The training course was intense and substantial, I listened to the lectures during the day, and at night I sorted out my notes and looked through them. When I'm idle and bored, I will turn on my phone and listen to the songs Lu Zenghan sent me over and over again, "I have a strange mood, and I can't help thinking about you." Love is not self-contained, but wants to escape. "I will also replay some of the words he said in my head, from the rainy night I met him, to now, the details of getting along with him are like a movie, one frame at a time.

He said that music can regulate emotions, and there will be many fewer nightmares at night when you fall asleep listening to music. There is indeed music therapy in art therapy, and it is still a very widely used one, but I am not very sensitive to music, so I rarely use it.

Suddenly, I had a flash of inspiration, and when I met Lu Zenghan for the first time, he once said, "If you can save people, you can kill people, and if you kill people with art, you must be unaware." "Xiao Min was drugged, and after eating it, she hallucinated, and she was dizzy and bloated, and she could remotely walk to the window and jump down, could it be music? I hurriedly jumped out of bed and flipped through the class schedule, and it just so happened that in two days it would be the day when my instructor Katherine would come to China to give a lecture. I could have asked her about that.

Lu Zenghan didn't contact me again, and I didn't have the courage to contact him. It's just that his circle of friends will share where he has meetings and where he eats every once in a while. This person's circle of friends was not so vulgar before, how can he eat sushi now and show off in the circle of friends? Could it be that in his circle, isn't this the lower limit of the show? Aren't they all eating the feast of the sea and the sky... I looked at his picture and I just felt that it was extremely spicy. Fortunately, in this way, it seems that I can see him every day, and the worry about his leg injury is much better. It's just that his life is always so colorful, and for me, I have probably forgotten about it, right?

This kind of emotion of suffering from gains and losses, is it liking someone? I've never been, and if it was, it was really painful.

Three days later, Katherine and I sat at the roast duck restaurant in Da Dong in Beijing. I still remember the first time I went to Yazhu, it felt very similar to the style here, and the names of the dishes were poetic. And I brought Katherine here to satisfy her roast duck complex that she had been babbling about for years.

Katherine was still chubby and loving. After the roast duck was served, he called it delicious and smiled at me: "Joe, you are much happier than before, it seems that you are still suitable to go back to China." ”

"Really?" In the past few years in Nancheng, my mood has indeed stabilized a lot, and my mentality has calmed down a lot.

After a moment of small talk, I cut to the chase: "Can music manipulate people's emotions?" For example, will the patient be asked to engage in some negative behaviors? ”

Katherine put it succinctly: "Music can affect people's emotions, that's for sure. But the control is not easy. There used to be death music in the West, such as "Black Sunday", and it is said that many people committed suicide after listening to it. Now that the original has been destroyed, it's just a legend. However, if the tune of the music is all discordant notes, it will cause emotions such as psychological depression, low self-esteem, uneasiness and even misanthropy. ”

"Have you ever committed suicide because of music?" I asked. Katherine's experience in art therapy is very rich, not only in painting, but also in music, dance, psychodrama and other therapeutic methods that she has used. She even had the experience of doing art therapy for inmates in prison, and I did an internship with her for a few months.

"Yes." Katherine nodded, "It's not that the music is frustrating, it's just the opposite, it's a soft tune that makes it very pleasant to listen to." ”

"Then why?" I'm curious.

"The client was depressed because he broke up with his girlfriend, and that minor tune was their love song, witnessing their love, so the song was abstracted into a love symbol. Every time I hear it, it's a kind of irritating stress for him. It's unfortunate. Katherine still speaks with regret.

I was lost in thought. If it was music that caused Min to go to the window, would it be discordant "death music"? Or is it Xiao Min and Lao Meng's "love music"?