I used to think that when we met, it would be forever, and no wind and rain would let each other separate.

I used to think that life was long, and the years were endless, and it was not long enough.

So I thought that all serious likes could be accepted, and now it is better for you to hold his hand.

Jiang Che is sick, and he is not lightly ill. In addition to being neurotic, too lazy to speak, immersed in the country of his own fantasy, and even thinking that he has superpowers. There is also a strong emotional memory and the pen power of sad spring and autumn, which can always record those feelings that are extremely painful in life.

During his private years, he borrowed a lot of fantasy books from the library to pass the boring free time. Every day, I tell a moving story in my head, but the difference is that there was no love at that time. Once, when the teacher asked the teacher to write an essay on the topic of "If I Were a ......", Jiang Che wrote an essay If I Were a Cloud, and got the highest score in the class.

"If I were a cloud, I would block out the sun of the Sahara Desert for a day and give a little shade to the region."

"If I were a cloud, I would be stingy and tear off a corner to let people know that the marshmallow is not me, and I am not sweet."

After he stood on the podium and finished reading his composition, the teacher asked him why he only covered the sun for one day and not rain, why he just tore off a corner, and how he knew that the clouds were not sweet.

A childish and cool voice sounded in the classroom, and Jiang Che's children spoke very seriously and seriously.

"Because I'm just a cloud, a white cloud, and it can't rain. Because I'm a cloud, I know I'm not sweet. I'm not a magic pen Ma Liang, I can't fulfill everyone's wishes, I'm just a cloud, but I'm not a real cloud. ”

"But I'm Ma Liang!"

When the words fell, accompanied by loud laughter, the little girl who stood up wore two pigtails and deflated her mouth, and the pear blossoms brought rain.

"I know!" Jiang Che scratched the back of his head, looked at the little girl, a little puzzled, and continued to say, "I didn't say that you weren't. "He knows her, Su Xiaoying, this essay is only two points less than him.

"Then why do you say that clouds are not sweet." Su Xiaoying wrote in her composition, "If I were Ma Liang, I would paint Yiyi willows, the water town in the south of the Yangtze River." If I were Ma Liang, I would use Caiyun as a painting to draw a honey family and give it to the world. ”

So, a disagreement arose, and she stood up.

In the end, the teacher stopped this little turmoil and asked Su Xiaoying to go up and read her composition. Jiang Che knew why Su Xiaoying didn't agree with his words, because in the world created by Su Xiaoying, he was a supervillain, pressing everyone and having no marshmallows to eat.

Perhaps these students sitting below and Jiang Che, who said yes and no, still don't understand the meaning of the words. I'm just a cloud, and from a physical point of view, there is no rain in either white or black, let alone just a patch.

He didn't think of rain if there was a drought, but to shield himself with his body, which was also limited to one day. What is incomplete is beautiful, and only what is hard-won can be cherished. Because I'm not really a cloud, I'm stingy and not fearless.

If you change to someone else, this chaotic mood will crush a person, and you may get depression, but Jiang Che is different. He is used to solitude and has learned to find pleasure in solitude.

But because he is Jiang Che, every time he opens his heart, it must be painful. As he said, the heart of the Yellow River, can you? What this sentence wants to express is not that the heart of the Yellow River will not die, but that after seeing the Yellow River, will this heart still exist?

……

In the dim environment, the four of them looked at each other, and only Chen Pan took his gaze back. She looked around, and there was nothing she could excuse her to leave, so she had to stand where she was, but she thought, it would be fine without light.

She never expects anything that life can bring her, she just goes with the flow, and the philosophy she believes in is to accept it calmly. Maybe when she was a child, she had the luxury of both sugar gourd and barbecue, and she would think about how good it would be if she had a sugar gourd in her left hand and a kebab in her right hand. But when she grew up, she saw too many unsatisfactory things, her mother worked day and night and still worried about life, although you never said anything bad about anyone among classmates, you won't lose your temper with anyone, and you have kindness to everyone, but there are always people who will chew their tongues behind their backs.

She didn't dare to expect anything more.

Fortunately, she is not without people around her who have good intentions towards her. He will speak for others when they say bad things about him behind his back, and he will care about her being late for learning to solve family matters and thinking about solving them. Although he doesn't talk much.

You've seen him dozing off in class, frowning childishly when he's been disturbed, and you've seen him sad and silent because he likes a girl.

You know you like him, but you can't replace her.

Luo Yuqing looked at Jiang Che, and her flustered heart gradually calmed down, if they all lied, if they all lied, if they all had people who cared about them, would they still be more so-called true or false?

It's like all the pieces that are on the black and white space, neither winning nor losing, neither advancing nor retreating.

So the words that came to his mouth were swallowed back into his stomach, and when he spit it out, it became "What a coincidence, you are here too." ”

"Well, that's a coincidence." Jiang Che's clenched fist loosened and did not speak again. There is no light in the vast twilight, so my original sorrow cannot be reflected in your eyes!

Luo Yuqing opened her mouth, but was finally silent.

"You're Jiang Che!" Cheng Jinyan looked at the awkward atmosphere and wanted to adjust it.

"Hmm."

"I've heard her mention you many times, and now I finally see you, and I haven't thanked you for helping me last time, wait for me to have a treat, just in time to get together." He stretched out his hand, and his handsome face was easy to impress.

"It's just a trivial matter, you don't have to eat, but my companion is abrupt today, count it as mine." Ignoring the hand stretched out in front of him, Jiang Che glanced at Luo Yuqing, "I'll leave first, don't be too late." ”

"Mmmm, Jiang Che, let's go first!" Chen Pan nodded quickly as if the chick pecked rice, the aura of these three people was too strong, she couldn't stand it when she was caught in the middle.

Cheng Jinyan smiled and watched Jiang Che walk away, not feeling embarrassed at all, and put his hand in his pocket. Turned his head to look at Luo Yuqing, "I still have a temper!" Remember that I lied to him. ”

"Then don't lie to him."

Can't tell you what it feels like, uneasy? It's like ruthlessly breaking your favorite doll. I could only watch, and I couldn't put it back together, only fragmented faces remained, but I couldn't get through it.

I've really screamed too.