Pushing open my door, a familiar breath rushed to my face, my brother and sister-in-law are really well-intentioned, everything in my room is still the same, I know they want to tell me in this way, they have never forgotten me, but all this familiar in front of me can only add to my sadness at this moment.

The bed is covered with my favorite purple sheets, and the soft fabric exudes a faint scent of laundry detergent. My tiredness was washed away by the joy of returning home, and I carefully examined every corner of my room: the plush toys on the bedside table had been washed by my sister-in-law, and they seemed to welcome me with a smile; The photo albums in the drawers are also neatly arranged there. My brother brought in all my luggage, and after a hurried wash, I heard my sister-in-law eating openly.

The breakfast was plentiful, and Coco went downstairs to buy a few soy milk sticks that I liked. Actually, I wasn't very hungry, but my sister-in-law was so moved that I forced myself to drink a big bowl of soy milk.

My brother took a piece of egg pancake and put it in my bowl and said, "Your favorite pancake, your sister-in-law made it especially for you." ”

"You say you're true." Sister-in-law complained: "Your brother said last night that you were on a two-day plane, why didn't you say anything when you arrived early, we can pick you up." ”

I smiled heartily and said as I ate the pancakes, "I've changed this momentarily, and I don't want to bother you if I say anything else." ”

My sister-in-law smiled and scolded me, so she went to the kitchen and brought a bowl of egg custard, and fed it to Xiaoding one bite at a time. Xiao Ding may be really hungry, and the appearance of eating in a big gulp is really cute.

"My brother is so pretty." Coco looked at Xiao Ding with a smile, he is now eight years old, and he looks very delicate.

As soon as I looked up, I happened to meet my brother's eyes, his eyes were very complicated, and there was an indescribable sigh in them, but he quickly asked me with a smile: "You just came back, what are your plans?" ”

"I want to take a break and then walk around." I replied, "And my former friends, I'm going to meet them tomorrow." ”

The elder brother asked again, "Do you still want to go back?" ”

My hand on my chopsticks paused slightly, "Yes." ”

The elder brother stopped talking, lowered his head and ate silently. The dinner table was full of Lin Xiaoding's voice, and everyone's attention was all attracted to it. I haven't told my brother about Lin Xiaoding, and Lin Xiaoding was already born when my brother knew. On the way back, I was worried that my brother would suddenly ask me something, but fortunately they seemed to have discussed it and didn't say a word about what happened back then.

I simply became a deaf and dumb ostrich and buried all my secrets and thoughts in the earth.

In the afternoon, my brother and my family went to the cemetery where my father was. Everything in the cemetery is still the same, but there are more and more tombstones. I looked at the group of stone monuments, no matter how beautiful it was in life, it was only a palm-sized place after death.

I offered a bouquet of white chrysanthemums, poured a glass of my father's favorite liquor, and stood in front of the dark and cold stone monument, my tears flowed for a long time. More than ten years have passed, and my father's appearance has always been in my heart, and when he left, I was still a simple child as old as Coco, but today, after many years, I am scarred.

The smile on his picture is still so gentle, the last time I came here to see my father, it was before I left the country. I don't know if my father, who has been buried underground for more than ten years, also knows what happened to his beloved daughter, but the dead are gone, and what he knows or doesn't know is long gone.

The dust settled, the ending was scattered in the passing years, I searched for it, but I could no longer find the trace of the beginning, wasted the years, played a lonely piece of music solo, and paid tribute to the fallen past.

"Dad, Xing'er has disappointed you." Tears wet my cheeks, and I held Lin Xiaoding's hand tightly, as if only then could I feel a sense of security. But no matter how much I disguised myself, I still couldn't avoid my shoulders shaking violently.

Xiao Ding watched all this blankly, his clear eyes full of incomprehension. Every time I see his eyebrows and feel his heartbeat, I will be in a trance that everything has not gone far.

My sister-in-law stepped forward and gently hugged me, and whispered comfort in my ear, "Dad is watching from the sky, you have to be strong." ”

Coco also stepped forward to hold my hand, and said coquettishly: "Coco will also accompany my aunt and little brother." ”

I watched them laugh and laugh hard. But my tears never stopped, and I wanted to vomit all the bitterness in my stomach, but the words felt meaningless. My relatives have always understood me and tolerated me like this, four years ago, and still are, so what else do I want?