Lin Yuelan took Situ Nanyun's hand and returned to the room. Maybe she stayed in the study for a day, and as soon as she entered the room, she was full of her breath and taste, from the pattern of the curtains, the color of the bed curtain, the furnishings of flowers and plants such as Huilan and bamboo, to the desk, the small ornaments on several cases, the dresser and the jewelry on it, there was her shadow and taste, looking at everything that was familiar, at this time, the ruthlessness and ruthlessness that he had finally accumulated in the study had fallen apart when he saw everything familiar in the bedroom.

"God, why did you want to part with us so cruelly?" His heart was in great pain.

"No, this is a mortal mission, let him hell with it, there are so many people in Tianyan, it doesn't have to be me Lin Yuelan to shoulder this responsibility alone, I am not a natural saint, if I want to abandon my wife and children, I can't do it."

"Take Yun'er away and fly high, don't ask about the rights and wrongs of this world."

"Let the world laugh and ridicule, I don't care, what the false name of this world can bring people is nothing more than a shackle that binds oneself. Yun'er is what I value the most in this world, and the rest is a passing glance for me. ”

"If Yun'er complains about me when she finds out, then let her blame him for the rest of her life, at least, she is still by my side."

Lin Yuelan had a lot of thoughts in her heart and couldn't sleep.

The night was deep, the wind and rain were still outside, the sound of wind and rain penetrated into the room, and the jade lamp on the low cabinet glowed with a dim and soft light.

Situ Nanyun was lying in Lin Yuelan's arms, she couldn't sleep well, she didn't hear his clear and shallow breathing, and knew that he wasn't asleep yet, so she said, "Husband, what are you thinking, why haven't you fallen asleep?" ”

Lin Yuelan turned her face and her eyes stayed on her face for a while, "Yun'er can't sleep, let's tell you a story for my husband." ”

Situ Nanyun hooked the corners of her mouth, "Okay, I just want to listen to the story and fall asleep." ”

Lin Yuelan said: "A long time ago, there was a young man in the village who fell in love with a girl, and once, a group of robbers suddenly came to the village, and released cruel words to wash the village in blood, and the people in the village joined the team to defend the village, intending to fight with the robbers. But the lad didn't care about all this, but ran away with his beloved girl. Before escaping, he said to the crowd: 'He was not afraid that he would lose his life, but that if he died, his beloved girl would be sad and sad in the world, so he decided to take her away and take refuge.' So all the people of the village laughed at him, and regarded him as a coward and the most selfish man, and engraved him on the pillar of shame in the village. ”

Seeing that Lin Yuelan didn't say any more, Situ Nanyun said, "Finished?" ”

Lin Yuelan said "um", "It's over, what does Yun'er think of this story?" ”

"It's not fun at all." Situ Nanyun smiled, "It's still a little serious, this is a matter of love and righteousness, the so-called love and righteousness can't be both, he finally chose love, he was not wrong, but in this, I didn't see the meaning of the girl, one person can't make decisions for the other, even if they are both in love, if her girl agrees to flee with him, then there is nothing to say, if it is just the meaning of the young man's side, then he kidnapped this love, desecrated its beauty, and even if they escaped from life, they may not be happy." Because love is faced side by side under consensual thinking, hand in hand through wind and rain, sharing weal and woe. ”

Lin Yuelan listened and knew that she was using this story to express her willingness to share the ups and downs with him and fight side by side, so why didn't he use this story to test her attitude? smiled and asked, "If Yun'er is that girl, but are you willing to leave?" ”

Situ Nanyun pondered for a while, "No, I don't want my beloved to live for the rest of my life because of such a thousand years of infamy, and I can't let go of my relatives and friends there, I will persuade him to stay, we will fight side by side to deal with robbers, even if it is death in the end, it is better than making him feel guilty in his heart for a lifetime." ”

Lin Yuelan's heart gradually sank into the abyss, he actually expected that Situ Nanyun would say this, she could go to the soup for love, but she couldn't be selfish for love once, and the hot fantasy that had just risen in his heart died out with her words.

He just wants to live a simple life with his Yun'er, a life and a couple, why can't he? Why did he have the blood of the Tianyan royal family flowing in his body, but he was born with a dragon scale birthmark and became the owner of the Dragon Roaring Order? Why did the love for Si She in his heart obviously overshadow the love for the Tianyan Dynasty and his mission, but he still couldn't leave all this to live a small world with his Yun'er? As soon as he thought of saying goodbye to Yun'er, from now on, he would never see each other, it was like pulling out a piece of meat from his heart, the wound was dripping with blood, without Yun'er, his heart would die, how would he spend the second half of his long and walking corpse life? The pain in my heart is indescribable, and I have to endure the torture of lovesickness for an endless time, thinking of this, my heart is already extremely sad.

Lin Yuelan's heart has been escaping just now, resenting the damn fate arrangement, resenting that he can't take Situ Nanyun away, in fact, if he explores the depths of his heart, he can't leave Tianyan and Tianyan's people very calmly, and take Situ Nanyun away to fly away, he can escape for a while, but he can't escape for a lifetime, it will be like a thorn in his heart, maybe that day it will take root and sprout, piercing out of his heart, making him fall into deep guilt for the rest of his life. He didn't want to admit it, he didn't want to think about it, he wanted to isolate it all from his thoughts, but at some moment of relaxation it overwhelmed him and forced him to wake up.

Situ Nanyun had fallen asleep in his arms, Lin Yuelan retracted her tossing thoughts, and looked at her quietly, maybe this was the last time she looked at her like this and hugged her. A beam of light in the room cast a faint soft light on the beautiful face of the sleeping person, like a dream, and he couldn't really see it. Maybe his Yun'er is just a dream for him, and it doesn't belong to him after all. From the beginning of the dreamy acquaintance, it was destined that the ending of this fate was also a dream, and he just had a dream for a long time. A dream of meeting her, knowing her, missing her, loving her deeply, being crazy for her, dying for her, resurrecting her, and finally Mingyue married her for the sea of flowers. He wanted to stay in this dream and never come out, so he guarded her for the rest of his life. But dreams are fragile, and people wake up in vain. He has always been cold and affectionate, but he has never loved someone so deeply, for her to leave this country and city, and all the burdens of this Tianyan, just to have her by his side, he seems to be born for her, his world is turned for her, although there are only more than three years of encounter, it seems that this love has precipitated the weight of a thousand years, so that he can leave all the obstacles in his heart.

"Yun'er, even if I abandon you, my heart will not leave you, and I can't leave you, because the rest of my life will be supported purely by your love."

"Break it off, Yun'er, you are still young, there is still a long way to go, for your happiness, please forgive your husband for being cruel to you, forgive me for ......"

Lin Yuelan kept looking at the person in her arms, reluctantly, thinking a lot, and sleepless all night until morning.

Situ Nanyun slept soundly, her slender and dense eyelashes covered the pool, her ruddy and soft lips were slightly curled, her white little hand kept holding his hand, and she didn't let go all night, Lin Yuelan's heart was touched, she reached over, hugged her, and gently rubbed her forehead with her forehead.

Situ Nanyun's eyelids moved, she opened her eyes, and the corners of her mouth swayed with a satisfied smile, "Husband, woke up so early?" ”

Lin Yuelan knew that from the moment she opened her eyes, she knew that she had to be ruthless, there was not much time left for him, and he couldn't delay it any longer, sooner or later he had to break it, so break it completely! Besides, Xuan Mingzi only gave him three days to think about it, so his face suddenly turned cold, he pulled his hand out of her, gave her a cold "um", and got out of bed.

After Lin Yuelan told Guo'er to make breakfast, she went to the study, spread out the paper, wrote a letter, and then handed it to Xiaoliu to send. The uncomfortable feeling of life and death pressed him like a mountain, he went to the Bihu Lake to practice swords, practiced for a while, and then sat on the Bihu Lake and looked at the water in a daze.

Honglian came back from picking vegetables and fruits from outside the village, saw Lin Yuelan sitting by the lake, walked over, and said with a smile on her face: "Shizi, there are times when you sit by the lake and worry?" ”

Lin Yuelan didn't respond to her, still looking at the misty blue waves by the lake, Honglian smiled, and handed him a bright red orange, "Shizi, taste one, it's quite sweet." ”

Lin Yuelan was in a bad mood, she just wanted to be alone at this time, and glanced at her coldly, "Take it and go away." ”

Honglian's smile froze on her face, and her eyes drooped in injury, Lin Yuelan was a little unbearable, knowing that Honglian had been staying in Luoxia Villa and unwilling to marry because she was secretly in love with herself.

A few times, Uncle Zhang complained to him that this red lotus girl would never marry, and she was afraid that she would be an old girl in this Luoxia Villa. ”

He smiled and comforted: "There is no shortage of red lotus in Luoxia Villa to eat, she can stay as long as she wants." This is her home. ”

Lin Yuelan remembered that when she first saw Red Lotus, she was still a five-year-old dirty little girl from the countryside, dressed in gray cloth clothes with mud, her face was yellow, and her eyes were full of strange brilliance.

He then added, "Keep the oranges for you to eat, I don't like to eat them very much." ”

A ripple appeared in Honglian's heart, and she raised her eyes to look at him, "I'm gone, I won't bother you." ”

Red Lotus turned around and left, Lin Yuelan looked at her back thoughtfully, and suddenly stopped her, "Red Lotus, I have something to tell you." ”