Chapter 085: Reasons for Choice

On May 12, 2011, in the past few days, Chiba sent a lot of text messages to Hatsuyuki, but Hatsuyuki didn't reply, and he didn't answer her calls, he was confused, and he didn't know why.

When helpless, he made a phone call and asked his pen pal, Xinxiang, who told him that it might take time......

On May 13, 2011, Chiba came to the slope next to Yuhua Pond. One of the most famous attractions in Amagi University is Amagi University, located next to the athletic field and computer building, where many lovers frolicked. Hatsuyuki's abandonment and ignorance made Chiba's heart miserable, and he lay on the slope by the pond and rolled in various ways, but his heart was still like a knife. Then a terrible voice rang out.

Black Chiba: After death, the tangible substance/body is decomposed and combined to become nutrients for other living beings, the intangible immaterial is also decomposed and combined, and the intangible non-material such as spirit, consciousness, memory, emotion and thought is decomposed into the origin of the soul. The origin of the soul is the most basic unit of the material, immortal, independent, indivisible, incorporeal/immaterial. Death doesn't seem to be a matter at all, ending life can start the next life. If you happen to become a stone in the next life, then you can "die" again in the grinding machine, and there will always be a time when you are lucky. If it's painful, jump and it will be over, and you will not only be saved, but also reborn. Long pain is better than short pain, a moment of pain will bring you almost eternal happiness! Really, an irresistible temptation!

Kuro Chiba: If you still don't want to end this unfortunate and painful life, or you are afraid of death, you are afraid of losing everything, and you are afraid that you will not see the future development of the world, then you can think of it this way, before you were born, countless sunrises and sunsets, the past world changes, you have missed them, and you have not seen them with your own eyes, then, the sunrise and sunset in the future are the same as before your death, and the future world changes, just as you can understand the past world changes through history books, you can understand the future through science fiction books.

Kuro Chiba: Ordinary people have about 36,500 days in their lives, and the difference between one more day and one less day is not big, the real difference is your daily psychological state, not only that, just as happiness will shorten the time, pain will also prolong the time. So you're not stupid, you're just like everyone else, you're just pursuing happiness in your heart. Dong Cunrui blew up the bunker and Huang Jiguang pounced on the machine gun because they felt happy in their hearts when they fought for the interests of the people, lived for happiness, and died for happiness! Do you know why many people laugh before they die? That's it.

Kuro Chiba: Not only that, but the great scientists also taught us that time is relative, and that a person's life can be lived not only for a goal, but also for a moment. Even the Buddha said that one leaf and one world have been thousands of years in an instant!

Kuro Chiba: I told you that life doesn't mean to go down in history. Because death means that everything about you is gone, even if your name is left in history, it still has no meaning for you, because the object of meaning no longer exists. Meaning and value are for others, not for yourself. Will a frog work hard to eat and drink enough to contribute more protein to the human body to influence that person and realize the meaning and value of his life?

Kuro Chiba: I also told you that the meaning of life is not to have real water without fragrance, but to make one's heart feel good or comfortable, which means to feel happy. What's more, the world didn't have you before you was born, how could you need your meaning without you, your meaning is only for you. But if you still think that you can only realize your own value by influencing others, then you can look at the point, think like this, you exhale a breath of body in the southern hemisphere, this gas has a certain impact on the atmosphere, and the atmosphere has an impact on a bear in the polar regions, as long as you keep breathing, you are realizing your own value, that is the meaning of your existence, not only that, but after you die, your body can still help you realize your own value, it still has a certain impact on the universe.

Kuro Chiba: If you still want to leave something for future generations, then you can think of it this way, the most important thing in a person's life is the sum total of the "things you have experienced, your thoughts and emotions at that time, etc." at all times, rather than the words, pictures, and videos that record them, the former is for yourself, and the latter is already someone else's business.

Kuro Chiba: You may still not be able to let go of your lovers, family, relatives, and friends in this life, so you can still think like this. First of all, you were forcibly brought into this world, you were not born because of your own will, did your parents fertilize you because they loved you, obviously not, because they needed a child, so there was no abortion. Is it because I love you because I love you after giving birth, obviously not, because being good to you makes them feel happy in their hearts. And some parents abuse their children because they are bad to their children and make them feel happy. People are working hard for their own happiness, your parents won't love you, no one else will love you, you should be like them, work hard for your own happiness! It's enough for you to feel happy yourself. Secondly, if you still want to be a "Holy Mother" and shine the world with your radiance, you can tell yourself that everyone has their own destiny, others can only assist and cannot intervene, and the outcome of major events cannot be changed even by himself, it is determined by his soul. Just do your best, and no one will blame you. After all, stars can't beat black holes, and darkness wraps up light, which is normal.

At this time, Chiba saw an illusion, and Kuro Hatsuyuki was walking towards him,

Hei Chuxue came over and hugged him and said, "Instead of living and missing me forever, why don't you go with me, my desire is the same as yours." ”

Then she took his hand......

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Hint: This is an ACG playbook with multiple branches and endings.

At this time, Chiba has two choices, not to go with Kuro Hatsuyuki? Follow the black first snow?

Choose 1 to follow her to trigger the plot of the sub-line, please skip to "Sub-line • Rain Painting Pond" to read.

Option 2: Don't follow her to trigger the main story. Read on.

Chiba sensed something unusual, and he woke up from his illusion and returned to reality.

Chiba sent a message to Hatsuyuki, and this time she replied to him.

Xia Qianye: I'm leaving, I wish you happiness.

Ao Chuxue: Where are you going?

Xia Qianye: I really can't live anymore, you have to live happily.

Ao Chuxue: What are you doing? Don't be like this, you can't end your life for this little thing, you should live for your parents! Please, don't do this!

Xia Qianye: I don't want to learn anything.

Ao Chuxue: Setbacks are inevitable, but please don't give up your life because of setbacks, I don't want you to do such stupid things because of me! Think about your parents, think about the people who helped you!

Xia Qianye: Well, it's time for a lunch break, remember to take a good rest.

When Chu Xue saw this, she was inexplicably annoyed.

He had to say this in order to get Chu Xue to reply to him, to be honest, he did have such thoughts, but this kind of thought would not dominate, he liked psychology and philosophy, if he really committed suicide, it was only possible when his ideological contradictions could not be resolved, self-denial before and after, or when he was in the "illusion" and saw the illusion.

Xia Qianye: You can't get rid of me.

Xia Qianye: Can you answer the phone now? To be honest, what you want me to bypass for the time being, it's really the most important problem I need to face now, and I'm different from before in many ways, you said "you don't need to listen to me", this time I won't listen to you, just take me as a Q. Is it okay to answer my phone?

Ao Chuxue: I've been very busy studying lately.

Xia Qianye: Think more about yourself, don't do anything for me, don't worry about anything, you know, how strong my heart is! When you encounter a problem, refine it, find out the root cause, face the part you are most afraid of, and take it out to understand.

He stressed that he was strong! Very strong! Very strong! And put forward a set of solutions to the fear. But she knew he was scared when she saw it!

Xia Qianye: Although I am not very good at talking and not very considerate, I will try to be as obedient as possible, what do you want me to do, what do you want me to do, you have to tell me.

Xia Qianye: I have to write an experiment report, I will definitely pass the sixth grade, how can I lose the face of our Yutang High School teachers like the last term, don't hold me back then, it's time to be busy, bye-bye......

It didn't take long for him to talk to Ao Chuxue again, but she didn't pay attention to him.

Xia Qianye: Can you talk? I really don't know what you're thinking? Do you really want to become Jia Baoyu?

Xia Qianye: If you want to be injured, you will be hurt more thoroughly.

didn't get a reply from Ao Chuxue, he was very sad and a little angry! Then he began to compare Lu Junya with her, ready to anger her!

Xia Qianye: I'm afraid of hurting others, and I want to refuse, you're really too naïve, the shooter is really different from the Scorpio, you have to be more desperate than her, if it's yours after all, it will belong to you, hurt it as much as you want, I'm willing to get hurt. Know why I chose you? First of all, you called me to comfort me at that time, which was the most important thing. Second, you've followed my logs and signatures; Also, since you turned off my phone that time, it was quite unexpected, and there is a selfish reason, you are indeed very beautiful, and you will not dislike it so easily if you like someone, because I like bellflowers.

Chiba has analyzed the reasons very thoroughly at this time.,He's such a person.,Love philosophy.、The pursuit of truth, he likes to analyze the root cause of the problem and the situation in many aspects.,It's worth adding that the shutdown didn't surprise him.,But make him feel guilty! I feel very uncomfortable inside! The last sentence uses a metaphor that is easy for people who have seen Inuyasha to understand, Inuyasha first fell in love with Kikyo, and then was framed by Naraku, and they fell in love and killed each other, and after Kikyo died, Inuyasha liked the new Sunset Kagome, but he still remembered Kikyo. Chiba means to express that he knows that Hatsuyuki likes him, and he likes Junya, he knows that he likes this kind of thing, and he doesn't like it if he says he doesn't like it. Although Hatsuyuki never said that he liked him once, and said many times that he didn't like him, he still believed that his feelings should not be wrong.

He continued to message her, and she still didn't reply......

Helplessly, Chiba begged his pen pal Yu Xinxiang and his friend Pu Yudie, who was also a person who came over, to call Ao Chuxue separately, saying that Chiba didn't have anything to do with other girls in the class, and hoped that she could take care of Chiba.

However, after making a phone call, Chu Xue still ignored him.

Yu Xinxiang persuaded him that "long pain is better than short pain". Pu Yudie persuaded him, "It's irretrievable, come out, friend", Chiba didn't know what Ao Chuxue said to them, and their attitudes were so resolute.