Su Tao walked alone on the boulevard on the campus, and the early autumn sun poured softly on her body, which was a little warm and comfortable. Zhou Xiaonan is already working on helping her arrange an interview, and she also wants to prepare well, after all, the opportunity is quite rare, and it is also something that Xiaonan has won with great difficulty. She plans to go to the library to find some relevant literature and materials for interviews, so that she will not be timid during the interview. Su Tao thought as she bypassed the main road with more people and took a more remote path instead. Since she often wanders around the school with Zhou Xiaonan, she is now quite familiar with the route branches on the Boya campus. She doesn't want to go to a crowded place, now she is famous in school, all kinds of gossip rumors are flying all over the sky, what Shao Huan has dated the Su sisters, Shao Huan and He Yang's two men fighting for a woman, etc., have been rumored, but ironically, she has completely cut off contact with these two gossip news heroes.

"Su Tao-" A hesitant call interrupted her thoughts, Su Tao turned her head a little stunned, behind her was really He Yang, who had not been seen for many days--these days, he looked thinner and thinner, the original clear and handsome silhouette has now become sharp, and he looks a little haggard, obviously he has had a difficult time like himself, but unfortunately now he has come out, and he has not. Su Tao didn't expect to see him here, they hadn't met since the quarrel that day, and He Yang didn't try to contact her during the period, but Su Tao not only didn't answer the phone, but also quickly blocked all of He Yang's various communication methods, obviously not ready to listen to any explanations from him. "Su Tao, is that you?" He Yang hurriedly ran forward, with a pleading look on his face, "Su Tao, please don't go...... Listen to me! ”

Su Tao stopped, she decided to let He Yang finish speaking, she didn't think He Yang's words could change anything, but since he insisted on entanglement, it was not a way to always escape like this, and this matter would have to end sooner or later. In this case, it is better to make it clear now and make it clear.

Thinking of this, Su Tao stopped, she turned around, looked up at He Yang, and said softly, "If you have anything to say, just say it." We are friends, not so much that there is no love at all. ”

"Su Tao, what are you talking about? I know you're angry, but why would you say such nonsense to hurt someone? He Yang smiled bitterly, "I was so excited that day, I may have said something that shouldn't have been said." But we were all too excited that day, and we weren't calm enough at all, so how could we take it seriously in that situation. ”

Su Tao smiled calmly and said lightly, "But why do I think that the more emotional I am, the more I tell the truth?" ”

"When you are excited, you often don't tell the truth, but you say angry words." He Yang said seriously, "I admit that I was too radical that day and said something a little hurtful, which may have misled you." But that's because I'm so scared of losing you, do you know how anxious I was when I couldn't find you anywhere and no one answered your calls? You still hid from me to get in touch with Shao Huan, and even prepared to enter their circle, do you know how sad I was when I first learned about these things? You know that I hate their bunch of gentlemen the most, especially Shao Huan. I know you're not the kind of woman who covets vanity, and maybe you have your considerations for doing this, but why are you hiding it from me? If you don't tell me anything, how can I know how you can calm me down when I first learned these things from other people's mouths? ”

"Okay, He Yang, why don't you want to think about why I didn't tell you in the first place? It's because of your attitude, you always hold that circle is a flood beast, there is no good person in it, and any relationship with them is all greed, vanity, selfishness and snobbery, but in fact, you don't want to really understand the situation at all, and your position is always above everything else in your eyes! I was so blind before, and only now do I understand that you are essentially the same person as Shao Huan and them, the same narrow-minded and self-righteous! But in reality you don't know anything! ”

"Su Tao, I've been in this school longer than you, I know much better than you what Shao Huan and the group of people in their circle are, that's why I warned you like this. Not because I'm jealous or narrow-minded, but because they're really not worth associating, and I don't want you to be deceived. With them, even those who are determined to be determined, it is difficult not to be affected......"

"Oh, that's it, what about Su Ying? She was in that circle from the beginning, hanging out with those people. Has she always been greedy for vanity, or is she extraordinarily determined to be unaffected? Su Tao smiled mockingly, "Or rather, Su Ying will always be an otherworldly existence in your heart......

"Su Ying, she is different...... Can we not get involved with Su Ying for everything? Is that why you're ignoring me? ”

"I also want to not always get involved with my sister, and I also want to be two people in love, not a third person in between......"

"Su Tao! Your sister is dead, why should you bother with someone who has passed away......"

"I thank you! I don't need anyone to remind me that my sister is dead! Don't I know it myself? Isn't it for this, I have to go to Shao Huan and those people as if I was in a hurry? In your eyes, I'm a ruthless murderer who doesn't care about my own sister's case, and I still fight with a woman like her all day long, who has died, right? Since I'm so selfish, narrow-minded, and vexatious, why do you bother to salvage this relationship? ”

"I'm just saying that, why do you over-interpret it...... It turns out that you want to enter the circle, for your sister's business......"

"Heh, over-interpreting? It's just a normal understanding. ”

"Little Peach, let's not hurt each other like this. I didn't expect you to enter the circle to investigate your sister's affairs, I misunderstood you. ”

"Oh, as long as it's for my sister, you can understand and forgive. For Su Ying's sake, entering the central circle has become a noble act, so my image has changed for the better in your eyes, right? Also, I was able to enter your eyes at the beginning, wasn't it because I was Su Ying's sister? Maybe apart from this identity and this face similar to Su Ying, I have no other value. ”

"That's not the case, Peach, why do you have to understand it like this?" He Yang said bitterly, "Could it be that in your eyes, our love is because of Su Ying?" Am I such an insincere person in your heart? Could it be that all the happiness we had together before was fake? ”

"I don't know," Su Tao closed her eyes, saturated tears slid down the corners of her eyes, "He Yang, I don't know." That's the scariest thing, you know? When I started questioning my feelings, there was no going back. Do you know? My sister is not the biggest obstacle between us, if we really love enough, we don't question our love because of this at all. I'm not just questioning your feelings for me, but also my feelings for you. That's the biggest problem, He Yang. I don't know what to say, He Yang, maybe it's not fair to you, but I really want to say that I doubt that I really loved you. I've been wondering since that night, I saw you angry, you misunderstood me, you didn't understand me, I was so disappointed, you know? ”

"I'm sorry, Su Tao, it's my fault. I swear I never will. He Yang said hurriedly.

"That's not the case, He Yang. That disappointment is not only for you, but for myself. I realize I don't like you like this, I don't like it. I don't think you're who I thought you were, you're not that perfect anymore. When I found out what I thought, I was shocked, you know? I could have thought that no one could be truly perfect, but I really thought so at the time. I have a feeling that you have fallen from the altar. If it's just a suspicion that you don't love me, I might have the strength to do something to make you truly love me. Maybe I think there will be a future and hope for our relationship. But I am questioning myself now, and I feel that my courage has been exhausted in this questioning and being questioned. At that moment, I began to wonder, what did I love when I loved you so much? I love you for being so understanding, being able to understand my loneliness and sadness, loving your comfort and care for me, loving your understanding and tolerance of my spiritual world, all of which are all you giving, if you just suspect that you don't love me, I may still have the strength to do something to make you truly fall in love with me. Maybe I think there will be a future and hope for our relationship. But I am questioning myself now, and I feel that my courage has been exhausted in this questioning and being questioned. "It's always been just acquisition. You seem to me to be the perfect all-powerful image that can save me from my loneliness. But when you show the emotions that an ordinary person would have, I feel that you shouldn't be like this, and the person I love is not like this. That's when I realized that maybe I didn't love you, but a perfect fantasy. I love the image of a perfect image made up by my own brain, an image that can always soothe me and understand me. And not a real person, someone who has his own joys and sorrows, and who also needs my comfort. He Yang, I'm sorry, but I think maybe ......"

"We can continue to run in, isn't falling in love a process of running in and disillusionment?" He Yang continued.

If it's just a suspicion that you don't love me, I might have the strength to do something to make you truly love me. Maybe I think there will be a future and hope for our relationship. But I am questioning myself now, and I feel that my courage has been exhausted in this questioning and being questioned. ”