Chapter 379: I don't want to be trapped by affection
"Regret what?" An Ning looked at Nangong Ji's handsome face shallowly and smiled, "What is there that I need to regret?" β
Nangong Ji spread her hands, "I regret that when I first met, I shouldn't have been close to me." If you hadn't subconsciously been close to me, I probably wouldn't have liked you anymore. β
There is no contact, how can you like it or not? Two people who don't know each other at all can't like it at all.
If there is, it must be attracted by appearances.
And only attracted by the appearance, and don't understand the other person's inner liking, at best, it can only be regarded as an impulse of the lower body, that thing, not to mention that it can't be described by the word 'love', and even the word 'like' is not worthy of being used.
"Nope." An Ning shook his head with special affirmation, "Master Tao, Nangong, you must remember it, right?" His love for me, that would really make me miserable, very life is worse than death. But your feelings for me...... In fact, except for a little bit of embarrassment at the beginning, I think everything is fine. β
Look, can't she and Nangong sit here and chat with a smile now?
Why did she subconsciously get closer to Nangong when she first met? Isn't that why?
Because of getting along with Nangong, she will feel very comfortable and comfortable. Whether it was chatting or something else, it made her feel so comfortable.
For anything that can make you comfortable, anyone will subconsciously get close, right?
It's understandable.
Even now, she is quite willing to get close to Nangong again. Of course, Nangong has already found out his feelings for her, and it is estimated that in the future, she and Nangong will not be able to get close again.
After all...... She and Nangong are still a little embarrassed now.
Not the embarrassment she felt, but the ...... The kind of situation where you have to keep your distance.
Emotionally introverted people are sometimes like that...... It's a little weird.
It's okay that Nangong didn't mention it, but when he mentioned it, she also felt that the two of them were a little ridiculous.
Where is there a confession that they talk to their hearts like this?
But she had to admit that compared to Tao Gongzi's vigorous pursuit of goodwill, she really preferred Nangong's calm and calm state.
Maybe it's something wrong with herself, and she really doesn't deal with things that are too intense. Whether it's a person with a warm personality or a strong love, she won't cope. Seeing that turning around is like running, how far and how far to run.
On the contrary, Nangong said it calmly, and she would know how to deal with it.
After all...... As soon as she married Emperor Quan Yu, the four protectors around him, she liked to be close to Master Lu and Nangong the most.
likes to be close to Nangong because she is very similar to Nangong. No one hates themselves, right? And she has always liked the contact of people with such a character. Nangong is like this, Prosecutor Du is like this, and Minister Jiang is like this.
Master Lu is a little special.
Everyone knows how dangerous he is, but before the smiling tiger takes off the word 'laugh', no one will dislike Master Lu.
The small chase is even more special.
Who would hate a 'stupid son of a landlord'?
In contact with people like Minister Jiang of Nangong, she is at ease. It's because they're all essentially the same kind of people. That's why it's easy to be at ease.
But getting along with Xiao Chase, it's a relaxation that doesn't need to think about anything.
It's like being with a child, you don't have to think about anything, it's relaxed, and she likes it very much.
Think about it this way...... She and the four protectors around Fifth Master Quan, except for the wolf warrior who was full of hostility to her from the beginning, her relationship with other people seems to have become very intimate unconsciously.
So she said it, right?
Getting along with people is really a terrible thing.
She tried hard to keep her distance from the people around Quan Yuhuang, so that when she left, she could walk easily. But it always backfires.
Unconsciously, she and Emperor Quan Yu, and the people around Emperor Quan Yu, have formed a lot of affection.
In my heart, I feel a little sad.
When she left, how could she leave with a wave of her sleeves and not take away a cloud?
Affection, sometimes because it's too affectionate.
I don't want to be trapped by affection, so I can only be affectionate.
At the end of the day, she's still an egoist. All I think about is how to keep myself from being hurt.
And Nangong, I'm afraid it's the same, right?
Picking out her feelings for her, Nangong wanted to use her hand to cut off this relationship that should not have started from the beginning.
Come to think of it, Nangong is also an extreme egoist!
"Nangong, anyway, the words have been spread out to this point, I don't think there is anything between us that can't be said tonight." An Ning sat cross-legged on the soft sofa and said with a smile, "Anyway, after tonight, you will still deliberately keep your distance from me, and I will pay more attention to myself, and I will not get along with you like before." Both of us deliberately try to control some of our behavior. I feel very sad to lose your friend. So, let's just say what we want to say tonight. β
I'm afraid it's in the future...... She and Nangong would never have such an opportunity again, sitting on the sofa and talking with a smile.
Nangong Ji nodded and said calmly, "If you really like it once, you will never be able to be friends again." β
"Because I know the most about the careful thoughts in my heart, I will no longer be in contact, and I will slowly fade away."
"Once I continue to be a friend, I won't be able to control myself, and I will still love you."
"Na, Nangong. Are you ...... Leaving again? β
Nangong Ji looked at this woman who was the first woman she fell in love with in her life, she was so smart, there were too many things to hide from her eyes.
She sees everything too clearly.
It made him feel sad, but it was she that he liked.
Raise your eyebrows, hook your lips, and nod your head.
Nangong Ji looked at the hostess who was still working hard to promote her self-directed and self-acting, and said lightly, "The fifth master already knows my feelings for you." Even if the fifth master doesn't say anything, I will not be happy in my own heart. I have a knot in my heart that cannot be unraveled. I couldn't find a second way but to leave. β
"If you leave because of me, Master Lu should hold a grudge against me." An Ning pursed her lips, "Master Lu, that person, has a very small belly and chicken intestines, and he also holds grudges very much. You finally ended your business trip and returned to the capital. As a result, I haven't been in the capital for a few days, and because I'm leaving, Master Lu must have a grudge against me in his heart. β
Speaking of his childhood sweetheart, the expression on Nangong Ji's face even deepened the smile, and he gently hooked the corners of his mouth, "I'm afraid that Yue Chuan wishes I could leave quickly." β
Koshikawa knew him best.
His analysis of himself is also very straightforward, straight to the point of paleness.
For a person with an introverted personality like him, if he doesn't like it, once he falls in love with someone, it is crazy and turbulent.
If he stays in the capital like this, in a place where he can see her as soon as he raises his eyes, it will be too dangerous!
It is dangerous to him, it has an impact on her, and it is a test for the relationship between him and the fifth master for more than 20 years.
After thinking about it, he had no choice but to leave the capital.
"Maybe I'll be back when I've cleaned up a little bit of my mood. But it's hard to say. β
"It's okay to leave." An Ning looked at Nangong Ji's eyes with a smile, "I have always felt that the land of the capital is not suitable for you. It's full of people and things that make you feel uncomfortable. Your character is not suitable to stay here. But Nangong, if you choose to leave the capital for your own reasons, I will bless you and support you. But it would make me feel sorry that you left the capital and your brothers and friends because of me. β
Although, she didn't think that she had done anything to say sorry to Nangong. But she still felt very sorry for Nangong.
If he hadn't liked her, Nangong wouldn't have used itβwell, it's a little too much to describe it with the words "uprooted", but Nangong left his hometown and his group of good brothers in order to avoid her. Alone outside.
Not wanting her to feel too much guilt in her heart, Nangong Ji smiled and spread her hands, "I just want to stay, and there is no place for me, right?" The disbandment of the command office is already a certainty, I have no job, A-Ning, you said that if I don't leave the capital and find a new job, I can't rely here and let the fifth master support me, right? If I could work in the Nine Divisions, I would not just be in the Nine Divisions, but would have served in the Command Division. β
An Ning pursed his lips and muttered in a small voice, "Don't say that you are raising one idler, even raising another hundred and eighty idlers is not a big deal for his surname." β
"Aning, can't you bear me?"
Because he knew Nangong Ji's character, he also said that he should be honest.
So An Ning didn't want to hide anything, she nodded generously, "You are one of my few friends, if you want to leave, of course I will be reluctant to you." β
But she knows better that Nangong's departure is the best choice for her, Nangong, Emperor Quan Yu, and everyone.
Nangong stayed, and she would also be very worried that Nangong would not be able to control this feeling.
It is true that Emperor Quan Yu is a very emotional person in his heart, and he takes his relationship with Nangong and Master Lu very seriously. But Emperor Quan Yu, after all, he is the fifth master of the power leaning towards the government and the opposition!
Thinking about the love between them for more than 20 years, Emperor Quan Yu could ignore Nangong's love for his woman several times. But no affection can be taken out again and again.
Feelings, feelings, are the most unbearable.
Someday, this affection will be worn out.
On that day, how should Nangong deal with himself? How can he protect himself?
There is also Emperor Quan Yu.
He takes his relationship with Nangong so seriously, what should Emperor Quan Yu do when the time comes?
Finally, there's her.
If there is really any conflict between Nangong and Emperor Quan Yu, then won't she really become that fox? The fox who provoked more than 20 years of love between other brothers.
Don't talk about grievances, how bitter she is. Force?
The peach blossom debt blown by the wind, she is also very helpless!