Due to the high concentration of thoughts and the extremely complex and tense mood during this time, You Ke felt like he was suffering from depression or schizophrenia, and the people around him didn't know what was really going on with him, just that the poor scholar was guilty of being a nerd again.

You Ke felt that there were two opposing voices arguing in his head at any time, one saying that it was left, and the other was right; It seems that one is the self, and the other is an unknown self, and the whimsical, bizarre, and all-encompassing information strikes like lightning, and these information fragments seem to pass by like a movie lens, and he can't clearly "see" what these images are.

This reminds You Ke of the Austrian writer Stephen? Zweig's last novella, The Story of Chess, written before his death, tells the son of a boatman with low intelligence who accidentally discovers his near-genius chess talent during a joke, and his adoptive father wastes no time in raising him to become a world champion.

On an ocean liner from New York to Buenos Aires, they were lucky enough to meet the chess prodigy and get the chance to play against him through a little trick. However, the half-game player was easily defeated by the World Champion, and it was not until the halfway through the game that a mysterious Dr. B joined in the middle of the game to turn the tide of the game.

Out of curiosity, everyone learned that Dr. B had not moved a chess piece for more than 20 years. When the German fascists annexed Austria, he was conspired to be imprisoned in a single room with only four walls in the Grand Hotel, and in the extreme emptiness and loneliness, he cultivated his chess talent with a stolen chess game. But this long-term self-play with no chessboard and no opponent made him schizophrenic and even crazy. In order to prove that he could play "a game of chess against a living person on a real chessboard with concrete pieces", Dr. B accepted a game against the World Champion and won the first game.

In the second game, the world champion sensed Dr. B's strong anxiety and eagerness, and made Dr. B's schizophrenia with a vicious slow attack, and he reappeared and fell into a frenzied self-game, and finally came to his senses and said goodbye to the game under the reminder of the well-wisher.

You Ke feels like Dr. B now, in a state of inextricable madness and schizophrenia, but the difference with Dr. B is that he is sober in his heart, knowing what is happening around him and Dr. B doesn't know.

All of this, everyone in the world who has attained it will inevitably experience a state similar to Nirvana. It's just that the current You Ke doesn't know yet, he is about to usher in the opportunity in his life, or most people in their lives, there is no chance of encountering it, but he will not be able to really understand the impact of what is happening now on his life until a few years later.

This time, You Ke secretly made up his mind in his heart: "Hengzhu either wakes up or dies, if he drowns or suffocates in a dream, he may not really die in real life, besides, it's just dead, there is nothing worth worrying about in this world" Thinking of this, my heart was desolate.

But then I thought about it, I was still a single dog, the world was so wonderful and I hadn't experienced it well, anyway, it was just a dream after all, I was really sad and couldn't help but be a little dumbfounded, I felt that I was too sensitive and too ignorant and superstitious, thinking of this, the high-pressure mental state formed during this time has been somewhat relieved, and the feeling of relief has surfaced in my heart for a long time, and my heart is smooth for a while.

So when the dream came back a week later, he was able to appear less panicked for the first time, unlike every time he had been in a terrified and panicked state in his dreams. When his breath was approaching the critical state, You Ke felt a horizontal in his heart, and finally opened his mouth and sucked in the liquid blocking his mouth and nose with the mentality of fighting a fish to die in the net, thinking that this mouthful was not directly into the stomach, but definitely directly into the lungs.

There was no imaginary suffocation, nor did I wake up and return to reality, it was as if I was breathing freely. You Ke entered a state of "suspended animation" in which he was both in a state of coma and a certain sense of self.

Although he was still unable to move, he still had a little conscious conditioning.

But in a trance, this time You Ke's body sensation is much clearer and sharper than before, because there is no worry about breathing, when the "crackling" sound starts again, he clearly feels that there is a heat surge in the body this time, which is a kind of burning, not only in the hand Taiyin lung meridian, hand syncope yin pericardial meridian, hand Shaoyin heart meridian, hand Yang Ming large intestine meridian, hand Shaoyang Sanjiao meridian, hand sun small intestine meridian, foot Yang Ming stomach meridian, foot Shaoyang gallbladder meridian, foot sun bladder meridian, foot Taiyin spleen meridian, foot syncope Yin liver meridian, foot Shaoyin kidney meridian These twelve major meridians run through at an unimaginable speed. He even repeated the passage of many meridians that he had never learned about in any books.

In the "crackling" sound, there must be multiple meridians being hit to form a blazing feeling, and he realized that the sound was not a simple one or multiple superimpositions, but a very dense "electric shock", because the heat surge he felt in his body was no longer one or several lines, but a net-like blazing feeling, surging in the body like ocean waves, most of the waves rushed to the brain, and the other parts rushed to the limbs. The sound seemed to be so weak that it was almost impossible to hear, or rather it was just what he thought he "heard", or rather, it was Yuke who sensed the "electric shock".

What even You Ke himself didn't know was that now he had memorized all the nine Chinese and foreign books he had browsed in Xinhua Bookstore for more than three hours, and he could not only memorize them backwards, but also integrate these knowledge into his ideology. Therefore, under the forced impetus of the "current", he subconsciously moved at will according to the major meridians, and in the back, it no longer matters whether his consciousness is pushing the current or the current is pulling his consciousness, and he has gradually entered a more chaotic and ambiguous state.

I don't know how much time has passed, but You Ke, who was almost in a comatose state, slowly appeared a clear picture in his mind:

It was as if he was in a cradle, and the texture of the pink blanket covering him was so clear, and a brown bear sewn on it was looking at him with a smile in front of him.

He could even clearly smell the texture of the blanket itself, the unique fragrance of the sun-soaked body.

The cradle that surrounds you is made of rattan weaving, which is a very delicate handicraft, and the tendons on the four sides of the cradle are clearly intertwined with each other in an orderly manner.

He could even make out the broken rattan on the top of his right foot, the broken part of which had been carefully wrapped in strips of cloth, apparently fearing that the protruding rattan would cling to himself in the cradle.

And on his left hand, there is a plush toy kitten. The toy kitten is so clear that You Ke can see his own shadow in the kitten's large, shiny, glassy eyes. And this shadow is obviously a baby in swaddling clothes!

In the distance, a small conversation between a man and a woman suddenly sounded, looming, not very real, but You Ke suddenly had a huge sense of happiness that he had never felt before. If it weren't for such a liquid environment, You Ke could even feel his tears welling up.

He just wanted to open his mouth and call out loudly: "Dad, Mom! ”

But the word "Dad" has not yet been spoken, and You Ke suddenly woke up.

All this turned out to be a strange dream!