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That night, Lu Zenghan kept holding me tightly, and I didn't struggle. Lu Zenghan's mobile phone has been playing my sister's favorite song in my ear, "The south wind kisses the face gently, and the flowers are fragrant." The south wind kissed the face gently, the stars were vaguely misty, and the two of us kissed tightly, and we couldn't finish the affection...... "In the song, my consciousness was blurred and I fell into a very long and tangled dream.

The dreams were all fragments, sometimes there was blood all over the ground, sometimes there were people jumping from the building, there were countless faces in front of my eyes, I screamed loudly, but I couldn't wake up from the nightmare. Until Lu Zenghan woke me up.

I fell asleep like this, and after a few days of sleep, my spirit became worse and worse, and I began to have all kinds of hallucinations, and my whole person became nervous. I know that I'm really not far from schizophrenia, and maybe I'll really become a "neurotic". I remember when I was a child, I often met a madman on the way to school, dressed in rags, laughing at us, and I was terrified. I'm afraid I'll be like that, but I can't help myself. I watched as I smashed things in my bedroom, unconscious, until I woke up and regretted it.

While I was sober, I grabbed Lu Zenghan's arm and begged him: "If one day, I'm really crazy, please kill me." I don't want to live without dignity. ”

My madness made Lu Zenghan's eyes full of pain, and he shook my shoulder and shouted, "Ke Qiao, don't always think about this!" You be strong, you won't be crazy, I'm not going to let this happen! ”

"But I can't control myself." I bowed my head weakly and muttered, "My sister is gone, what should I do?" What should I do? Sister, I want sister. ”

Lu Zenghan looked at me and said seriously: "Ke Qiao, don't always be a sister and a sister. I admit that we need spiritual strength in our lives, but you must remember that all people, from parents to husbands and wives to children, are passers-by in your life, not to mention your brothers and sisters. Don't let them be your spiritual support, your spirit can only be supported by yourself. If you can't do that, you'll never be able to be mentally independent. ”

I covered my ears, I didn't want to hear them, these words hurt me so much. Lu Zenghan took my hand away and said slowly: "Actually, you can be completely independent now, you have your own career, you have a new life, you will have a family in the future, a lover and children, your spiritual world, not only one sister." And, you have to believe in yourself, you're a very strong person, and you're just using it in the wrong place. ”

"In the wrong place?" I looked at him puzzled.

"You have a strong sense of self-preservation, and in order to protect yourself, you subconsciously use everything you have learned to avoid injury to your own spirit. But what's so bad about getting hurt? Scabbed new flesh has vitality. Lu Zenghan looked at me with a smile, "As long as you don't hide and work hard to face it, you can solve the problem." ”

Am I as strong as he says? I do not know. Lu Zenghan continued: "Don't be spiritual, be a parasitic grass, climb on your sister, just refuse to come down. Who can be your host for life? A lifetime for you to cling to? ”

I looked at him sadly: "What about you? ”

My question made Lu Zenghan stunned for a moment, he subconsciously clenched my hand and put it on his chest, there was a bright color in his eyes, and his voice became warm: "Silly girl, of course I want to, but I'm afraid I can't." Life is impermanent. After a pause, he said, "But if you can trust me, I'll help you with it, okay?" ”

I nodded unconsciously. My mental state no longer allowed me to think more.

The next night, Lu Zenghan said he would take me somewhere. He drove me back down the road to my clinic. It was already nine o'clock in the evening, and he opened the door of the clinic and made a round, but it was empty. He locked the door behind him and took me inside.

Since the Spring Festival, it has been all kinds of things, and I haven't come to work very well, and I'm basically deserted. There was dust everywhere in the house. Lu Zenghan took me to the hypnosis room inside, where the layout of the display panels, I thought it was very exquisite and professional at the beginning, but there have never been visitors who need hypnosis, but I didn't expect that the first one to use it was me, a psychotherapist.

Lu Zenghan also closed the door of the room and turned on the light, the light was very dim, which was convenient for hypnosis. He looked at me and said, "If you believe me, give me all your memories, and I will help you with hypnosis." ”

Hypnosis is one of the effective ways to treat split personality, is Lu Zenghan going to treat me or elicit "she"? However, this method is only suitable for the reconciliation of two personalities when the main and secondary personalities are not connected, but "she" and I already know each other well, can this method work? I looked at Lu Zenghan and was in a trance again. Except for my sister, who else can I trust if I don't trust this man?

I sat down in my chair obediently. Lu Zenghan changed the lights, and the display board was intertwined with light and dark under the reflection of the lights, which made me a little drowsy. The lights were getting dimmer and I was almost asleep. On a small display board in front of me, pictures slowly appeared, and I was surprised to find that it was actually my childhood home.

In that northern city, my sister and I, every winter, broke the ice hammer from the low roof, played and ate at the same time, and laughed like two happy fawns. Dad likes to carry me on his shoulders and listen to me scream, Mom likes to smile at me gently, and my sister likes to take me with her wherever she goes. And I like to play with the police badge on my father's hat, like to listen to stories in my mother's arms, and like to follow my sister's buttocks, and the two of them go hand in hand with a drawing board to learn to draw.

Until one day, my father was on a business trip, and my mother said that he had gone far away. We haven't seen Dad in a long time. A year later, my father's colleagues came to the house, I don't know what they said, and then my mother cried and took me and my sister with me, and for the first time in my life, I was on a plane and went to a very hot place. In a cold room, I saw my dad covered with a white cloth, they lifted the white cloth, and I saw my dad's face that had turned black. My sister cried and tore off the white cloth, and I saw the mottled scars on his body, like dead vines. Mom fainted immediately. My sister cried out, "Who did it? Who killed my dad? "No one answered us.

A few days later, with tears in her eyes, my mother hugged a jar and took my sister and me back to our hometown. Mom no longer has a smile, she often goes out very early and comes back very late, with a tired and unwilling face, except for tears, or tears. A month later, my mother jumped from the top of the tallest building in our hometown.

The blood on the ground exploded in my mind, and I shouted and screamed.

How long has this story been in the back of my mind? At this moment, it was bloodily peeled off my body. I wanted to wake up from this terrible dream, and at that moment a bright light appeared in front of my eyes, and I followed this light and crawled out of the picture of my hometown.

It was a heart-wrenching hypnosis, and by the time I woke up, I was already in tears, and Lu Zenghan looked at me in deep thought. I wiped the tears from my face and asked slowly, "Did I say it all?" ”

Lu Zenghan nodded: "Yes." Handing me a tissue, "Crying, are you feeling better?" ”

"Much better." I sighed, "This memory has been missing from my mind for many years, and I can't even remember what my dad looks like sometimes." I just remember that our family was very happy. I don't remember how they died. Every time I tried to reminisce, my head hurt, and I couldn't think of anything except patches of red. ”

"Amnesia is also a manifestation of traumatic stress syndrome." Lu Zenghan suddenly asked, "Then did you choose to major in psychology in college?" Or your sister's advice? ”

I thought for a moment and said, "It's my sister." Maybe she hoped that one day, I would be able to solve the problem of amnesia on my own. ”

Lu Zenghan smiled gently: "Although Keyi takes care of you everywhere, from her heart, she also hopes that you will be mentally independent." Otherwise, why would she let you study psychology? ”

Lu Zenghan's statement made me stunned for a moment, I have never considered it from this perspective. At that time, my sister and Han Muzhi were already familiar with each other, Han Muzhi studied psychology, I always thought that my sister was influenced by Han Muzhi, and thought that the major of psychology was good, so I suggested that I study, and I was also interested in this subject, but I didn't focus on Lu Zenghan's point of view.

"Maybe." I was left wondering, who is my sister? I always thought that she loved me immensely and wanted to hold me in the palm of her hand to take care of me, but what she thought and planned for me was far more far-reaching than I knew.

Once again, I wanted to burst into tears, and the pain in my memory was far beyond my ability to bear. Lu Zenghan sat beside me, hugged me in his arms, and said softly, "That's all for today." Think no more. Everything must be traced back to the source, and gradually unraveling the knots of your memory. A lot of things will be solved, don't push yourself too much to believe or think. ”

I nodded, unintentionally looking at the screen next to me, it turned out that there was indeed a picture on the display board, a photo of my hometown, I asked suspiciously, "How do you have a photo of my hometown?" "It's not unusual for him to know my hometown, after all, he is a police officer, but how can there be old photos?

"With your memories, you'll know everything. Don't rush. Lu Zenghan put his arm on my shoulder, "Let's go back today, it's not safe here." ”

I got up with him, turned off the lights in the house, and just went out, before I reached the elevator, several policemen came out.