I smiled bitterly: "Senior, did you have to save me this time?" ”

"Of course, Xiaokang, I have a fate with you, and I said at that time that I would save you once. Reading at zero o'clock." The Grave Spirit immediately responded to me, and then, as before, I woke up from the stone chamber again.

……

This is the thirty-seventh time I've woken up from this stone chamber, and the language is so pale to me that I don't think anyone will understand my current pain.

No matter what efforts I make, what responds to me is always like a historical trajectory, returning to the martyr's cemetery, and then being returned to the stone chamber by the tomb spirit in the name of saving me. Again and again, and even now, I'm even a little numb. I thought, "Forget it, give up, there's no way I'm going to get out."

A few times I even wanted to kill myself, but I really couldn't do anything about myself. My state of mind is no longer simply something that can be resolved by the meditation technique and the ice heart technique. As the saying goes, the grudge is too deep, and it has reached the point where it cannot be resolved.

He is alive like a walking corpse, or reincarnated. I don't even have a ** to survive.

……

Ninety-nine, already ninety-nine.

I thought to myself, the last time, if it is still the end of the martyr's cemetery, then from the hundredth time, as long as I am awake, I will kill myself, because I am on the verge of madness.

Everything arrived at school as expected.

It's just that this time the situation is slightly different. Anyway, it was very good before, but this time, everyone has their own settings, that is, this time's worldview is not subjectively shaped by me.

I was overjoyed by this discovery. I was talking to them, and what I heard was no longer what I wanted to hear, and it was so blissful.

I don't know how to get out of this illusion yet, but at the very least, it's finally no longer a fantasy for me to go all by myself.

Finally, this time, the fat man did not lead me to the martyr's cemetery.

As the days passed, I was even numb and would not take the initiative to find an opportunity to break through, and I even felt that I was abandoned by the whole world.

In order to prevent the restlessness of going crazy in my heart from spreading, I paralyzed myself, this is not a fantasy, I have to survive here with a normal heart first, before I can break through here, otherwise with my current mentality, even if I find a flaw, it is impossible to find it, let alone break through.

My days are numb, but they always pass quickly, and I try to live as a reality, and my master and uncle have never come back. My days of Taoism are coming to an end, and when I reach my own bottleneck, no one has come to guide me, and I have gradually given up everything except insisting on morning classes every day.

Unlike before, everything in this illusion has a much lower limit. For example, in this midterm exam, most of the things tested were actually in elementary school, and it was easy to be the first in the grade. I can already find some happiness in this illusion and make myself less depressed.

For example, I would set a goal and then accomplish it. I worked hard wholeheartedly, so that time passed quite quickly and quite fulfillingly, and sometimes for days, I didn't even notice that it was an illusion.

So much so that I was proud of the completion of each goal from the bottom of my heart, and even some seemingly difficult goals, in which, I could achieve them without much effort.

And I also made a few good friends, because these people have independent personalities, and they don't have to be limited by the meaning of my thinking, and they don't have the feeling of talking to themselves.

Before you know it, a year has passed. This year, I have obtained various national certificates, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, looking at a room full of certificates, I even thought, when I return to my hometown, my parents must be very proud. I even forgot that I was living in a fantasy world.

I was hailed as a genius and gradually began to appear in the public eye. I have more and more fans, and even people in the country are looking for me to solve world-class problems.

I grew up in a world of pride and a sense of accomplishment. It's been nine years since I knew it.

Now I am in a position that should be considered a high-level of the country, right? What I said in public has even been recited by a large number of fans as quotations.

There is only one thing, even after nine years, I have always adhered to the principle of the beginning.

That is Wu Yizhu, even if I am numb enough to take this world as real, every time I see Wu Yizhu, I will clearly realize that I am still in the environment.

The reason is very simple, that is, this Wu Yizhu is too gentle, and I am afraid of being gentle. But Wu Yizhu, a person who eats ghosts, and has always been so cold, so I can't accept it. Because in addition to my master, uncle, parents and relatives, Wu Yizhu is a person I am more familiar with, and he is the person I like. I am adamant that such a big change will not be allowed.

If my master suddenly appears, the personality is the same as before, but if it's different, I can't accept it either, but now, I can't accept the change in the list of characters, and only Wu Yizhu has appeared.

In the past nine years, he followed me wherever I went, cooked for me, washed my clothes, and removed the illusion at the beginning, and I didn't even touch her hand after that. She gave me countless hints, and even blocked the door by her parents countless times. But I never gave her a promise and resolutely refused to let her be my girlfriend.

Wu Yizhu has become my inner demon, or the Wu Yizhu in reality, not the one-to-one imitation in front of me.

When I can't see Wu Yizhu, I will be obsessed with researching something new by myself, and then benefit the society, although the real situation is that a lot of things I have seen on the Internet before, there is no one in this illusion at all, so I made these things according to my previous memory, but the people in it don't know, so what does it matter?

But when I see Wu Yizhu, I can't control my depression, and I think of my parents, master and uncle.

I would be crazy to leave this illusion, but when she left and I faced those adoring eyes again, the pride in my heart would emerge, making me a little fluttering and enjoying this illusion.

But what should come will come.

On this day, someone said that they had found a treasure, but they didn't know what it was, so let me identify it.