Chapter 12 Freedom of Responsibility

Bai Xinrui walked to the front of the Science Building and stopped, it was the first time she walked to the foot of this building, her heart was apprehensive, but mixed with a little excitement.

During the week she came to the school for freshman activities, she only watched the building from afar, even though she was well aware that legends about the building and her were flooding the campus.

It is a modern seven-storey building, and the entire façade of the building is wrapped in a champagne gold glass curtain wall, reflecting the dazzling sunlight and the sky, clouds, flowers and trees on the campus. The highest floor of the building has a hemispherical glass dome, which shows a postmodern alternative presence.

Such a building is definitely not inconspicuous in New York, Tokyo, Shanghai, Paris and other metropolises, but this ancient campus with a history of more than 200 years, especially against the backdrop of the surrounding ancient buildings of the Georgian period, which are bulky and large, and the floor height is only four or five storeys, it looks majestic and tall.

Looking up at the top floor of the building, her father's name Bai Jiawei shone brightly in the sun, making her unable to open her eyes. Her eyebrows were raised, and a smile appeared on her face, the science center built with her father's donation was really beautiful and fashionable, and the astronomy class she was going to take today was on the highest level of the science center.

Pushing open the huge glass doors, you will see a first-floor hall arranged in the shape of a wild jungle, with green artificial grass on the ground, lush shrubs, and towering trees "growing" irregularly. The jungle is also infested with lions, vultures, snow leopards, and other unnamed animals, although they look like they are alive, and once you walk inside, you will find that they are actually just animal specimens.

"Glass Menagerie!" A sentence of Chinese rushed out of his mouth with joy.

Immediately afterwards, Bai Xinrui's eyes were attracted by the whale skeleton of Bai Sensen hanging in mid-air, about the story of this whale, when she came to the campus for an interview last winter, she listened to the guide sister, but at that time, the new science building had not been officially opened, and this whale bone was displayed in the dark and narrow hall of the old science building, occupying more than half of the hall area.

It is said that in 1976, the school's biology teacher and a few classmates were doing research on a certain beach and found a stranded and dying whale on the beach. After the whale died, they transported it back to the school for an autopsy study, and in the biology laboratory, some of the whale's vital organs can be seen soaked in formalin. At that time, teachers and students also processed its skeleton and re-spliced it to form today's skeleton specimen.

"Stella, what are you still rubbing around here?" Senior Sister Amanda, who had a big mouth, rushed in from outside, and shouted to her while running in the direction of the elevator, "There are only five minutes between classes, and old Johnson will lose his temper if he is late, you better hurry up and adapt to the rhythm of our school!" ”

Hum! Putting on a very remarkable tone again, Bai Xinrui thought angrily in her heart, and followed the footsteps of the seniors into the elevator door that had just opened.

The astronomy classroom, which occupies an entire floor on the top floor of the Science Center, is a very large, semi-open space: a hemispherical glass dome with goggles and various unnamed observation instruments placed under it, and the classroom is a relatively enclosed space on the other side of the dome.

Astronomy Teacher Dr. Johnson looks like the old-school English gentleman you can only see in period movies, with gray hair, deep wrinkles on his face, and a pensive look that seems to have a touch of melancholy.

He didn't say too much to greet and introduce himself in class, but only listened to him in an old but loud voice, cut straight to the point, and began this new lesson: "Immanuel Kant, the founder of classical German philosophy, in the last chapter of his Critique of Practical Reason, said the following: There are two things, and the deeper and more persistent I think about them, the more the wonder and awe they evoke in my soul will change and grow with each passing day, This is the starry sky above my head and the moral law in my heart. This phrase also became his epitaph......"

Dr. Johnson looked around the classroom with dark blue eyes that shimmered with wisdom, and continued: "I have devoted my life to the study of these two things, and I hope that the new students of the astronomy course today, even after your curiosity about the subject has faded, will be able to participate in the study of this subject as an astronomer and philosopher." ”

Dr. Johnson's finger touched the electronic whiteboard, and a magnificent picture of the starry sky appeared on it. In order to make the students see more clearly, he turned the adjustment lever of the blinds to dim the light in the classroom.

Dr. Johnson zoomed in on each part of the sky map through a touchscreen, introducing the names and locations of the constellations to the students, and from time to time using a special whiteboard marker to mark their relationship to the sun.

Bai Xinrui chose Astronomy in large part because she really likes the stars.

She usually likes to read books on divination and constellations, and she can memorize the names of those constellations backwards, but this is the first time she has seen the mysterious patterns composed of stars so clearly, and she was immediately fascinated.

Looking at the vast starry sky on the electronic whiteboard, her thoughts suddenly flew to her childhood.

At that time, she couldn't see her parents for many years, her father was busy with business, and her mother was busy filming. She has a lot of friends, but few friends are pitiful, and the only ones who often accompany her at home are the nanny Aunt Yun and a Filipino maid.

During the day, Bai Xinrui, who did whatever she wanted at home, was stubborn and abnormal, but at night, when Aunt Yun coaxed her to sleep, she behaved unusually well-behaved.

It was also from then on that she learned to pretend to be asleep, close her eyes slightly, and breathe evenly, which could easily fool Aunt Yun. As soon as she left her room, Bai Xinrui quietly got up from her princess bed decorated with lace, satin, and light gauze, climbed up the marble platform of the bay window with a pair of bare feet, and secretly opened the heavy velvet curtains, and looked up at the starry sky through the closed large glass window.

This is the most beautiful moment of the day for her, because only in the face of the vast starry sky is she the truest self, and she doesn't have to be the little master of the arrogant finger in front of Aunt Yun; You don't have to be her shadow in front of her mother, a proud and arrogant baby daughter; You don't have to be a cute pet who is well-behaved and loves to be coquettish in front of your father; You don't have to be a willful and troublesome princess in front of your friends...... She can talk to the stars freely, tell them what is on her mind, sing them the nursery rhymes she learned during the day, and tell them the stories she heard during the day...... She imagined which star was her father, which star was her mother, which star was herself, and which star was a fairy tale character......

Later, as the line grew older, her mother took on fewer and fewer movies, and more and more boys flattered her, and she learned to be squeamish and willful more and more.

Bai Xinrui wanted to learn to dance and play the flute, so her parents found the best teacher to teach her; She likes designer clothes, shoes and bags, and her parents will search for them all over the world. She loved all kinds of blingbling jewelry, and her father and mother bought her all kinds of hairpins, necklaces and earrings made of precious stones...... She found that most of these ornaments were in the shape of stars.

She occasionally mistakes the lights of the pool party at home for starlight, and often mistakes the various strange light sources in the nightclub for starlight, however, this little princess who lives in the center of wealth and prosperity and has thousands of favors in one body is like being spelled by a wizard, and she can't get rid of her innate loneliness no matter what. Her favorite thing is still to look up at the stars in the middle of the night, tell her little secrets to the stars, tell them stories and sing songs to them......

The dark and high starry sky hides infinite secrets, like a bottomless ocean, and when you look into it, time stands still, your troubles stop, your happiness stops, everything goes into a dormant state, and that is a very relaxed and comfortable state in life.

Only at the moment of looking up at the starry sky will she look into her heart, regret her absurd actions during the day, and shed tears inexplicably. Only the starry sky could contain everything about her, but it also made her feel terrified, because it was too big, too empty, and she always felt that maybe behind that void, there was another pair of omniscient eyes watching her......

The chapel bell rang, bringing Bai Xinrui back to reality from her childhood memories, and the bell announced the end of the first day of school.

Bai Xinrui walked out of the classroom and stood on the terrace of the science building to look down, under the clear blue sky, the sun was shining, and in the distance were the continuous mountains, the mountains were covered with large forests, and the campus was like a pearl embedded in a large field of lush green. The red brick dormitory buildings covered with green vines, the spired chapel, the main building, the white clock tower, the green courts, the open lawns, the neat paths, and the tranquil lake...... Everything is so beautiful, it's a little unreal.

Walking on the roof alone, the soft-soled shoes under her feet stepped on the stone floor of the rooftop, and she could feel that the ground was scorched by the afternoon sun, but it was still warm, Bai Xinrui lay on her back on the empty terrace, watching the sky gradually change from blue to white, from white to pink, and then to purple and gray...... And just like that, the day passed.