That memory is still very clear to me. That was a big slap by the devil Xie Chen, and it was also the first time we had an argument. The reason is very simple and absurd, that is, that day I accompanied Su Haoyang to visit an art exhibition, and I happened to meet him in the café next door to talk to someone. Actually, I didn't see him, but I was concentrating on holding hands with Haoyang for a walk. It was only after I went home that I learned from Xiaode's mouth that because I looked like a nymphomaniac that day, Xie Chen slapped the table and left halfway, and a big deal collapsed.

I have affected his wealth, and of course he will punish me. How did you quarrel that night, how he sarcastically mocked me, how did I talk back...... I don't remember exactly. But the only thing that was clear was that his slap hit me with a gold star in the eye. That slap was epoch-making for me. Because I grew up so much, my parents, and my brother regarded me as a treasure, and they didn't even say a word that I didn't like to hear. Naturally, my fragile heart could not stand it, and the thought of my desolate situation was hopeless. I finally resolutely picked up a whole bottle of white pills and drank it without hesitation.

I didn't think much about it at the time, I simply thought: I'm dead! If I die, I can leave him; If I die, the police will arrest him; If I die, there will be one less scum in society!

But my ambition never came to fruition. It didn't take long for me to wake up to the pungent smell of disinfectant. When I opened my eyes, it turned out that the king of Yama did not accept me in the end, but the angel in white did not dislike me and took me back. Maybe my will to die is too strong, and it is not easy to save a life, the angel in white complained very unfriendly, "How can you still take sleeping pills as vitamins when you are such a big person?" ”

She said a few more words before leaving. I was confused by what she said, and it took me a while to react, it must have been Xie Chen's despicable villain who was weak-hearted to hide the fact that I wanted to commit suicide. But I still wondered: That's a whole bottle! Even if I take vitamins, I don't eat that much, right?

Later, I heard Aunt Liu complain in a rambling manner: "I kept calling you 'Classmate Lin' and 'Classmate Lin', but no one agreed, and I didn't know until I pushed the door...... Damn! Scared the hell out of me! She kept making exaggerated expressions, "At that time, Mr. Xie drank and fell asleep, but the car was driven out by Lao Zhao to refuel." Mr. Xie ran several streets behind you before he got a taxi! The doctor said it would be 10 minutes late and it would be hopeless......"

She nagged for a long time, constantly describing how scary I was at the time, and described herself as a hero who saved the universe, and finally ended her gushing statement with an understatement of "Mr. Xie is so good to you". At that time, I suddenly didn't know what to say, and was silent for a long time.

I stayed in the hospital for several days to observe, and Li Shuangshuang didn't know where to hear the news, so he rushed to see me non-stop. I was quite surprised by her arrival, and I always thought that Xie Chen was doing things without leakage. Li Shuangshuang kept asking me what happened, so I borrowed flowers to offer Buddha and perfunctory the words of the angel in white. Fortunately, Li Shuangshuang was obsessed with QQ chat at the time, and his words to me were left ear in and right ear out. I asked her to keep it a secret, and she agreed. So Haoyang never knew about that thing.

Xie Chen finally appeared four days later. I don't know what he's been doing these days, but I'm surprised he didn't come to the hospital to see my jokes. But when I saw him, it really scared me. He didn't seem to have slept for days, his beard hadn't been shaved, and he wasn't at all the same as he was dressed on a regular day. I glared at him angrily, ignoring him. He sat next to me for a moment before he said, "You want to leave me with your death?" Want to use death to disturb my conscience? ”

I dragged my weak body and scolded him in the most vicious, cruel, and filthy words in the hospital in this solemn and sacred public place.

People who came and went immediately gathered in front of the door of the ward, looking curiously at everything inside. At that time, I didn't want to mention how happy I was, and I was as proud as if the eight-year war of resistance had finally won. He had a rare good temper that day, and he didn't lose his temper at my insults, but just left in silence.

At this time, I was sitting in a dark room, and I suddenly became energetic when I thought of the incident that I had once raised my eyebrows. Someone knocked on the door outside, and I ignored it. Then I heard the sound of the keyhole twisting, and it was Sister Xu who came in with a spare key. She turned on the chandelier and the room lit up.

I frowned, and then I saw her holding a bottle of disinfectant in one hand and a white bandage in the other. I don't know why she's so well-informed, maybe it's the movement just now that has disturbed everyone. She must have been frightened by my appearance, and came over and was surprised, "Oh my God, it's so serious! ”

Actually, I am usually very polite to her, but at this moment, I am very disgusted with the people related to Xie Chen. So when she touched my hand, I unceremoniously pushed her away like a scorpion, "Get out of here!" Don't touch me! ”

Sister Xu is older, and she doesn't mind my ignorance. However, she was a little displeased after all, and said in a low voice: "I can't say that I am a good person, but I think that at least I am good to you." ”

I was speechless for a moment. Even if she was right, I didn't want to admit it, I just looked away and didn't speak, but I didn't refuse her to bandage my wounds. Her technique is very skillful, and she cleans up the blood stains in three strokes and divides them by two, and the tape is also neatly wrapped. She replied generously to my doubts, "I used to go to nursing school, so I still know a little bit about these basic wound treatments. ”

I bowed my head and whispered, "Thank you." ”

She began to clean up the mess and casually said, "I know you hate us." In fact, to be honest, I am also very confused about Xie Chen's attitude towards you. I've worked with him for so many years, and I've never seen him ...... a woman like this," Sister Xu paused, as if she wanted to explain what she didn't even understand just now, "In the past, his water was very deep, although he was young, he was very good at hiding himself, and he would not reveal his joys, sorrows, and sorrows at all. ”

I listened quietly, waiting for her next words. She sighed for a long time, and suddenly pulled the topic away, "Do you remember the 'Golden Armor Dragon' I told you?" ”

I pricked up my ears all at once, "Yes." ”

"Jin Jialong and Xie Chen are in the same camp, although he is tepid with us on the surface, in fact, he always tries to find fault behind the scenes. There are too many despicable things to do, Xie Chen doesn't have the same knowledge as him, but he never takes him seriously. But that night, for you, Xie Chen actually begged him! ”

"So what? I don't understand. "I really don't understand her words, but I hate this kind of image beautification in my heart. Just like Aunt Liu often reads his goodness, I don't like to listen to it.

"You don't understand?" Sister Xu was in a hurry, and her tone involuntarily increased by several decibels, "Then you should understand that Jin Jialong never treats women as human beings, right?" If you had fallen into his hands that day, you would have been in a much worse situation than you are now! ”

Her words were like warnings, and I didn't know what to say, and looked at her blankly. She sighed, and suddenly stared at me very strangely, "Lin Xing, you are a good girl, but I don't like you sometimes, sister." ”

I'm still silent. She didn't wait for me to answer, she just left with a sentence, "Because of you, make him look like a madman." Although I don't know if anything has happened between you that I don't know, but I have a hunch that because of you, he has changed like this, and the result is ...... It won't be too good. ”

After Sister Xu finished speaking, she left, leaving me facing the empty room, and suddenly tired from my heart. I kept thinking about Sister Xu's inexplicable words, and then I thought about all kinds of things since I met Xie Chen, trying to find some clues and see if there was something that I didn't know.

But I failed. The memory of him is always cold, and the source of light and warmth in my life is the boy named Su Haoyang.