"She" continued: "Ke Yi is a smart and cheerful person, she will not fall into love easily, but this time she fell into it, but it took her life. What's the use of being sincere? Haven't you been abandoned by that man? I still remember that she once called Cojo and said that the man was very funny, and that there were different ways of coming the night, some from the sky and some from the earth. What's interesting about this statement? Isn't it a rhetoric made up for pickling girls? But by saying this, I recognized him, and when he said this to Keqiao, I knew that he was the man who Ke Yi was. Do you think he's a cocoon? "She" actually laughed, and the laughter was creepy. I shook my head, when Zhao Ping said this, I only felt familiar, but I had forgotten what my sister had said to me, and naturally I couldn't imagine that he was the dead and alive person that my sister once loved, but "she" remembered.

And Lu Zenghan's voice suddenly became louder, with anger: "You know a fart!" Do you know why he said that? He once caught the murderer in the mountains, because the night in the mountains was enveloped from the ground, and he could not see the murderer from a high place, but the murderer could see him from below, and broke his hamstring with a shotgun, delaying the time for treatment, and from then on he could no longer rush to the front line, nor could he run fast, and his feet hurt very much when it was cloudy and raining. ”

"He was also in the anti-narcotics unit, and the drug dealers took his son hostage, a two-year-old child. He pretended to agree to the drug dealer's request and gave the drug dealer a boat, but the drug dealer chose the place of handover on a desert island, the night on the island was covered from the sky, and there was still a trace of light on the ground, but the sky was pitch black, and the signal he sent was because the sky was dark and invalid, and the backup force did not arrive in time, so he had to fight to the death with the drug dealer, and the child was thrown by the drug dealer, and the child was injured and frightened, and the child was not cured and died. Lu Zenghan choked up a little and roared in a low voice, "The rhetoric you think is the price of his blood and tears." ”

"She" didn't speak, and after a long time, "she" said coldly, "So what? Even if he had been hurt, it was no excuse for him to do evil. Maybe it was because of these things that he became cold-hearted, using Ke Yi and harming Ke Yi. For me, it doesn't matter what he has suffered, what matters is that he has harmed Keyi. ”

There were two more noisy voices in the recorder, and she sneered: "What, you still want to hit me?" You fight. Why not fight? After a pause, she suddenly laughed enchantingly, "Why, can't you look at this face?" You're not a good thing, haven't you ever taken good care of me? You're so scheming to get me and Ke Qiao infighting. Hate it, I didn't know that you and Zhao Lichuan were the same pair of pants at the time. You are all all the way, using your own injuries as an excuse to hurt others with impunity. ”

Lu Zenghan seemed to be a little speechless by her, and said after a long time: "Everyone has a good side and an evil side in their hearts, and when justice and justice can't solve the problem, evil will naturally be born." I can understand. But like you, your heart is full of ugliness and hatred, aren't you tired? ”

"She" paused for a moment before she said, "But if I were all evil, I would have left all the good to Kojo, and she would not have been surrounded by hatred and lived a miserable life." ”

"Are you and Keqiao separated? Your evil is to act with Ke Qiao's body, but Ke Qiao's kindness, knowing that you do these things, will only make it more painful. You don't know Ke Qiao, you don't know Ke Yi, you don't know the past of Ke Yi and Zhao Lichuan, you only rely on your own judgment, you go to attack indiscriminately, do you think you are right? Lu Zenghan asked lightly, but his voice had an irresistible power.

"She" couldn't help but shout: "I know, I know!" You don't fann the flames here. ”

"Do you understand? If you understand that when I care about you, you should reject me, not want to reject. Your thoughts all come from Kejo's subconscious. You didn't have a good impression of me, because Ke Qiao's subconscious once suspected that I was living with Xia Mengci in this house, and she was sad several times because of my rejection of her, all you collected was this kind of negative emotion, you should hate me. But because Ke Qiao saw Ke Yi's things in this house later, she thought that I had a relationship with Ke Yi, and you were also hesitant about my relationship with Ke Yi because of Ke Qiao's thoughts, and your trust in me and even your dependence on me later came from Ke Qiao's doubts about the relationship between Ke Yi and me. How can you talk about understanding Keyi? Lu Zenghan even said a little seriously, "Why turn yourself into a carrier of hatred?" You also want to love and be loved. ”

"Her" voice was angry: "You talk nonsense, I don't need love, I just need to protect Ke Qiao and keep her from harm, I'm going to help Ke Qiao do what she can't do if she doesn't dare to do." I warn you, don't provoke me and Keqiao again, or I'll kill you next!" ”

There was no sound behind the recorder, and I was thrilled to hear it. Her mind, mature and independent, and her ability to think clearly, are completely different from me. My feelings are too complicated to put into words. I looked at Lu Zenghan blankly: "What should I do?" Tell me, what should I do? ”

There was a trace of despair in my heart, Lu Zenghan was right, everyone has good thoughts and evil thoughts in their hearts, but the good and evil of others are alternating, suppressing each other and eliminating each other, and I, I don't know if it is because I studied psychology, I actually divided good and evil into two independent souls, so that two people were born, causing uncontrollable consequences. Now she even wants to kill Lu Zenghan.

"Is it only when I'm dead that I can stop her sins?" I curled up in pain.

"But Joe, don't think so." Lu Zenghan held my shoulder tightly, his eyes were full of pain, "Trust me, you will be fine." ”

I shook my head and leaned weakly on the head of the bed, how can I be okay? I've studied cases of split personality, and I've never had a sub-personality so stubborn and independent that it almost crushes the main personality, and I don't know how to cure it.

"But Joe, look at me." Lu Zenghan squeezed my hand, "I don't know if I'm qualified to say I love you when you know the cause and effect of all this." But I still have the cheekiness to say, even if it's for me, you have to cheer up, and you can't think of using death to solve the problem. ”

"For you?" I smiled weakly and bitterly, "Zeng Han, have you thought about it, did you save me so many times, was it out of the responsibility and morality of the police, or out of love for me?" At least that time on Nanqi Island, you saved me on the cliff out of responsibility. "I still can't forget that painful and tangled struggle. I continued, "Even now, you have given up the original intention of letting my two personalities kill each other, out of the morality of the police? Or is it out of apology for knowing Zhao Lichuan's true character? Or love me? ”

My question stunned Lu Zenghan, and he didn't speak. My heart cooled down a little, and I sighed: "There is another problem, now I and "her" are two people in your eyes, you can convince yourself that it was she who killed Zhao Lichuan, and it has nothing to do with me." But what if I'm better? I and her have become a person, she has become a part of me, it is my evil thoughts, how can you get over the hurdles in your heart? "The more I talk about it, the more sad I feel, Lu Zenghan and I have no way forward, in this world, without my sister, without Lu Zenghan, the people who love me have left me, and there is only one sub-personality, in the name of loving me, doing what I hate. I don't know what lies ahead for me except death.

Lu Zenghan also fell into thought because of my question, but he thought about it for a long time, but he didn't have an answer, and finally sighed: "Ke Qiao, I'm a little confused now, your logic makes me don't know where to break through, I need to think about it before answering you." But one thing I know, I love you. Although the morality of the police asked me to save you on Nanqi Island, they didn't make me think about you, miss you, and didn't make me want to give you everything I had, want to marry you, and want to have children with you. The morality of the police is not so broad. ”

My dying heart suddenly thumped twice again, and it hurt a little, and tears suddenly came out. Lu Zenghan suddenly took me into his arms, his lips covered indiscriminately, and his voice was hurried and flustered: "Don't cry, as soon as you cry, my heart will be uncomfortable." Don't say dead or alive at every turn, what should I do if you die? ”

I cried and nodded, Lu Zenghan put me in front of me and said, "There are some things that I still need to understand and think, can you give me some time?" In addition, you have to think about it yourself, knowing this, can you still trust me, can you still accept me? It doesn't matter if you hate me. I'm afraid you won't think about it. It is precisely because of your withdrawal that you don't think about it that "she" goes to help you think, and it turns into hatred. ”

Lu Zenghan's words made me a little sober, indeed, for so many days, my emotions seem to have stopped, many things, I lack the most primitive emotional impulse, I am not angry or impulsive, even if it is my sister's death, I dare not inquire carefully, this will only cause "her" to think more and more.

Lu Zenghan wanted to say something, his mobile phone rang, he answered it and said to me: "There is an urgent matter to deal with in the bureau, I will leave first, you can rest at home." Don't think about it. ”

I nodded obediently, and he hurried away. I curled up in the quilt, a little dazed, and a little open.

Lu Zenghan has been gone for more than a week and has not returned. It's just that I have his phone every day, he is in Nancheng, but he is busy investigating, and even I can't see him.

My mood gradually improved, and I began to think about some issues as Lu Zenghan instructed, but I hadn't thought it through yet, but I received a call from Han Muzhi and asked me to go out to talk, he said that there were some new discoveries about my sister's death, and my heart suddenly pinched, and I agreed to his invitation without a trace of hesitation.