During that time, my law firm's business and professional skills grew by leaps and bounds, because I really couldn't find anything to do. Once I had a one-year internship at the firm, I was able to prepare for the bar exam right away. I stayed in Kunming for a year, but I couldn't find the feeling of being here, and without Shen Qian, I was a stranger everywhere.

I only talk about love and don't intercede, from QQ to WeChat, from ethereal text to real voice. Judging from the sound it should be a young and spicy little girl, voice has to be said to be a major invention of modern technology to serve the people, if it is not too troublesome to find a replacement every time you chat, then I am admired, so far I am sure that the object of my chat is really a girl.

She speaks very freely, thinks very quickly, and often says things that don't make sense. For example, we have the same sky above our heads, we have the land of the motherland under our feet, and we are close to the end of the world. I don't know if she's just expressing poetry or if she's courting me.

Speaking of which, she is also an alumnus of my university, one level below me, except that we are not on the same campus. Our educational backgrounds are more similar, and we naturally have more topics, or we are all young people who are about to struggle at the starting line. She used her professional knowledge to help me analyze Shen Qian's mental journey along the way. She told me that my love for Shen Qian is too humble, and if there is no deep emotional foundation to support it, it is difficult to break through the barrier of distance, which inevitably makes me a little discouraged. I returned to her the beautiful mountains and rivers we saw in Yunnan, and she was very envious, saying that she would definitely go out to see if she had the opportunity, and it was really boring to stay in one place since she was born.

The topics we talk about the most are music, books, and movies that young people like nowadays. At that time, most of the popular songs were flowing water songs: "Mice Love Rice", "Autumn Doesn't Come Back", "Damn Tenderness" and so on, these are all familiar songs from the student days, and such melodies are everywhere in shopping malls and audio stores. Now the memory of these songs has slowly faded. Popular books during college, Jin Yong and Gu Long's martial arts had just become popular, Guo Jingming and Han Han were born, the former's "How Much Do You Know About the Flowers in Your Dreams" and the latter's "Triple Gate" were extremely sought after at the time. I recommended these youthful campus hot-blooded themes to her, and she didn't appreciate them at all. She recommended me to read Hai Yan's novels, especially his life-and-death love trilogy "Never Look Away", "What to Save You, My Love" and "Jade Guanyin", she said that that is a reflection of the normal life of our current stubble, and the youth campus is too naïve.

What is normal life now? Well, I admit that girls of the same age do have a more mature and profound understanding of life than boys. The current post-90s and post-00s generations may not have enough understanding of Haiyan at that time, but when she told me, I was actually not very familiar with it. She said that although we haven't met, we can feel it, maybe you are a big boy like Yang Rui in "Jade Guanyin". I hadn't read this novel at the time, so I asked her what kind of person this Yang Rui was? Good or bad? She joked, is it good for you to say playboy? As a future psychiatrist, her keen observation is indeed sharp and accurate, and I may indeed give people the impression of a playboy in the eyes of outsiders. But I can't admit it, I explained again and again, I don't spend, my poor jingle rings, where did the son and brother say.

Later, I took the time to read Hai Yan's three masterpieces, and his writing was sharp and explicit, exposing the hard work, love and hatred of young people today, while showing the cruel and dark side of reality. Most people in their twenties, especially children who grew up in honey pots, can't fully understand the complex and tortuous fate of the characters in Haiyan's pen who are running for a livelihood and bowing to society. Hai Yan's protagonists are almost all tragic, and there seems to be no happy ending. In any case, I was facing my life with a positive and optimistic attitude before I encountered the Crossing Mission. When I really understood Yang Rui's growth and painful lessons in "Jade Guanyin", I had already parted ways with only talking about love and not interceding.

When it comes to movies, especially the theme of love, this time it's time for me to fight against her. Because she is still immersed in Jun Ji-hyun's "My Sassy Girlfriend", I made fun of her, after all, she is a girl, and her children's private affairs are on her lips all day long, in fact, why am I? After some jokes, she successfully led the topic to the social issue of gender equality. She said that women in the new era should not only abandon the old traditional feudal idea of "male dominance outside and female domination", but also keep pace with the times and be economically and ideologically independent. Although it is not my true will, but I have to stand in the position of the majority of male compatriots to argue with her, I said that the different physical qualities of men and women determine the future division of labor, should make use of their own strengths and advantages, men are suitable for making money outside, women are suitable for taking care of children at home This is an indisputable fact. We argued for three days in a row, but we couldn't come up with a reason.

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Invisible and untouchable, always makes people have infinite reverie. But I've never touched on a sensitive emotional issue involving the two of us. She talks about hers, I talk about mine, never about me and hers. She told me about a new boyfriend, what his temper was, what his personality was. I just listened quietly and never gave an opinion, and I was not qualified to do so.

She had an awkward relationship with her boyfriend and confided in me bluntly: "You men are all big turnips, and you can't walk when you see a beautiful girl, right?" ”

"From the perspective of men's physiology, it is basically true, not absolute, but it is also objective. You're a psychiatrist, and you're half an expert in medical knowledge, so I'm doing it in front of you, right? ”

"You're right. What about you? Honestly, do you care? ”

"When I see a beautiful girl, I have to admit it, what do you think is the standard of flowers? You give me a clear definition before I can answer you. ”

"Isn't a man just seeing one and loving the other, what other standards can there be?"

"There is an essential difference between stepping on several boats and loving several people at the same time, or ending one relationship and starting the next. The former is a scumbag, and the latter is at most not easy to fall into feelings and can self-regulate. Looking at a beautiful girl, not being able to walk is nothing more than the instinct of most men, and it doesn't mean whether he is unfaithful to you or not. ”

"It seems to make sense that men and women cannot be regarded as different sexes of the same species, they should be two different creatures through and through. I've heard this before. ”