What is it like for someone who has a desire but can't?

She and King Jin are in love, how can she have someone who can't ask for it?

Ding Can smiled faintly.

“... Why did you suddenly ask about this? ”

The corners of Lu Jiayue's lips twitched, and she hesitated again and again, but she still didn't say anything after all.

That taste must be extremely uncomfortable, why should I expose his sadness again?

He shook his head and said in a low voice, "It's nothing, just a casual ask." After thinking about it, he glanced at Ding Can, his cheeks were slightly red, "Second uncle... Don't tell anyone about my private meeting with King Jin, okay? ”

Ding Can nodded and smiled: "Okay, I must not tell others..."After a slight hesitation, he added, "It's just that you always interact with him in private like this, and it is inevitable that others will no longer find out... If you really want him, why not..."

There is one more sentence that he can't say.

It can be said to King Jin, to her, the words come to her mouth, but it is difficult to speak.

He couldn't tell her that she should have a result with King Jin as soon as possible, so as not to spread the matter and affect her reputation.

He was afraid that if he said it, the little girl would take it seriously, and he would immediately beg King Jin to give her a result.

At this time, he can still love her and care for her as an elder, but what about in the future?

He didn't dare to think about it, and when he thought about it, his heart would ache faintly.

Lu Jiayue was greatly shocked in her heart.

Only then did she know that Ding Can had misunderstood her private relationship with Yuan Xi for the sake of her children's private affairs...

Should I explain it to him?

How to explain it? If it's not for the love of the children, then for what?

Lu Jiayue suddenly felt a little flustered.

All along, she has always believed that she is only secretly helping Yuan Xi, and there is absolutely no affection between men and women.

But today... Gallop on horseback and enjoy the sunset... And that long kiss, what is it?

How could he still swear that he had a private relationship with Yuan Xi just to help him?

For a moment, Lu Jiayue was speechless.

Ding Can only thought that she was embarrassed because he saw through her heart, so she also fell silent.

Lu Jiayue decided not to explain.

Because the truth can't be said, and if it is said, Ding Can won't believe it.

She couldn't find a lie to cover it up.

... Just let him misunderstand, fortunately, he won't tell anyone about it, and this misunderstanding will always be solved one day.

It was getting late, and Ding Can sent Lu Jiayue back.

When I got out of the tent, I found that it was snowing.

There was no wind, only snowflakes like goose feathers in the sky, silently falling from the inky black night sky on the vast earth.

It's another year of winter snow.

*

Heavy snow fell for three or four days in a row.

Standing in the palace on the mountainside of Chixia Mountain, looking out from afar, the sky and the earth are all snow-colored.

Lu Jiayue and Ding Yu either spend their time around the charcoal stove in the room every day, laughing and laughing, or they are taken by Qu Yi and sit next to Queen Ding.

Since it is by the side of Queen Ding, it is inevitable that she will encounter the holy car.

When Empress Ding married the current Shengshang, the Shengshang was still just a prince. More than 20 years have passed, and now the saint has passed the age of knowing his fate, but the emperor and queen are still deeply affectionate.

Lu Jiayue originally thought that the lord of the country would be so majestic, and after being fortunate enough to see the face of the sky, she found that it was just the appearance of an ordinary head of the family.

is very similar to her uncle Qu Hong, but her bearing is more graceful and calm.

After the heavy snow stopped, the holy driver took the princes and nobles down the mountain to hunt.

Two or three days later, in the afternoon of this day, news suddenly came that the holy driver had been injured in an accident during the hunting trip.

When the saint drove back to the palace, he realized that he had startled the horse halfway, and the saint driver fell from the horse and was injured in the chest and abdomen.

There was a panic in the palace.

Lu Jiayue and Ding Yu no longer dared to laugh at will, so they were led by Qu Yi and quietly accompanied Queen Ding every day.

Ding Can and Yuan Xi were busy, and for a while, they didn't even have a chance to see each other.

After four or five days of this, the oracle returned to Beijing.

*

When the holy car returned to Kyoto, it was already the first day of the lunar month.

Qufu is busy with the New Year again.

The Meng family had to prepare Qu Ying's dowry, and he had to help the Fang family, so he was too busy to doppelgänger.

The second lady Duan was also rarely busy, one was Duan Wenxin's marriage, and the other was for Qu Rong to marry Sun Xueru.

Since Duan Wenxin is married as a concubine, there is no need to be extravagant, and the Duan family simply prepared a few dowries for her, and no one in the Qu family cared about this matter, but Mrs. Qu, although she had never liked Duan Wenxin very much, she also sealed one hundred taels of silver to her, which was a gesture of affection.

And Qu Rong is going to marry Sun Xueru after the year, Qu Ying told Lu Jiayue.

In fact, it wasn't Qu Ying who told it, Lu Jiayue already knew.

It's just that the people of the Qu family inevitably feel that this marriage is too unexpected, they have neither discussed nor made up their minds before, and they suddenly say that they want to marry, which is really incredible.

I also heard that Duan Wenxin washed her face with tears all day long, but she was only pressed by Duan's family, and she was not even allowed to go out easily in the courtyard of the second room.

It's Chinese New Year's Eve again.

On this day, Xiaoshun Xiaocheng and two small servants came into Chuntang Residence and brought something to Lu Jiayue.

It was said that the people from the Jin Palace's Mansion quietly looked for them and asked them to be sent in to her.

In the red pine carved and gold-painted box, there is a jade hairpin.

Mutton fat white jade, the whole body is shiny and moist, the hairpin head is engraved with begonias, and a lotus seed-sized southern pearl is embedded inside.

Lu Jiayue held the jade hairpin in her hand, at a loss.

The bracelets and beads are all ordinary, but this hairpin is a metaphor for the love between men and women.

Suddenly he remembered that day when his horse was galloping across the field, and he whispered that sentence behind his ear.

“... Would you like to have a result with me? ”

Outcome.

She never thought about it.

I can't help but regret that I shouldn't have indulged myself for a while that day, so that he misunderstood him even more, and became entangled in the private relationship between men and women.

The jade hairpin was slowly rubbed in his hand for a long time, and finally put it back in the box.

*

When I saw Ding Can again, it was the second day of the first lunar month.

I only met in Mrs. Qu's upper room, and received him a purse of golden beans, and he accompanied Mrs. Qu for a while, and then went to Qu Song's study in the front yard.

Lu Jiayue stayed in the upper room all day, and after dinner with Mrs. Qu in the evening, she returned to Meng's main room.

Entering the main hall, quietly, the little maids all hid in the lower room to share the fruits, Lu Jiayue went inside, and was about to lift the curtain to go in, when she heard Meng Shi sigh inside.

“... I told him a long time ago that let him renew his wife's room, he is an official outside, how can he do without someone around to take care of him? But he just can't listen, isn't this sick? This letter was sent from Yungui to Beijing, and it would take two months, and I don't know if his illness will be better at this time? ”

Listening to Mama Zhang's voice, she said, "It must be okay, right?" Saying that, he also sighed, "My aunt is also too affectionate, the second lady has been here for several years, and he refuses to marry again, so why bother..."

is talking about Lu Jiayue's father, Lu Mian.

"Daddy is sick?" Lu Jiayue lifted the curtain and walked in quickly, took the letter from Meng's hand, read it from beginning to end, and couldn't help but burst into tears.

Although Lu Mian often wrote to her on weekdays, he cared for her earnestly, but he didn't mention anything about his own situation.

If she hadn't overheard what Meng and Mama Zhang said, how would she know that her father was sick?

In the eyes of others, she has only been separated from her father for a year or two, but in her past and present lives, she has not seen her father for five years.

The appearance of her father had begun to blur in her memory.

Lu Jiayue decided to go to Yungui to visit her father Lu Mian.

Meng Shi was frightened by her decision, but she persuaded her to no avail, so she had to tell Mrs. Qu, who also had good words to persuade her, but Lu Jiayue didn't listen, and insisted on packing up.

However, just before leaving, Qu Song told her that Ding Can had received the holy decree and would go to Yungui to supervise local affairs in the near future, and he could walk with her all the way.

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