It was a very stormy night, and he looked very handsome standing under the sail, so he took advantage of the fireworks and half a boat of stars to freeze in my mind. Riding the wind and waves, he stood on the bow of the boat, and his eyes were full of starlight.

I looked at him and asked curiously, "How can this ship move without a motor?" And it's still that fast? ”

"There's a sail, the Bernoulli effect, to put it simply, the wind pushing the sail." Lu Zenghan walked to the stern of the boat as he spoke, turned the rope around twice and said, "I didn't dare to be too crazy today, when I used to play with Yu Kai and them, I stepped on the waves, and I was like flying, that was crazy." ”

"I can be as crazy as you are." I was a little excited, "Would you like to try it?" ”

Lu Zenghan chuckled and shook his head: "No." I can't put you in the slightest danger. His words were warm, and though I felt a little sorry, they were numb from head to toe as if they had been electrically applied.

I had never been more hearty than I had ever been when I got off the boat, and the hem of my dress was wet, but it didn't affect my cheerfulness in the slightest. I walked side by side with him on the beach, and he draped his coat over my shoulders. The winter night in Nancheng, although a little cool, is still quite comfortable.

Walking and walking, a little tired, I sat on the beach, looked at him and smiled: "What are the next projects?" ”

He sat down next to me and pinched my nose: "Greedy ghost, I still want it." That's all, that's enough for me to figure out. ”

"Why don't I add another one, okay?" I looked at Lu Zenghan and winked mischievously.

"Yes, today you are the biggest, you can say anything." Lu Zenghan hooked his lips and smiled, and then sat casually against my back.

"Let's just watch the sunrise like this, okay?" I don't want to go back, I just want to stay with him, stay forever.

"That's it?" Lu Zenghan was slightly surprised, and then smiled happily, "This is simple, no problem." ”

I pursed my lips and smiled with satisfaction, this is destined to be an unforgettable birthday night, there are too many surprises and joys on this night, and the happiness that I lack for more than 20 years seems to have satisfied me all this night, I said seriously and sincerely: "Zeng Han, thank you." You probably don't know how happy I am and how grateful I am to you. ”

"As for it, that's so serious." Lu Zenghan turned around and sat side by side with me, leaning back.

"As for. You don't know me, and in my memory, there is very little happiness. I also leaned towards the mouth like him, but the strength of my back was not as strong as his, and I fell back with a "snap", I simply lay on the beach, looking at the sky full of stars and smirking contentedly, saying that the moon stars are scarce, the moon sets and the stars are numerous, there is no moon tonight, but the stars in the sky are like diamonds, I have never found that the air in Nancheng is so good, it is absolutely impossible to see it in the haze days of Beijing, and I have never seen it in the United States.

I continued: "Maybe at a very young age, my birthday was also happy, but I don't remember it very much. Later birthdays, it's all hard, sister-"

Before I finished speaking, Lu Zenghan interrupted me softly, and his voice had a hint of depression: "Don't mention your sister, tonight, there are only you and me." ”

I didn't go on, it's okay not to mention my sister, but how can I not think of my sister? For more than 20 years, my sister has played the role of a parent and supported my happiness. In the past, my sister would try to give me the best birthday present, the biggest cake, but I knew that her money was not easy to come by, and I didn't know how many pictures to draw. Later, my sister was no longer with me, and I could only receive her red envelopes. My birthday, sometimes someone remembers it, will order a cake for me, Katherine has ordered it for me before, but most of the time, I just have myself. Later, with Han Muzhi, it was a beautiful gift and a high-priced dinner. But I have never had such intentions and agitation, and Lu Zenghan has always brought me extraordinary happiness.

I looked at him sideways: "You really don't know, until I met you, I didn't seem to be alive." My happiness is no longer polite, I also have a feeling of real anger, joy and anger are very real, all emotions are real bursts. ”

"I know. How could I not know? Lu Zenghan turned to look down at me, his expression was tangled with contradictions, and it was such an old expression, he sighed lightly and said, "I may know yourself better than you." ”

"Say you're fat and gasping." I pouted.

Lu Zenghan came back from the distraction just now, and said nonsense: "Moved, right? Just remember my goodness, and you don't have to make a promise. ”

I reached out and slapped his leg, but he grabbed my hand with his backhand, pretending to be serious: "Don't make trouble." ”

"I promise to me? Am I making trouble? I couldn't cry or laugh, this guy's addiction was not enough, I watched him twitch the corners of his mouth, "Flim tongue, do you often surprise girls on birthdays so handy?" ”

He scoffed, "Often? This time it's enough, and it hurts my head to think about it. He took my hand and lay on the beach, muttering, "The dress has to be custom-made, and you have to know your size in advance, and the flowers have to be custom-made, and even the big glass of the starry sky was still changed by me, and there was still a roof on it, and it was all unloaded." That's the time, I won't do this kind of thing with a gun around my neck in the future, I'm tired. ”

It's impossible not to be moved, my heart beat so suddenly that I stood up with my arms, looked at him and asked softly, "Why are you so nice to me?" ”

"I don't know, I probably signed a deed of sale with you in my last life." He hooked his lips and looked at the starry sky, with a little contentment in his eyes: "I can't tell, I just want to treat you like this, I want you to become a princess, so I did it." I remember the last time you wore a dress, it was beautiful, and I thought I would let you wear it again. ”

I looked at his eyes carefully, and there were shadows of stars in them. I couldn't help but lean over and kiss his warm lips. He froze for a moment, and after a few seconds, his backhand pressed me underneath him, his movements were violent and heavy, his kiss was unprecedentedly agitated and frenzied, and I was a little hot all over, and reached out to touch his back. The sea breeze blew, and I first understood how intoxicating the "south wind kisses the face gently".

My dress was faded to his waist, his kisses were burning hot, I touched his hardness, and at that moment, I longed to be with him, to be his woman. I couldn't even control my desire to whisper as the waves whispered, "Let's go back." ”

He woke up from that frenzy, slowly pulled my gown up, and put it away in its place. He put his coat back on my shoulders, and his voice was low and flat: "Let's wait for the sunrise, the sunrise in Nancheng can be seen at four o'clock." ”

Again, again and again, the feeling of a basin of cold water pouring down is driving me crazy. Isn't it said that you can't help it? Why is he able to control it every time? Is he strong enough, or am I unattractive?

I was a little annoyed for no reason, pushed his coat to the ground, and said angrily, "Whatever I do." ”

He was silent, just stubbornly pressed his coat on my shoulder: "Obedient, it will catch a cold." ”

My tears fell uncontrollably, and I looked at him and said, "Lu Zenghan, what do you mean?" If you like me, why don't you stay with me? If you don't like me, why do you want to do all this tricks? You know I'm a fool, and I can't tell the difference between your sincerity and your falsehood. ”

"What can it mean?" Lu Zenghan sighed and sat beside me with his knees crossed, "I just hope to make you happier, happier, I have no ill will towards you." ”

"Do you love me, then?" I stubbornly looked at him and asked, I must get an answer today.

"What do you say?" He asked me rhetorically. Again, he never knew how to escape.

"Lu Zenghan! What I want is for you to answer. I insisted, "If I knew, I wouldn't have asked you." He remained silent, looking at the water in the distance.

I hated the silence of life and death, so I stood up and ran to the water's edge, scooping a handful of water and washing my face, the coolness of the water finally relaxed my nerves. But my actions startled Lu Zenghan, he rushed over quickly, pulled me away from the water, and his voice was much higher because of anger: "What are you going to do!" ”

I shook off his hand vigorously and walked forward: "I don't want to do anything. Is it up to you to figure out what you want to do? If you don't love me, you should slap me up instead of giving me some bullshit birthday. The more I talked, the more angry I became, I turned my head to look at Lu Zenghan and said firmly: "Lu Zenghan, you are really cowardly." "I don't believe he doesn't have me in his heart, but why does he always hang his breath? What are you afraid of?

My words made Lu Zenghan's brows frown, and finally couldn't help but catch up with me, grabbed my shoulder hard, and his voice was low and heavy: "I'm cowardly? If you don't die, you won't be cowardly? Do you have no points in your heart if I love you or not? I love you like crazy, but what else can I do with you but hurt you? ”

"I'm not afraid." I looked at him, my voice painful but firm, "I don't want to know about you, and don't tell me." But before the final sorrow comes, it is a day to be happy. I don't want to wait until the end, we don't even have a little happy memory, it's all regret. "I've already figured it out, even if we find a good person, can we grow old healthy and safe? Accidents and endings, who knows which comes first.

Lu Zenghan was silent, as if pondering my words, and said weakly for a long time: "People can't live by memories. ”

"But I want to have memories with you, otherwise what's the difference with the walking dead." I stubbornly persisted.

Lu Zenghan was thinking silently again, I don't know if he listened to my words.

The sunrise in the south city came really early. When the sky was full of colorful clouds, and the red sun erupted between the water and the sky, the excitement at that moment was indescribable, and I murmured: "Everything will be like a new sun, full of hope." Lu Zenghan turned his head to look at me and smiled silently.