Chapter 127: Depressed in the Heart
The town of Layue is cold everywhere, and there is no trace of warmth. The cold wind was blowing, hitting the face, and it hurt like a knife. Sun Xiaohong walked down the street in silence, and the noise around her was wantonly noisy in the materialistic wind and snow. They walked aimlessly, the world in front of them seemed to be an impenetrable time tunnel, in silence, out of one darkness, and into another darkness, always tossing and turning under their feet.
"It's too cold on the street, so let's stop wandering around. Look, there's a mall in front, let's go in and have a look, if there's anything we need, let's buy some, right? Sun Xiaohong turned her head to look at Ren Haoxuan, and turned her head back. There seemed to be an incomprehensible sadness in her eyes. She has always been a very confident person, but when it comes to marriage, she is confused. She didn't know if the man in front of her was worth clinging to for life. At the beginning, she was optimistic about one person, as long as one person was good to her, it was enough.
But now, Ren Haoxuan is nothing more than that, in his family, there are a lot of people who point fingers at her, and even make her the master of the house, he doesn't even dare to refute it. When it comes to the issue of spending money, all the plants and trees are soldiers, all of them are sharp and sharp, and water and fire are incompatible. Even his third sister's two-year-old niece pointed at Ren Haoxuan and said bad things about her in person. Sun Xiaohong's blank gaze passed through the streets, and her heart was like a falling frost flower on a tree branch, without temperature.
"I'd better save it for you! I'd better buy what I want, so as not to be talked about by those people in your family! She shook her head and walked silently, her heart, like a broken branch in the sky, whipped by the cold wind, and had no direction.
"Look, I brought all the money to you, and you don't want it, what do you want me to do? It's so cold, let's find a place to get warmer! Ren Haoxuan stopped in front of her, seeing that her face was pale, and he didn't want her to go any further.
"I didn't want you to do anything. If you don't want to get married, no one will stop you, and I don't care about the people in your family, so I wonder, why do they always have trouble with me? No matter how Ren Haoxuan explained to her, she couldn't trust him. At this point, she felt that she had no way back, in order to take care of the faces of many people, she had already opened up, even if there was a mountain of swords and a sea of fire in front of her, she had to jump in with her eyes closed.
On the street, Sun Xiaohong was discouraged. The cold wind lifted her bangs, she shivered with cold, bit her lip, clenched her fists tightly, and walked on two stiff legs, feeling very helpless, in this icy and snowy street, as if her beating heart was about to be frozen by the cold.
There is still a week to go, and she is going to marry Ren Haoxuan. The greatest sorrow of a woman is that she is mired in the quagmire but cannot introspect. There was no wedding room, no wedding dress, no jewelry, no bride price, and she couldn't even see a happy face. However, she didn't know what madness she fell into, she knew that their whole family didn't like her, and she didn't know where she got her courage and confidence, she still made up her mind to marry him.
Because, she has always believed that she is not wrong, in her heart, he is the different person she is looking for, even though he still has nothing, she still likes him as always. Other than that, she has no heart for anyone.
Sun Xiaohong walked forward with restraint, and she inserted her two cold hands into her sleeves. The cold wind blew in her face, and she couldn't help but shiver. There was no savior in this world, and she didn't want her pale soul to fall little by little, desperately trying to save herself. She can not trust anyone, but she can't deny herself either.
When she met Ren Haoxuan's eyes again, her sharp gaze secretly warned herself: Since she has the courage to marry him, she must have the courage to go down with him. Regarding this marriage that was not recognized by his parents, although Ren Haoxuan did not react much on the surface, he did not obviously stand in the same team with his parents. From this point alone, Sun Xiaohong thinks that he is not bad to himself.
In her imagination, she and Ren Haoxuan have been together for a year, and in such a long time, the relationship between them has always been very good. The mother-in-law's insistence completely annoyed Xiaohong's mother. She originally disagreed with Ren Haoxuan and Sun Xiaohong being together, and for this reason, it was easy to break up the two of them, but Xiaohong didn't let go, Ren Haoxuan still chased after her, everyone was so deadlocked, and no one was willing to make concessions.
It's ridiculous to think about it now. In the face of the cruel reality, she suddenly felt that all her efforts had become worthless, and Sun Xiaohong couldn't help but feel sad for her blind choice. As she walked, she suddenly felt a tightness in her chest, so she slowly squatted down holding her chest and coughed vigorously a few times.
"Xiaohong, what's wrong with you? Is it freezing and cold, or let's go to the hospital to have a look! Ren Haoxuan saw that her face was flushed, and hurriedly walked over and touched her forehead, and said anxiously.
"It's okay, I can hold it! I don't want to buy anything, you better go back by yourself! Sun Xiaohong said, pulled out his hand, and slowly stood up. There was a hint of sarcasm at the corner of her mouth, how could a person who lived on the surface be responsible for his family. Thinking of this, Sun Xiaohong's face darkened again. Her weak body began to shiver again in the cold wind.
"Xiaohong, you can't torture yourself like this, the more you are like this, the more uncomfortable I feel. Yes, I don't have anything now, but that doesn't mean we won't have anything in the future. People don't believe me, I don't care, you have to believe me! ”
"Don't say it, it's a joke to say the same thing too much. You'd better not say anything, I've heard enough of some unreliable lies, and now my ears are calloused, and I don't want to listen to them anymore. Sun Xiaohong sneered again and said that the man in front of her did not have the slightest flaw in her countless fantasies, and now it seems that it is nothing more than that. The sweet words in his mouth are nothing but a kind of trampling and punishment for his willingness. Her heart was originally soft, but in the straight polishing, it became so stiff.
No wonder some people say that the change of a woman depends on what kind of man she finds. Sun Xiaohong felt that she was not so unkind. Who is she responsible for her current transformation?
Sun Xiaohong frowned, and her confused eyes revealed an expression of unknown meaning. She is confused, she is wronged, she is heartbroken, in Ren Haoxuan's eyes, what kind of woman should she be? In the eyes of their family?
Sun Xiaohong didn't even dare to think about these. I don't think about it, I'm always afraid of wolves and tigers, so I don't have to do anything. After a moment of silence, Sun Xiaohong's brain finally opened up, and in the days to come, she would have nothing to face. It is said that shrews are not easy to deal with, and Ren Haoxuan, no matter how powerful his parents are, can still open their mouths and swallow themselves. Thinking of this, Sun Xiaohong suddenly raised her head and said to Ren Haoxuan: "Anyway, you have bought almost all the things you got married." Why don't we go to the eldest sister's house, she is about to give birth, and I want to go to her to see her. The other day, I asked her to knit me a sweater, and I don't know how she is knitting now! ”
"Okay, let's hurry up and go!" Ren Haoxuan couldn't resist her, so he had to obey, and the two of them took a two-stop bus, and after turning a few right-angle corners in the street, they found Xiaohong's eldest sister's house.
My sister's home is near the vegetable market, which is convenient to take a car and buy vegetables. My sister used to work in a shopping mall, but after the workers were laid off, she learned to sew, and now she does sewing at home. Her craftsmanship is very good, there is endless manual work every day, she collects high-end fabrics, every day from morning to evening, although it is very hard, but there is never a shortage of money to spend.
Now that my sister is pregnant and about to give birth, she has to stay at home and take care of her body. My sister is very good at living a good life, and she is very clean, she keeps the house in order, and all the glass places in the house are spotless. Today, Sun Xiaohong came to her sister's house for the first time, and she was very upset to see her sister with a big belly and busy cooking for herself.
After my sister cooked, my brother-in-law also got off work. Several people sit down to eat together. My sister looked at Ren Haoxuan and said to Xiaohong: "Xiaohong, I heard our mother say that you are going to get married next week, have you bought all the things you should buy?" If you haven't bought the furniture or anything, your brother-in-law has time tomorrow, why don't you let him help you? ”
"Don't bother my brother-in-law, I bought it the day before yesterday. Except for a few clothes on his body, there is nothing to buy down, and the money ......" Sun Xiaohong didn't wait to finish speaking, Ren Haoxuan immediately took over the conversation: "I have almost bought everything I should buy, and there is nothing left to buy!" He may be afraid that Sun Xiaohong will leak his mouth. If the eldest sister knew that the money they borrowed for their marriage, the brother-in-law would definitely look down on him. Sun Xiaohong stared at him and finished speaking, her nose was about to be crooked by him.
Hearing him say this now, Sun Xiaohong's heart suddenly had a lingering annoyance, which made her head gradually get bigger. It's really a shame to die, he turned out to be such a person, I should have seen it a long time ago. It's still too stupid, to use a disagreeable sentence to describe it, that is, I bought a thief ticket and got on the thief ship. This time it's good, the ugliness is lost, the face is gone, and if she marries such a person again, she can't even think about what tomorrow will look like.
But I have to get married, I have to buy things, but my heart has been clogged. Sun Xiaohong has been asking herself: Where is my future?