"You're not a good guy either." Lao Mei smiled sneakily.

I know that Lao Mei said in front of her that he participated in smuggling, and said that I did a desperate job, and I also knew that Lao Mei couldn't forget Xiaoying, but watching him follow her like a fart and study psychology secretly, I suddenly became unhappy. I can't see her smiling with other men, even if that man is Lao Mei. I heard my own jealous growl.

With Lao Mei, a guy who has more than enough success and more than failure, I couldn't control my emotions, ran to the shooting gallery to rob her, and raced with Lao Mei, I felt that I was childish and ridiculous, but when I did this, my body and mind were all relaxed, like a string that had been tightened for a long time, and it was spread out leisurely. I am happy from the bottom of my heart. When she confessed to me, I couldn't help but confess, although I regretted it after I went back, looking at the photo of Uncle Zhao on my phone, I couldn't wait to hammer myself to death, I comforted myself, this is part of the plan, don't let her fall in love with me, how can she let her two personalities kill each other? But I heard the sound of my own heartache.

I've never been a person who is trapped in feelings, and I am not a person who is stingy with feelings. Zou Yukai's autism and pathological dependence on me have become my means to control him; Xia Mengci's affection for me became my way of using her. These people are people in the dark, and I don't need compassion. But only for her, Xin Keqiao, the most difficult murderer, I can't do it, I am moved.

I asked myself hundreds of whys? The answer I gave myself was that the murderer was a sub-personality, and although I had tried my best, "she" had not come out, and it was the intelligent, delicate and rational master who had been facing me all day, and it was really difficult for me to face such a gentle and kind person and inflict those sins on her. This is my personal experience: people with split personalities, although they share the same body, are really two people.

At this time, Zou Shizhao asked me to pick up a batch of goods, this is the first time he can rest assured that he will hand over such a large amount of guns and ammunition to me, compared to the drizzle on Nanqi Island, this time is the highlight. Of course, this has something to do with the fact that my relationship with Xia Mengci is getting closer and closer, and the old fox is gradually letting go of his hands and feet to trust me. It's just that the other party is not honest, and I was tired of playing cat when I delivered the goods, and I was almost yin by them, although I was shot, but fortunately, the goods were snatched back.

This shot woke me up completely. Who am I? I am a person who wanders in the dark, a person of the path of assuras, what right do I have to think about the private affairs of these children when I am on a mission? How much more is it to be an enemy of oneself? I'm so ridiculous. I went back to Nancheng and didn't look for her again. I don't know how to explain it, sometimes, not getting in touch is also a way to break up, and I chose to be silent.

But in those few days, I was under unprecedented pressure. In the past, when I was with Zou Shizhao, Xia Mengci and others, I was frank and upright, I was not a person with them, I was a person under the sun, and I hid in the dark to join them in the same stream just to investigate the case. But now, I'm entangled, in her eyes, what is the difference between me and them? Her worried gaze and forbearant silence reminded me that I was a street rat-like character. My senior brother told me before that the biggest test of being an undercover agent is not acting skills or ability, but psychological resilience. Now, I really realize it.

I took out the police uniform hidden under the bed again and again in the dark of night and gestured on my body. There has never been a time when I longed to be dressed and stand in front of her, instead of being so conflicted and hiding as I am now.

But I didn't expect her to be a stubborn person, so she found it. My heart pounded violently as she jumped into the sea in front of me, a fear I had never had before a criminal's bullet hit my shoulder. The indescribable taste, shocked, excited, worried, flustered, mixed tastes, I didn't think for a moment and jumped down with her, damn, this is a fool.

From the moment I got her up, I knew I was done. Maybe it started when she bought me a band-aid, maybe it started when she took care of my foot injury, maybe it started when she gave me a keychain for sunflowers, maybe it started from her delicate and dense entanglement to the bone, she just got into my heart little by little, until today she detonated all my emotions and selflessness.

I can't describe my feelings, there is fear and fear, but there is more sweetness and joy oozing from it, what kind of fucking perverted emotion am I? My fanaticism scared me, and I decided to avoid her.

But why, I would follow her secretly in the car again and again, and I would see her like crazy before going out to run errands? Even just looking at her appearance, smelling the faint fragrance on her body, and seeing her sleep like an innocent child in the car?

Zou Shizhao acted as a matchmaker and asked me to get engaged to Xia Mengci, firstly, to stabilize my relationship with Xia Mengci, and more importantly, to use this grand engagement ceremony to use the guests' gift money to launder the money I shipped last time. Otherwise, such a large amount of smuggled cash would be a big problem if there were no discrepancies in the accounts. This must be Xia Mengci's little Jiujiu. I can only cooperate, now is the opportunity to get into the core smuggling business of the voyage.

But the moment I agreed, the sharp and thin face and the big misty eyes appeared in front of my eyes, would she cry again? Thinking of her crying made my heart tremble. I told Lao Mei to take her away, play wherever she likes, and don't make a moth at my engagement ceremony.

At the engagement ceremony, I was distraught. There are many guests, but my heart is indescribably awkward. Xia Mengci and I are like two unrelated strangers, making dolls for this luxurious feast. But when she appeared, my heart beat strongly, and she was so well dressed that I immediately had the desire to be the star of today's wedding reception.

But my mind only warmed up for a moment before I came back to reality, and her presence here was the most dangerous. Zou Shizhao will come today. I guess Ke Yi never told Zou Shizhao that she had a younger sister, but Ke Yi has always tried her best to protect her. Zou Shizhao only knew that I was very close to a psychiatrist, but he didn't pay any special attention to her. But if Zou Shizhao sees her appearance, I'm afraid that he will be suspicious. This old Mei can't do this well.

I finally got her away, but Zou Shizhao looked at me strangely. He met her and began to investigate her. What I feared eventually happened. Once Zou Shizhao knows her identity, he won't stop.

This old guy turned out to be more than just a fox, but also a pervert. He was like a parade on the street, pulling her to listen to Keyi's past. He knew she was sick! Otherwise, he wouldn't have dragged her to tell stories so pervertedly, and he also wanted to force out her sub-personality. At this moment, I was surprised to find that I don't know when I no longer wanted to take revenge, but was all worried about her. She didn't know Ke Yi's previous identity, and she forgot that Ke Yi was dead, if Zou Shizhao exposed all this, would her condition worsen? Worry, fear, became my first reaction.

But she was completely dead to me. She and Han Muzhi walked together. That was the first time I knew what it was like to be in pain. I don't know how many nights, I secretly parked the car in the distance, walked downstairs to her, and watched the lights in her room turn on and go out again. Every time I light up, my heart will follow, hoping that she can see me, but I am afraid that she will see me. The lights went out, and the heart was relieved, followed by endless loneliness, bleaker than the night in the southern city. In this life, as soon as I learned to love, I suffered this sin. Loving a woman who can't and shouldn't love tortures yourself like a fool.

And what's even more ridiculous is that my enemies know my feelings for her before I do. Xia Zhengliang and Zou Shizhao both began to use her to pinch me. I finally realized that I was cocooned and self-contained, and that I was really messed up. Originally, I came and went freely, and no one could do anything to me. But now it's good, anyone can take her and threaten me.

But what can I do? She became my weakness, she was arrested by Xia Zhengliang, arrested by Zou Shizhao, Lao Mei proudly called me: "She can let Zou Shizhao arrest her, ask me for help, now you are not her first knight, it's time for me to go out." ”

"Get out. Then it's your turn. "I'm not polite.

Lao Mei laughed thief: "It's not your turn." You're not one of her. ”

I was dumbfounded, she was my enemy and someone else's girlfriend, but my brain was hot, and I scolded Lao Mei: "The dog takes the mouse, and you are nosy." "While galloping to Nanqi Island to be the idle dog with a mouse.

In the cave of Nanqi Island, in the face of her burning heat and confession, when she said the three words "I love you", my head banged, fuck it, love what, undercover agent, task, weakness, enemy, this woman in front of me, this soul is innocent, and the guilty is another soul. The frenzy that ignited overcame the torment in my heart, I wanted her, despite the struggle, despite the entanglement, but the feelings can never be controlled, and what can be controlled may not be called feelings.

After that, I even began to fear that her sub-personality would appear, and I completely lost my initial fighting spirit. I don't even dare to think about how I will face the personality hidden in "her" one day.

But what should come, will come. When she saw the room full of pleasant things, she had a seizure in front of me for the first time. I was amazed to find that she could talk to me through the mirror, and the two personalities at the same time, as if she were directing and acting, and switched very quickly. I have read many books on split personality abroad, but I have never seen such a way of communication, through a mirror, to break the barrier that multiple personalities cannot communicate.

I don't have the excitement I imagined, and I don't have the hatred I imagined for "her". Looking at her face and making a facial expression that she usually does not match, I can only be full of distress. But I didn't dare to show it, I didn't know what kind of character that "she" was, and I didn't know how much her subconscious instilled in "her" the past between me and Keyi. I was afraid that I would anger "her" and hurt her. I even deliberately favored "her".

But looking at her sad appearance, my heart was cut apart little by little. How many times, I especially wanted to rush up and hug her and tell her the truth, but I didn't dare to act rashly, I was afraid that one of my could not help but ruin her, which was more uncomfortable than ruining myself.

But Han Muzhi, a madman, dares to say anything and do anything. He told her the truth and was going to treat her with morphine. I didn't have a lot of tricks, I had a gun that day, but I couldn't get out. I finally understood why Lao Mei couldn't save Xiaoying back then. Caring is chaotic, he loves Xiaoying deeply, and his professional skills are under the control of feelings, and his performance will be abnormal.

I watched as "she" pricked a tube of morphine into my arm, and I was reluctant to shoot at that face. Although I know that waiting for me, it could be death.

I never knew that loving someone could be so fanatical that you couldn't die. At that moment, I clearly knew that it was not the responsibility of the police to shoot that I did not shoot, it was not the morality of a public servant, but it was just because of a simple "reluctance", because I loved her, no matter which soul or shell she was.

In order to save her, I exposed myself prematurely and asked Tan Enming and Lao Jiao to take precautions. Tan Enming is cunning, but after all, he is not as intricate as Lao Jiao, and his power is huge. That time may be okay for Tan Enming, but for Lao Jiao, there is a chance for the hundred-legged insect to die without stiffening. Sure enough, Lao Jiao was silent on the surface, the meetings he should attend and the occasions he should attend were not lost, and Nancheng also looked calm. However, in the vicinity of the high seas, there was an abnormal movement, and the troops stationed on the neighboring islands found abnormal electromagnetic signals on several occasions. This old Jiao must have been thinking about smuggling.

The ministry asked me, "What do you say you should do about the trouble you caused this time?" ”

I replied firmly: "I'll make up for my trouble." "I personally went to chase Lao Jiao, even if it was at the end of the world, deep into the Golden Triangle of the Tiger's Den, I would bring him back.

The ministry was also happy: "Then you have to change your identity, Lao Jiao's destination this time must be Southeast Asia, where there is Neiying, which is involved in the smuggling of Z City, you change your identity, go and dig out Neiying, and then arrest him." ”

I saluted, "Yes!" ”

On the day I fought with Tan Enming, I blew up with Tan Enming, but I knew that there was a safe zone behind the direction of the blow-up, and I hid in the safe zone at the last moment and sank to the bottom, except for Lao Mei, no one knew that I was not dead.

I was urgently sent to Southeast Asia. I changed my name and ID card again, and the only thing that didn't change was 056618. I once used this alarm to order a DR ring with pink diamonds for my beloved woman, but I told the clerk that this is a first-class secret and must not be disclosed to anyone. If anyone asks, tell her a fake ID. There should be no conflict between loving her and loving my profession and my country.

I don't know if she's okay or not, my phone can only contact the upline in the department, not even Lao Mei. But I think she will be sad, but I also know that if Lao Mei drops the chain again this time and hurts her, I dare to go back and screw his head off and kick it as a ball.

Three months later, I returned with Lao Jiao. On board, I was finally able to make phone calls. The first one called Lao Mei, I was afraid of scaring her. Lao Mei said faintly: "Are you still alive?" But if you kid can't live, that's it, anyway, there will be a queen, called Lu Yanqing. ”

As soon as I was excited, I jumped three feet high, but I was so happy and sad that my phone fell into the sea. Looking at the rough sea, I suddenly had a little red circles under my eyes and pantothenic acid in my heart. Damn, in Southeast Asia, the undercover agent made people beat people to death and didn't cry, they endured to quit drug addiction and thousands of ants didn't cry, and they didn't cry when they grabbed the old coke bullet and wiped it past their ears. Now that I know that Lao Tzu has a son, cry a fart!

I propped my hands on the shelves next to the boat, looked at the blue sea and blue sky, the seagulls flew by, glared at the eyes that almost shed tears, and saluted the sun. In this prosperous era, the Haiyan River must be clear!