"Reflections on Conflict" / 2016-03-20

It's not good for me to quarrel with you fiercely the other day,

You're right,

What I said was wrong,

said that he wanted to let the girl order,

As a result, I became more and more fierce,

The one who scolded you was the trumpet I opened,

I used to be a little prejudiced against you,

You're so cheerful, I'm so introverted,

You are so bold, I am so quiet,

But that was because my theories at that time couldn't keep up with the reality.

I can't explain clearly why I'm with you,

I can't explain clearly why I don't spend time with people who are more similar to me,

In life, it is difficult to find a confidant,

There can only be people who are similar in one or some ways,

There can be no one who is exactly the same,

Even if you're not the most similar person to me in the world,

I don't regret it,

Because

As long as people can communicate with each other, they will not feel lonely.

If you go to a place where you are talking about a certain thing, you can talk about your feelings and experiences.

Now I don't really have any problem with you.

Even in the worst-case scenario,

You first stepped into my world out of curiosity,

You were just a little kind to me at first out of concern for your friends.

And then I was stupid and misunderstood you,

Then I was kind to you, and you couldn't bear to refuse for fear of hurting me,

And then after getting to know me a little bit, I began to be prejudiced.

I'm not satisfied with me and it's hard to refuse,

In the end, I felt that I was very annoyed and couldn't go down,

Just tell me to be friends,

Even in the worst-case scenario,

I won't regret it either,

You were the first to care about me,

That's enough,

Before confirming that you have attained happiness,

I won't leave,

As long as you don't dislike me, don't abandon me,

My heart will be with you now and in the future.

I'm afraid you're really playing with me,

I'm angry that you love me and don't think about my feelings,

You are so easy to be nice to me, to give happiness,

and easily forsake me, and tear my heart to pieces,

Along the way,

How sad and desperate I was,

You don't consider my feelings,

said that it was out of helplessness and did not want to be as far as I could understand,

But that aggressive, menacing look,

And your flawed "theory of feeling",

You should educate it well.

will say so many angry words,

will fight with you so fiercely,

But I think there's a little bit of truth to what I'm saying.

Just by feeling, the eyes of men are all beautiful women, and the eyes of women are handsome guys, what is the point,

I can't let myself choose by feeling,

That only applies if it is successful the first time,

That's why I say yours is lucky,

You experience relatively little, you don't have that feeling numb, that's why I mention the words ignorance and pathos, and the more you know, the easier it is to realize that you know less.

I'll tell you all my inner thoughts, and you rely on your "feeling theory" to judge whether I like you or not.

There is another reason why I don't admit your theory, if one day your feelings about me change, then my life will be over again.

My current basis is not based on feelings, not on whether I like it or not, but on fate, choosing one, and then dying.

Because I don't know what I'm going to do otherwise.

A friend said,

When you suspect that a girl is playing with you, she will say why am I playing with you and not playing with others.

There's really no way to reply to this sentence.

Although I confirm by certain things that you are very good to me,

But when a friend mentioned some possible causes of the phenomenon,

I'll still have some doubts,

My perspective is very narrow, and I can't know how you really feel by speculation, and there are certain things I can't explain exactly what is going on.

For example, why do you say that I am just your classmate,

For example, the sentence she mentioned, is she really willing to listen to you, or does she not want to have further communication with you,

At first I was skeptical, too.

afterward

I think I've made a lot of calls before and you're willing to answer,

You haven't blocked my QQ messages and dynamics,

So I came to the conclusion that you should really be willing to listen to me.

I'm not very good at talking,

I can only write something to read to you before going to bed,

I'm worried you won't receive it,

I hope you can go back a little after seeing it,

Reassures me,

Even if it's an expression,

One word is fine.