

"Don't say it......" I interrupted him, don't look away, Fu Yankai grabbed me, looked at me and said: "Fang Qing, everything is over, the things when you were a child are over, you are already divorced, don't torture yourself like this." ”

I shook my head, and I said, "I didn't, he was punished, I was so happy, I tortured myself to do it?". ”

As I spoke, I walked into the house, Fu Yankai walked a few steps briskly, grabbed me, and pulled me into his arms, like a storm, his kiss was domineering and rapid.

He pushed me down on the bed, and he was familiar with every sensitive spot in my body.

At the critical moment, he held my face and said word by word: "Your first time is for me." Even though that thing was a little dirty, we washed it off and you were always clean. ”

I stared at him for a long time, and I felt that the corners of my eyes were extremely sour, and suddenly, a tear came out and filled my eyes.

For so many years, my grandfather's scolding has been ringing in my ears, and although I always repeat that dirty scene in my dreams, I have always avoided it and never thought about it, it was a nightmare after all.

No one ever seriously told me that you were clean.

I choked up and asked him, "Did you lie to me?" ”

Fu Yankai's voice was gentle and demagoguery: "Trust me." ”

Tears were like fountains, bulging out of his eyes in waves, flowing down his sockets, some rolling down his hair, some slipping into his ears, and I clutched at his collar and cried and cried.

I felt wet everywhere, my eyes, my neck, and the depths of my body. Wherever he goes, he brings warmth everywhere.

His smile was relieved, and he wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and he said lightly: "It's good to cry." ”

That night, I cried heartily. The desire to be closer to him made me forget my tears again.

It was the first time in my life that I felt that men and women could be so compatible, and that this fit could bring such great joy.

I indulged in the pleasure and satisfaction he bringed, lingering, unable to extricate myself.

The day before I left, I packed my small suitcase, and I always felt that something had been left behind and I forgot to bring it. I walked around the room, sorting out and arranging my suitcase, but it was as if I had everything with me.

This feeling of loss makes me feel uneasy.

Fu Yankai came back from work, looked at me like this, and asked me what was wrong.

I said it's okay, it's okay, let's eat, I made boiled fish.

Fu Yankai went to wash his hands, loosened his tie, walked to the dining table and looked at it, and said with a smile: "You went out to buy fish?" ”

I nodded, handed him the chopsticks, he took a piece to taste, and I quickly asked, "How is it?" ”

"Okay." Fu Yankai was self-made in his early years, had a difficult business, and often dealt with it casually, so he was not too picky. Saying it's okay, that's probably not going to work, I secretly rolled my eyes.

He added, "It's good to cook it a few more times, the flavor is slightly stronger, and the fish is old." ”

After eating, I put away the dishes, and he stood at the door of the kitchen and watched me finish washing the dishes and clean them up, and then said, "You are here, Aunt Hour doesn't have to come over." ”

I took off my apron, stood on tiptoe and hung it on the cupboard, and said, "Then why don't you pay me?" ”

He stepped forward and put his arms around my waist, brought me in front of him, hugged me tightly, and whispered, "You don't have more than Auntie's salary, don't you still warm the bed?"

I glanced at him: "I am doing part-time work, in exchange for you to sleep with me." ”

"You sleep with such a cheap man?" Fu Yankai said.

I squeezed out a smile: "yes, who told me that I don't have money, you did well last night, I'm very satisfied." ”

Fu Yankai sneered, didn't mind, let go of me, and asked, "Where is the newspaper today?" ”

I pointed to the coffee table in the living room, and he walked over to read the newspaper, so I turned on the TV, changed a few channels, and finally stopped at a program in Hunan TV where a middle school student confided in his parents, and asked the teenager to speak.

I was seeing a girl who was forcing her father to admit that she told her mother every day that I love you, and her father would be jealous. Thirteen or fourteen-year-old girl, on stage, when she generously shouted the words "I love you" to her father, I was infected and cried.

Pulling out a piece of paper to wipe his tears, Fu Yankai happened to read the newspaper and turned the page, watched me wipe my tears, and glanced at the TV again: "What are you crying about." Children can make you cry, what, want to go to school?

"It's not." I said, "When I was a child, I didn't have a good relationship with my family, and I was a little envious. ’

Fu Yan raised his eyebrows and looked at me for a while, then got up and said Sit down next to me, next to me.

I moved to the side, and he was impatient: "What are you running, sit down." ”

I won't move.

He asked me, "Have you forgiven your grandfather?"