With her, and the child, he suddenly felt a sense of fulfillment. When his parents were imprisoned and he himself was expelled from the court, he often felt displaced, like an orphan. He was very envious of the children of the other clans, because they were able to live with their parents, even though they had to bow respectfully when they saw him.

Now that he has a son, who has a loving mother, he can also be by their side. In fact, he didn't know how to deal with children, but when he learned to treat Chen Youcong with Ji Lingyun's attitude towards children, he found that the children quickly became close to him.

He still felt guilty about Jin Ling'er, and he didn't know how to face her desperate and resentful eyes. He simply hid and didn't see her.

During that time, he spent most of his time in the former dynasty dealing with government affairs and rarely returned to the harem. If you go back, it will also be the time to go to the Longevity Palace. If he doesn't go to the Longevity Palace, Ji Lingyun and Chen Youcong won't complain about him. When he went, the mother and son were happy to get along with him. This made his restless heart begin to level off.

But those days didn't last long. One day, Ji Lingyun had lunch and suddenly fell to the ground, bleeding from the corner of her mouth. The young Chen Youcong witnessed all this.

By the time he got the news and rushed to the Longevity Palace, the imperial doctors had already experienced it, and they said that they had been poisoned.

There is no need to check, he also knows who did it. It's not the first time this kind of thing has happened, but never before has it been so blatant. He came to Anxi Palace and asked Jin Ling'er why he wanted to do this. Jin Ling'er was even more sad and indignant than him, accusing him of changing his mind and breaking his original oath. He said that she was the only one in his heart, and going to other concubines was just a pastime. However, now he is moved by Ji Lingyun. So Ji Lingyun should be damned! She deserves to die ten thousand times!

Chen Jianjun punched over, knocked Jin Ling'er to the ground, and kicked her in the thigh. Jin Ling'er lay on the ground and cried loudly, saying okay, you can kill me! Back then, your uncle failed to kill me, and your queen Cui Shi failed to kill me, so I kept this life and let me die in your hands today.

Chen Jianjun's hands and feet were trembling. He remembered the years when he was a child, when he and Jin Ling'er depended on each other, and thought that when he first tasted the love between men and women, the two of them were like glue. Obviously, he once swore an oath, and he once thought that he was the son of heaven of this great fire, and he could protect her from letting her suffer any more grievances, why did it become such a situation today?

Jin Ling'er is still crying, crying for the deceased Empress Dowager Sun, crying for her dead son, saying that she has nothing now, she is alone, and asks them to take her away quickly, she does not want to live in the world and suffer anymore. The crying was terrible.

Chen Jianjun couldn't listen to it anymore, because if he listened to it any longer, he couldn't help but want to do it, and if he didn't do it to Jin Ling'er, he would do it to himself.

He also felt like he was alone, and he also felt like he had nothing. He finally had a little feeling, "I finally have a home", but this feeling was like a mirror, it didn't appear for long, and then disappeared without a trace.

He staggered away from Anxi Palace.

He felt that he was sorry for everyone, sorry for Jin Ling'er, sorry for Ji Lingyun, sorry for Chen Youcong. Was he such a bad husband and father?

He didn't have the courage to face Chen Youcong again. The boy had the same bright eyes as his mother. When Chen Youcong stared at him with such eyes and asked where his mother was, he felt that his inner inside was shattered into rubble, and it was all about the skin that would not fall apart.

The Queen Mother took Chen Youcong to protect her, and began to attack Jin Ling'er.

He also hated Jin Ling'er for being too ruthless, but he couldn't watch Jin Ling'er die. He felt that there were many invisible ties between him and Jin Ling'er, as if some of the muscles were connected. If Jin Ling'er died, he would also die from blood loss.

So he knelt in front of the Queen Mother and tried his best to protect Jin Ling'er. The Queen Mother finally had no choice but to compromise, but she was determined to pull out all of Jin Ling'er's minions.

Jin Ling'er has cronies, he actually knows better than the Queen Mother, so he assisted the Queen Mother to purge these people.

After that, he and Jin Ling'er had a long cold war. Until Jin Ling'er had a serious illness, she begged him to come back during her illness, and repeatedly promised that she would never interfere in the affairs of his harem again, and only stayed with him until he was old. Jin Ling'er pleaded that he was still in his prime, but she was already old. Let her live a few more years of stable life with him before she is completely decrepit. Chen Jianjun was hit hard by these words, and finally went to Anxi Palace to rest again.

They snuggled up to each other at night, as if only from each other could they get the last bit of warmth in this world. But they are wary of each other, and each knows that somewhere inside the other is actually icy.

They started pretending that nothing had happened. At first they pretended not to look like each other, but then they got used to it. Chen Jianjun had more children born, and Jin Ling'er no longer expressed her dissatisfaction with this matter, and even began to care for those children with a pleasant face. At first, Chen Jianjun was still a little worried when she approached the children, but later she said that she was empty under her knees, and she wanted to be close to the children more and more, and she was indeed gentle and loving, and he slowly believed her.

She even wanted to meddle in the prince's marriage. Chen Jianjun knew that she had no children, so she was worried about the fate of the Jin family after a hundred years, and also knew that many people in the court secretly said that she was an adulterous concubine, and there were many criticisms of the Jin family, and she needed more protection, so he acquiesced to her.

Not only did she want to meddle in the prince's marriage, but the queen also took action. This made Chen Jianjun feel some subtle emotions and dissatisfaction in his heart. Could it be that in their eyes, he has gone down the river? Do they no longer want to win his favor, but want to pin their future on the crown prince?

Time is so short. In a blink of an eye, the prince is almost an adult, and he is almost the age of confusion. Concubine Ji Shufei has been dead for eight years.

In the past eight years, he tried not to think about everything about Ji Lingyun, and even had a cold and distant attitude towards the prince. The prince had a serious illness because he missed his biological mother, and after he recovered from his illness, he forgot a lot of past events.

Forgot about the good. He thought to himself that if only he could have a high fever and forget all the past events that caused him pain.

But today, when he opened the scroll and saw those clear eyes that had been lost for a long time, those past events came back to him, and scenes flashed in front of him, giving him no room to dodge at all.

He stood still holding this scroll for a long time, Chen Youcong, who was kneeling on the ground, remained motionless, and Huai'en, who was standing behind him, was also silent, allowing him to immerse himself in the old dreams.

"Get up." He finally came back to his senses and found Chen Youcong still kneeling on the ground.

"How did you make this picture?" Chen Jianjun asked. When he saw the portrait of Begonia, although he thought the character was realistic, because he didn't know Begonia, he just regarded it as a portrait that he had painted hard. And Ji Lingyun has always been buried deep in his memories, and today I saw her lifelike in the painting, and I realized that such a portrait could bring such a big impact to people. He began to understand a little why those people doubted that Zhang Weizhao could summon spirits.

"It is based on the face of the son, and then modified in detail." Chen Youcong replied.

"Oh? Who remembers the face of Concubine Shu so clearly that the painter can make such detailed modifications? Chen Jianjun then asked.

"It's Erchen."

"Is that you?" Chen Jianjun's tone was questioning.

"Father, you know, after a serious illness in his childhood, he doesn't remember many things. But since I started chanting with Zhang Daoyi Qingxiu, I have had several dreams one after another, and I always dreamed of the kindness of the lady concubine in my dreams, which was extremely clear, so I remembered it. ”

"She, what is she like in her dreams?" There was a slight tremor in Chen Jianjun's voice.

"She's always smiling, as if she's not in the way, she's very clean and at ease."

After listening to Chen Youcong's words, Chen Jianjun secretly breathed a sigh of relief. He was very afraid that Ji Lingyun would resent him and hate him.

"Have you ever asked Zhang Weizhao to help you set up a formation and talk to your mother's undead?" Chen Jianjun said this sentence casually.

But Chen Youcong knew that this was actually a temptation, if he followed Chen Jianjun down, he would be ambushed, so he replied respectfully: "Daoyi Zhang doesn't know how to conjure spirits. Instead, she knows a technique called 'family system arrangement' that allows you to talk to the person you are thinking about. This kind of healing technique was founded by a great healer, Hellinger, who was a loyal follower of Lao Tzu. In essence, it is actually the art of celestial and human induction. ”

Of course, Chen Jianjun didn't know who Hellinger was, but if people could make the source clear, and the founder said that there was a name, a surname, and a teacher, it would be able to dispel a lot of guards.

Chen Jianjun nodded, lowered his eyes and picked up the teacup, took a sip and said, "What kind of sense does Concubine Shu have for you?" ”

What Erchen sensed was that his mother felt," Chen Youcong deliberately said here as "mother" rather than "mother", "because of Erchen, she feels that life is very meaningful." Until then, she had always felt like she was alone. She is very grateful that with a child, she is no longer lonely and her life has been extended. She wants me to live well and live with the love she gives. ”

Chen Jianjun's mood was up and down this day, and by this time, he already felt a little tired and numb. But Chen Youcong's words still made his heart stir again. Doesn't she blame her at all? Was she so pleased with the child he had brought her?