After the exam, Sun Xiaohong deliberately gave a ten-minute text analysis during the interview. She has been preparing this text at home for more than 20 days. Without stage fright, she can also recite it backwards. But in the face of so many juries, she was still a little blind, although she felt that she spoke seamlessly, but when she saw the cold faces of those judges, she was discouraged. After the interview, she walked out of the door in a panic, and looked at the rush of candidates, and she stepped out of the school door with great confidence. At that moment, her heart may have been cold.

After returning from the interview, she felt that her competitiveness was too strong and the exam was hopeless, so she quietly went to the restaurant to serve dishes and wash dishes. When others asked her how she was doing, she kept her mouth shut as if nothing had happened. Even if she didn't have it, she would have to live like this.

All the fragility in the world comes from the shadow of the heart, if you can see it, everything will go naturally. If you can't see it, it's hazy everywhere. No amount of tears can mean anything, and shedding them is a mockery of yourself. For the future and future, Sun Xiaohong no longer holds out any hope.

On the morning of August, the weather was gloomy and gloomy, and the clouds were wandering around, hanging a thin layer of fluff on the dim sky, as if silently mourning the lost time. In the face of this moody ghost weather, it is difficult for people to be happy.

After Sun Xiaohong finished washing the vegetables in the store, she walked out of it with a bucket of dirty water. A cool breeze swept over her head, and she couldn't help but shudder. She put down the dirty bucket and looked up at the sky, the autumn wind was blowing, the sun was getting colder, and the yellow leaves on the trees had fallen off, and she stood there bare, and it had become lifeless.

This year's time has rushed by like this, except for pessimism and disappointment and blind complaints, nothing has improved. Every time she thinks of these unpleasant things, Sun Xiaohong's mood becomes inexplicably sad.

Sihuan rode a bicycle and walked over from the opposite side, she saw Sun Xiaohong there motionless in a daze, so she hurriedly came over and said hello to her: "Xiaohong, who are you talking about luck?" Look at your black face, it's ugly to catch up with eating eight bitter gourds, who is so bold and dares to make you angry, tell me, see if I don't cut him, give you anger! Sihuan's sudden question startled Sun Xiaohong. She looked up and saw Sihuan squeezing her eyebrows at her, she was slightly stunned, and stepped forward with a smile and slapped her shoulder.

"What are you doing, you are so shocked, you want to scare people to death and not pay for your life? You still want to help me get angry, I'm almost scared out of breath by you! Sun Xiaohong said angrily, tears swirling in her eyes, and as soon as she lowered her head, she fell down one by one. In order not to let Sihuan see the embarrassment in her heart, she raised her hand and wiped it gently, and raised her face with a smile.

"Look at you little coward, like a three- or five-year-old child, and you can't help but be scared. It's really a beautiful girl with a lot of tears, I haven't said anything, you just cry like this, can you still have a little bit of fun! Sihuan knew that she was uncomfortable, so she deliberately teased her like this.

"Interest? I'm like this now, what else can I do. If only I could live back to three or five years old. At least there aren't so many troubles! Sun Xiaohong looked pitiful again, and said with a sigh.

"Aren't you okay now? Working in a restaurant, the wind can't blow, the rain can't get wet, there is food, drink and money to earn, and you can't be idle all day long, what more do you want? You just be content, many people are not as good as you, I think you can't think about it yourself, everything can be connected with yourself, you are not tired, it is really boring. Now all the businesses that can make money are out, as long as you are willing to work, even the old lady who picks up rags on the street can make a fortune, what are you worried about every day! You still have that kung fu to rest, sighing all day long, thinking that who can pity you? Sihuan said mercilessly that she had been dealing with reinforced concrete and bricks on the construction site all year round, and had practiced invulnerability, and she had no time to cry and complain to others.

Si Huan was right. Actually, there's nothing I can't think about. No one can dig a well with a spade, or eat a fat man in one bite. You have to take your time to do everything to be effective, and I'm already like that, so I should face it. Sun Xiaohong pursed her lips lightly, looked up at the sky above her head, the clouds gradually dispersed, the sun slowly diffused, and her mood suddenly brightened.

"Yes, I also feel that I am very hateful, I have some messy things in my head, I think about it all day long, the more I think about it, the more confused I become, the more I think about it, the more I have no way out, it's really ridiculous to think about it now, isn't this my own drill into the tip of the horns. Anyway, it's all gone, and it's nonsense again, and it doesn't taste good. Don't talk about it, let's talk about you, I can't see you these days, where are you going crazy again! Sun Xiaohong's face finally turned from cloudy to clear, and she could no longer see the hazy haze.

"You're right to think so, it's not me who blows your self-esteem, climb wherever you cross a mountain, and walk on a bridge wherever you cross a river. You have to be a little qualitative when you encounter things, don't look at the mountains and look at the mountains, and deceive yourself! It's made everyone worry about you, do you think it's interesting? Si Huan's words, although a little harsh, but her words hit the nail on the head, and Sun Xiaohong was silent and didn't speak. She is a smart person, she knows these words well, it is better to see through than to point through, and it is better to say through than to say thoroughly. If Si Huan didn't poke her sore spot in front of her, she wouldn't know what it meant to be repentant.

"Actually, I don't have anything I can't think about, sometimes I just compete with myself. In this life, people can't run all the way to the dark, why don't you eat a bowl of rice! You don't have to persuade me, I can drive if I want to, but I can't drive for a while! Sun Xiaohong said quietly, giving her a bright smile, she bent down and slowly poured the dirty water from the bucket into the dirty ditch on the side of the street. After the water rushed, it stirred up an unpleasant stench. Sun Xiaohong suddenly felt nauseous and immediately covered her nose.

"No, who hasn't had a time when the horse was high and short! If you can't help for a while, you have to rely on yourself wherever you go. You see, I talked to you about it, and my brother asked me to buy him a pair of gloves just now, and I almost forgot about it. I've got to buy it for him quickly, or he'll say I'm out of tune again!" After Sihuan finished speaking, he waved his hand at her and rode away.

The sun fell on the pavement, and the haze gradually dispersed, revealing a clear sky. Those obscure days were also driven away by the calm sunshine, and they have never returned. Her mood is also like a transparent blue sky, shining between the gaps in the white clouds.

There were no customers in the morning, Xiaohong was cleaning inside the house, and the sound of a motorcycle came from outside the store, she hurriedly put down the mop in her hand, walked out of it, and waited at the door. When Chef Wang came back from shopping for vegetables, he propped up his motorcycle at the door of the store and lowered his head to move vegetables from the car. Xiaohong saw that he couldn't be busy, so she hurriedly walked over, picked up the vegetable bag with both hands, sent it into the house, and then continued to mop the floor. After Sun Xiaohong cleaned the inside and out, she saw Master Wang picking celery in the kitchen, and she also came over to help.

"Xiaohong, I was shopping for vegetables at the market just now, and I saw your mother. She said that you went to the civil teacher exam again a few days ago? Why don't you say it earlier, I'll give you a few days off and review well at home, if you can get into the relationship, your mother will also have a heart disease. Master Wang said unhurriedly, he has always been respected, and everyone who comes to the restaurant to dine has a very good relationship with him.

Although this small restaurant is operated on a small budget, with small profits and quick consumption, there are many repeat customers in the store, even if some gangsters in the society come to eat in the store, he greets him with a smile, and then warmly entertains him, never looking at people's dishes. Therefore, Master Wang has also made some famous figures in society, and the sources of some news are not chasing after the wind.

"It's okay, it's not difficult to take the junior high school course, I spent morning and evening reviewing. It's been a few days since the test was completed, and the results haven't come down yet, and I don't know what the test is like. Sun Xiaohong shrugged her shoulders, she didn't want to mention this matter, but when she heard Master Wang ask like this, she couldn't hide anything, so she could only tell the truth.

"Don't look at the inconspicuousness of private teachers, it is not possible for anyone to pass the exam. Many families in the village, no matter what their children's culture is, are staring at these places with red eyes, if no one is making trouble behind their backs, if you learn to get in with real talent, I think you will definitely be able to get in. In these years, I can't say for sure, it's obviously a sure thing, but it's yellow in a blink of an eye. There are villains, there are many rights and wrongs, and if someone is stirring up in it, it will be impossible to say! Master Wang's face was slanderous, and he seemed to be avenging Sun Xiaohong.

The old-fashioned yellow calendar is no longer visible. The current sun is not the sun of the past, and the current road is not the road it used to be, the economy is expanding, prices are soaring, people's hearts are not ancient, and there are too many things that she is not used to.

"Hmm!" Sun Xiaohong nodded. She had a lot of words in her heart that she wanted to say, but they were all stuck in her throat, and she couldn't say a word. She didn't want to say anything, so naturally there was a reason why she didn't say it.

"I heard that the selection of private teachers for this examination is very important to the above, and those township leaders are strictly controlled, so I guess you will not have a problem. Don't be too discouraged, aren't the results out yet? If you wait for the news, maybe it's you. "Master Wang is not giving Sun Xiaohong a reassuring pill. The scope of this examination is set at four counties and one district. The purpose is to select some outstanding talents to be teachers, and after passing the written test, there will be an interview. There is absolutely no chance of cheating.

"Anyway, it's just to try, it's the best to get in, and if you can't pass the test, you won't be recruited. If I really can't pass the exam, I will learn to cook with you in the future, and when I finish my studies, I will go to the city to open a restaurant, what do you think? Sun Xiaohong said with a smile.

"Learn to cook with me, what can you do? This person, no one has nowhere to look, maybe he is still farming at home today, but when he meets a good opportunity, maybe he will be able to go to the city tomorrow to be the boss. Some people can get rich overnight, and some people can become poor overnight, and this is creation. The road you walked, this is where to go, and when you see more in the future, you will naturally understand what is going on! Your current age is just right, as long as you are willing to work hard, it's not too late to do anything. If you don't believe me, you just wait, and as soon as the test results come out, someone will come to your door and invite you to teach at the school. ”

The smell of fresh vegetables fills the shop one by one, and the sweet flavor is mixed with it, and it quickly becomes an ingredient for a delicious meal.

It was almost noon, and many customers came to the store one after another. Sun Xiaohong beckoned them and got busy.