On January 1, 2013, Chiba wrote a journal about his life, "Athletic Field, Train, Future".

Athletic Field, Train, Future

In this way, quietly, quietly departed, full of reluctance; And just like that, hurriedly, hastily waving his hand, full of fear. This was the end of the last day of 2012.

Embarking on a familiar or unfamiliar journey, I don't know what is whistling by, I don't know what is coming, I don't know what can be changed in the past, I don't know what I am about to experience, but my heart is always full of eagerness and anticipation. Walking and wandering on the familiar Ertian, looking at the empty track and field, a few classmates, and a bleak scene in the distance, I thought of not only the present, but also the past, so I took silent steps and looked back on those times in the past.

The wide, flat track and field field almost separates the noisy, noisy, and drunken world outside. Here, you can easily talk to your heart without being disturbed. I can feel the hope placed on my relatives and the trust of my childhood friends, and the heavy backpack on my shoulders is like a heavy expectation and responsibility.

I had a phone call with my grandfather today, and as soon as I answered him, he said, "My condition is much better, I've gone home, don't worry." "Last summer, I went to Zhejiang to visit my parents who worked in a brick factory, and met ** whom I had never met, and in order to bring something from the town to them during the market, I worked there as a tutor for the second year of junior high school. Before leaving, my mother wanted to send me, until the ticket gate could not enter the refusal to let go, maybe my mother also knew the pressure and pain I was suffering at the moment, the train just started, my father also came to call, but unfortunately there was no signal on the train, and it was cut off after being connected.

In recent days, I've been reviewing for the end of the term.,I like to stay in the days of teaching.,Last time in order to meet with old classmates.,Reluctantly went to Lianjian to take a trip.,I was going to look for Xiaolong again.,But I always feel that this embarrassed look is still not suitable.,I didn't get through the number that pressed the key.。 This semester, about 10% of the scheduled plan has not been executed, and I have been in 114 for more than a year, accustomed to the days of waking up early every weekend to catch the first bus, getting used to strolling in Ertian under the night sky, and the feeling of letting the night breeze blow on my cheeks on the runway. I didn't wait until the final exam was over, but I wanted to write something, hoping to make a new breakthrough in the new year.

When I was having dinner with my children a few days ago, I talked about my feelings about college. In fact, I have always felt that college is better than high school, high school is a hero based on grades, except for the rest of the quality of grades are not important, and the university respects individuality, although academic performance is still important in college, but it does not mean that other advantages and strengths will be buried, the university is full of colorful activities, and the friends I have made in the days of serving as a teacher in Dudan for more than a year can be described as heart-to-heart, and the memory of high school is now only Xiaolong Xiaoting Weigo Xiaoxiu and those before and after.

In the past, I thought that the ability to exercise in the flying wing was only the ability to organize and express myself, and I did not have the courage to give a speech on a stage of 1,000 people. And now I think,In fact, the most useful ability to exercise in the career of a student cadre is the ability to resist pressure,Those things that were nervous ten days in advance now seem to be nothing,I remember the first semester of the freshman year in the store number rematch Guo Huan said Xiao Xia, you don't tell them if you have such a big thing,Actually, I don't think it's nothing.,No matter how big the accident is, it won't collapse.,Everything will pass.,Think about it after the past.,It's nothing.。 Maybe it's really the experience of so many years that has sharpened the wings, and there is more calmness and strength that I didn't have before.

Looking back on the past two years, I have experienced countless pains, the fall in front of the Shaw Building, the mistake of the class meeting notice, the misunderstanding and contradiction between the classmates, the size of the organization department and the teachers, I remember the days when I only slept three or four hours a week, and I felt that the bitterness I had endured was sweet in retrospect.

It's my junior year, the hardest year in college, and tonight the class president will hold a general meeting, and tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will start to be busy with the final exam. Weibo management, news writing, news delivery, whether I can do everything that Brother Fang and Sister Que have done as a member of the Third Propaganda Committee, I feel that my ability is actually not competent. The entrance examination is about to begin, and the difficulty of the new reform in the school has increased, and it is estimated that the tutoring will be very hard. When I was a tutor, my aunt asked me if I could treat Xiao Yun as carefully as I did my brother, and I said that people who understand and care about each other are almost the same, things are always interconnected and mutually entrusted, and it is a very comforting and happy thing to treat the people around me in my heart. I don't know how long I'll be able to take him, but I'm looking forward to this fate, and I'm looking forward to the students I'm still taking or have taken with me! Auntie said to go all out but allow failure, but how can you allow failure if you go to school, such a big responsibility?

But there are too many things that are not allowed to fail this semester, the sixth-level exam has finally come to this point, the time for the final semester and teacher qualification training is almost together, the difficulty of professional courses has also increased in vain, and there is only one last chance left for the busy revision of the final semester in the university. I saw that Brother Niu's mobile phone began to do the countdown to the graduate school entrance examination, so I knew that my time was running out, and there were too many things that I couldn't fail.

Some things are to blame for myself after all, I don't dare to go back to Yutang High School to face the English teacher Wang Anrong, I don't dare to accept my true self, Yuxiao told me not to be discouraged and not to blame myself too much, growth comes at a price, in fact, I don't even have the strength to be discouraged in the face of these, the rest is numbness, and then a kind of detachment and calmness. What you can't accept if you do it yourself, face what you should face, bear what you should bear, and correct what you should correct. In fact, a person's life is to grow up in right and wrong, and to be strong in stumbling.

That was the last time I stepped on the podium of Liyun, remembering the immaturity and naughtiness when I participated in the summer teaching Sutuo, thinking of the lively and lovely appearance of the children in the 94 class, and now in the second year at the teacher mobilization meeting, listening to Zhou Luya and Fu Lijun talk about some new measures, I feel that the organization department has grown a lot under the leadership of Zhao Shuidan for a year. During last year's summer training, I met a confidant and my colleagues, although I didn't expect to work in a department in the future. What adventures can the new faculty members create this year? Those familiar faces have grown up, and I am facing a new batch of faces, but I have not changed my enthusiasm in the past, and in the last class, I remembered those precious pasts.

Gossip and chatter for half an hour, the mood is calmer, everything outside the field is still so noisy, but the feeling of the heart is different, every time you wander and wander, you will have a kind of realization, completely immersed in the fun of your inner world, full of unknown future will always be wonderful. On the way there, even if you see the old scenery, what you are about to experience will be everything new, even if you re-walk the road you came from, you will not regret it, because the mood is different, the people you meet are different, and everything you experience has changed. As for those who have not yet experienced, in fact, there is no need to feel hesitant, because of the unknown, so they will be so eager to experience, this is life: even if the sense of unknown makes you panic, but it is full of new hope, as long as you do not give up, do not easily compromise on life, then, life is still full of hope, every day can be wonderful!

A bright light, a landscape, and unfamiliar faces. Outside the square, it is my forward strength. For the timid self in the past, and for the self who may still be timid now, say well: Come on. Believe that there is no tomorrow that cannot be reached!

The hourly time of the mobile phone radio is ringing, and in 2013 you are 20 hours late.

Well, I've arrived, what about my happiness and joy? I'm sure you've arrived!