People who are loyal to the cause they love are always positive, even the Chinese New Year is no exception.

Just after the second year of junior high school, the folk customs of Ouyang Changzhi's family began to receive guests.

Roland, who was standing in front of the window, craned his neck and looked at everything that was happening downstairs outside the window. Seeing that there were more and more guests coming, some of them even inadvertently scanned their exploratory gaze in their own direction, so they immediately turned around, walked to the sofa, and sat down against Ouyang Changzhi, who was reading.

"There are so many guests during the New Year, don't these people have to stay at home to pay New Year's greetings?"

Speaking of New Year's greetings, Ouyang Changzhi thought about it, after so many years, he had never gone to Roland's house to worship the New Year. So I mentioned the topic along the way: "By the way, it's the New Year, do you want to go to your hometown and pay a visit to your parents?" ”

Roland thought about it, it was true that he hadn't been back for many years, and he felt in his heart that he should still go to his mother to worship.

"Alright then, when are you leaving?"

Ouyang Changzhi was taken aback, he just said it casually, but he didn't expect Roland to agree.

"Okay, or today?"

"Today, okay."

"Then I'll go talk to my parents and prepare by the way."

Ouyang Changzhi went downstairs and thought that he had really never been to Luo Lan's house since he met her in junior high school.

The first time I heard about Roland's family was when I was in college. Ouyang Dan was secretly chasing himself at that time, and after he decisively refused, Ouyang Dan blurted out: "She is an unclean person, not for you!" ”

Seeing that Ouyang Changzhi was not affected at all, Ouyang Dan immediately fabricated the matter of Roland and her stepfather.

"It's true, the eldest grandson Wu heard what people said, and her old family knows it."

"Please don't spread rumors!"

"It's true. Didn't the eldest grandson still like her before, and after knowing these things, he gave up now. ”

"I can tell you very clearly by now that there is no such thing at all. Because I am her neighbor, I know better than you all about her family, so from now on, please stop spreading rumors! ”

Seeing Ouyang Changzhi's believable and proven look, Ouyang Dan immediately stopped talking, because he didn't know whether the rumors he heard were true.

In fact, Ouyang Changzhi at that time knew nothing about the Roland family.

Looking back now, my rejection of Ouyang Dan should have started at that time.

As soon as Ou's father and Ou's mother heard that the two were going back to Roland's hometown together, they immediately began to gather up, preparing some homemade specialties and a collection of Pu'er tea cakes.

Roland excused himself and said no, but the old-fashioned father and mother insisted that Roland accept it.

"Although this tea is not as authentic as your Molin District, it is also our heart after all."

Ou Mu's unintentional words made Roland's face change suddenly.

Looking at Roland, whose face changed abruptly, Ou Mu immediately added: "A few days ago, your father and I went to Molin District to participate in the exchange activities of the B&B Association, and I mentioned you by the way. I didn't expect President Fu, who happened to be presiding over the event, to know you and say that you are good, and you have been a hard-working child since you were a child. ”

"Thank you, Auntie, for remembering me at all times, but my parents are no longer there."

"Take it, in case you run into a neighbor or a former friend who hasn't seen you in a long time, it's always good to bring some gifts."

"That'...... All right. ”

"Go back and see, your uncle and I are waiting for you to come back at home."

"Okay, goodbye uncle and aunt."

"Be careful on the road."

Luo Lan's hometown and Ouyang Changzhi's hometown are separated by more than 100 miles, and it takes two hours to drive.

This place seems to be far, far away from oneself, and the blurred picture that is gradually fading away is like a movie that I have seen but forgotten, omitting frame by frame. If you don't set foot on this place again, it should be difficult to remember that you once settled here, took root, sprouted, and grew up.

If it does appear here, it's just another identical self. A self who let the unbearable past smash into the memory of growth like a meteorite on the road to the afterlife, his heart is scarred, and the pain is forever burned in his heart, a self who rejects every inch of land, every person, and every pair of eyes here, and a self who rejects but has to survive crampedly, and can only rely on the illusion of the future to survive.

I still remember that former self, since I had the idea of leaving here, even looking at the morning light every morning is like watching the distant future call me.

Unexpectedly, after leaving, I came back today.

Suddenly, so many years have passed, and Roland stepped into this house again, and found that in front of his mother's tablet statue, there was already an extra tablet of Luo Gang.

Ouyang Changzhi, who saw the portrait, was shocked and said: "I didn't expect you to look so similar to your mother, it's so surprising!" ”

"Yes, if you hit the neighbors, they will say that I look like my mother."

And Luo Gang in the portrait looked at the two people who came rashly with a smile.

Roland lit the incense and candles used for sacrifice, and in the flickering candles, Luo Gang's smiling face was a little weird and terrifying.

The appearance of this smile made all the fears that sank to the bottom of the sea pay for the water.

Roland began to fidget, and said to Ouyang Changzhi: "That's it, let's go upstairs and have a look." ”

Ouyang Changzhi bowed again reverently, and said, "This is the first time I've come to see your parents, so I have to bow down." ”

After the worship, Ouyang Changzhi followed Roland to visit the home. The house was empty, dusty, and smelled of decay, apparently not inhabited for a long, long time.

Along the ladder to the second floor, there is the master room, and Ouyang Changzhi looked around for a week.

"Nothing to look at."

Roland, who was standing behind him, suddenly spoke, so frightened that Ouyang Changzhi quickly retracted his steps, and then said to Roland: "Don't stand behind me and suddenly speak, it's really weird and scary." ”

"Okay, I see, it's really eerie that I haven't lived in it for so long."

Roland walked slowly into the room, came to the old-fashioned wooden window, stood in a daze for a few seconds, then lifted the dusty mosquito net, and said slowly, "My mother died in this bed in the first place. ”

"I'm sorry to remind you of something unhappy. By the way, what about your room? ”

"Let's go, on the third floor."

After finishing speaking, Roland pulled Ouyang Changzhi up to the third floor.

The room on the third floor on the left was open, and there were a lot of rag dolls and toys in it, but because no one had lived there for a long time, there was a layer of dust piled up on it.

Ouyang Changzhi glanced at it, thinking it was Roland's room, and said, "It turns out that you liked rag dolls so much when you were a child?" ”

"I don't like it." After finishing speaking, Luo Lan took Ouyang Changzhi to another room, opened the door and said, "That was Luo Mingzhu's room just now, and my room is here." ”

Compared with Luo Mingzhu's room furnishings, Luo Lan's room seemed very simple, with almost no furnishings, just a small bed, a table, and a chair, and there were all kinds of past textbooks on the table, and the dust on them was very thick and heavy.

In fact, not only is there dust on all furniture, but also in the space.

A pinch of sunlight shone directly through the window, and in the unclear beam, countless tiny trembling dust particles rose, like countless small insects, wandering in the beam like a lonely ghost, densely invading the eyes, noses, mouths, and every tiny pore of the two intruders. In addition, there was no one living for too long, and the moisture and mildew inside were very serious, mixed with a strange smell, and the two of them couldn't breathe for a while.

Roland covered his mouth and nose and coughed dryly twice, and then said, "I haven't been back much since I graduated from junior high school, so the room is almost untidy." ”

"Yes, I remember when you boarded, you were basically in school."

"After graduating from junior high school, I had a quarrel with my father, and he felt that a woman is virtuous if she is not talented, and it is okay for me to go to a health school or something, and there is no need to go to high school and go to university. But I still went against his will and secretly went to high school. ”

Roland casually made up an excuse to explain the family relationship that had always been cold.

"I admired you a lot at that time, and I was able to work and earn tuition while going to school."

Roland had a disapproving expression on his face, and Ouyang Changzhi didn't want to talk about this topic anymore. After so many years, Roland hasn't come back much, and now that she is back, her father has died, this situation must make her feel very sad.

Ouyang Changzhi walked to the window and prepared to open the window to let the outside air circulate indoors and remove the smell in the room.

When he opened the window, Ouyang Changzhi looked down and saw that there was a deserted land behind the house, and there were patches of wild grasses and impatiens on the ground, which was simply overflowing.

Looking at Ouyang Changzhi's distracted appearance, Roland smiled and said, "That's right, this is the impatiens seed that I borrowed from you at the beginning, I didn't expect the reproductive ability to be so strong, and now it grows so much." ”

"If it's not used to grow impatiens, this is a good place to make a vegetable patch."

"Really? When you say that, I think it's quite suitable for making a vegetable patch. ”

"It's just that if you want to grow vegetables, these impatiens will have to be transplanted, because impatiens contain carcinogens, and the carcinogens produced are not directly volatilized, but will seep into the soil.

"Oh, really?" Roland tilted his head and thought for a while, then said lightly: "Come to remember, when I asked you to borrow seeds, you also told me, so I asked my father to stop growing vegetables at that time." ”

"With a daughter like you, your father is so happy."

Ouyang Changzhi recalled that when Roland asked him to borrow impatiens seeds, just to use impatiens to soak wine to treat her father's rheumatoid arthritis, he couldn't help but admire her filial piety.