Chapter 334: The Past
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"If you don't want to say, then we'll come and I'll ask you an answer." As a teacher of the people and a spiritual mentor, Zhang Li probably has no better way to communicate with others than her.
Li Xiaobai nodded, in fact, this is not bad, so that she can not answer if she doesn't want to answer.
"You're in a very bad mood?"
Zhang Li opened it with a magazine and spread it on her lap.
Don't put your eyes on Li Xiaobai's body, that will give her a kind of pressure to nail people urgently.
Li Xiaobai really leaned back, and her whole body leaned on the back of the sofa relaxedly, which was a sign of relaxation, proving that the surrounding environment made her feel safe.
"Yes!"
"Connected with a friend?"
"Yes!"
"Is it a boy?"
Zhang Li is sure that Li Xiaobai at this age has reached the age of a fair lady and a gentleman, if no one pursues Li Xiaobai, it is simply a man who does not have long eyes, not to mention that Li Xiaobai is indeed a girl with both wisdom and beauty, not to mention, as long as you inquire casually, you know that Li Xiaobai is the granddaughter of Li Lao, just this net worth and life experience are placed there, and there will be people who want to seize the opportunity and ascend to the sky in one step.
In recent years, there has been no shortage of people who are eager for quick success, and of course, there will be no shortage of youthful admiration.
"Yes!"
"Are you running into resistance with him, or are things not going well?" Zhang Li has her own intuition, Li Xiaobai is actually a simple child, and the level of life is also very simple.
She has a fixed circle of friends, rarely does something out of the ordinary, knows fox friends in society, and belongs to a very rational child.
Li Xiaobai sat up, clasped his hands, and rested his elbows on the knees of both legs.
"His family's attitude towards me was rejective, and I could feel that it was a polite distancing, and they didn't want to hurt me, but they deliberately kept their distance. I don't necessarily think that whoever leaves whom, the earth won't turn. However, he is a very strong and radical person, and I believe that he is with me in a serious manner, not simply because of a momentary impulse or temptation, and I probably want to retreat from this resistance, I am not a person who is used to running away, probably because I am not ready to fight for someone. โ
Zhang Li smiled lightly, looking at Li Xiaobai's eyes full of appreciation.
"Xiaobai, everyone walks in life, every life is a different journey, every mile may have the most important person in your life to accompany you, such as parents and siblings when you are young, they will be recognized as the most important people in your life.
But as we grow up and different friends come into our lives, everyone begins to know that the outside world is so vast and the scenery outside is so beautiful, and we begin to have joys and sorrows, and of course, there will be joys and sorrows.
When I was young, I thought that the person I loved the most would probably never fall in love with someone else again in my life, and I could replace it, and I would look back when I was older one day. only to find that there is no one in this world who cannot be replaced. โ
"This wave of chicken soup for the soul is good, but unfortunately I don't think it can soothe my heart." How could a well-informed reborn person like Li Xiaobai still be moved by Chicken Soup for the Soul.
"The word chicken soup for the soul you used is quite good, and I guess if I say this to my students, it will definitely lead a wave." Zhang Li said naughtily.
"Let me tell you my story, maybe after listening to my story, you will feel that there is no big deal in this world, and there is no hurdle that cannot be overcome, and what you think is that the world is falling apart, and what is very difficult is the difficulties and things, probably compared to me, all of them are so insignificant. Of course, I'm not presumptuous, thinking that I'm probably the bitter little cabbage in the world. โ
Li Xiaobai actually guessed Zhang Li's past, but Li Yubang didn't say it, the honest man actually had a very tight mouth, and he didn't reveal Zhang Li's past in half a word, Li Xiaobai also guessed sporadically from his grandparents and some conversations that Zhang Li is also a person with a story.
"Good! It's like we're each other's trash cans, maybe I've been your listener and listened to your story, but I think you're even more miserable, and my things are insignificant. Li Xiaobai was naughty.
"I was in the whole city at that time, there was a wave of educated youth movement to go to the countryside, and our family, if it really follows the requirements, of course my eldest brother is the most suitable candidate, but at that time, the overall physical conditions of the eldest brother did not allow him to go to the countryside, and finally I took the initiative to stand up and secretly took the family's household registration book to register.
After returning home that day, I was almost hung up and beaten to death by my parents, probably you don't know how I felt at that time, I thought I had become a hero, who knew that the way to go home to greet the hero was so hanging. My parents were also distressed to death, and after the fight, my mother cried sadly while rubbing the medicine on me that night.
Soon the notice came down, and at that time there was no way to change any facts, and I followed the team of educated youths and began to live in the mountains and countryside. More than ten years ago, when we came to the countryside, there were no such conditions at that time, and we had to work in the fields like the villagers during the day, and at night we would go back to our huts where we lived, and we would cook together. There is no one here to take care of you anymore, and no one to take care of you.
In the hardships of year after year, the educated youths of the educated youth point can only rely on each other for warmth, and it has become a rule for the educated youth to fall in love with each other, and of course, there are also people who marry local farmers. But more of them are all about each other's acquaintances and young people combined. It was at that time that I incorrigibly fell in love with a young intellectual, thinking that the mountain alliance and sea oath I loved, the sky fell apart, and when I was just pregnant, I could return to the city policy.
Because my father was rehabilitated early, and I am a child, I will enjoy some special preferential treatment, and the first batch of places to return to the city will have my name on it, but there is no his name. At that time, I foolishly thought that anyway, the family had already written a letter, and according to the conditions of our family, it was almost a sure thing for me to return to the city, and even if I did not return to the city this time, my name would definitely be on the list next time.
So I took the initiative to give up my place, my beloved, and he told me in front of me with tears in his eyes that he would never betray me in this life, and he went back to the city to wait for me. Wait for me and our children.
As a result, he walked for half a year, from one letter a week at the beginning, to one letter a month three months later, and at the end, there was no news at all. I thought something had happened to him, so I was so anxious that I sent someone to inquire, only to find out that he actually married a female intellectual, who went back to the city together.
Just because the father of the female intellectual, a small cadre, can help him arrange a job and assign him a house, how ridiculous, just because of this small interest. Then I gave birth to my baby and was bleeding and couldn't have children again, and because I was in a coma when I gave birth, my baby was also given to someone else by my friends.
At that time, I was really torn apart, and I felt that I wanted to die.
I lost my child, lost my right to be a mother, and lost my man, and I felt that there was probably no one more unfortunate in this world than me. But if you look at me now, if you ask me now, do you still want to die? I will answer without hesitation, life is so beautiful, there are people I love and people who love me by my side, thank you for letting go of me at that time.
I thought I would never love anyone again, but I was still in love with your father, and most people may say that he was boring, but in my mind, he is the one who can give me a sense of security, can completely ignore my past, take care of me, and cherish me.
What I want to tell you is that no matter what kind of ups and downs it is, it is a new experience that life gives you, let go of your heart, tell yourself that what you are doing at this moment is doing what you want, and you have no regrets in this life, even if the final result is not satisfactory.
But it's also an inevitable experience in your life. Zhang Li will not completely deny everything because of her failure, she is still encouraging Li Xiaobai to pursue her own happiness.