Chapter 230: I Just Want to Live Alive
I don't know why, at this moment, I miss him very much, and I really want to share it with him.
Just as everyone was getting carried away with joy, the door of the private room was pushed open.
I looked back a little drunk, and Xiao Tianyu, accompanied by Tang Hao and two entourages, strode in and appeared in my field of vision.
He was as clear and arrogant as the night, his handsome face was noble and gorgeous, and his finely carved facial features were as dazzling as the North Star in the night sky under the mottled light and shadow around him.
At this moment, he changed his previous coldness, his face was full of smiles, and his eyes inadvertently refracted the doting, throwing him outward.
There was a sudden silence in the private room at first, and then there was a cheer, he smiled charmingly, walked to my side, Jiang Zhuo quickly pulled over the chair, and arranged for the president to sit down.
"It turns out that there is such a grand dinner here, and no one invited me to participate!"
He looked at me and smiled, "Then it's not too late!" ”
"It's not too late! But tonight, our 'head' pays out of his own pocket, what does the president say? ”
"Oh? Your 'head' is so atmospheric, then I don't want to be too stingy! Xiao Tianyu smiled and said to everyone, "Then I will borrow flowers to offer Buddha, in view of the fact that everyone has really worked hard during this time, several of our key projects have also been launched one after another, and I will reward everyone with a big red envelope." ”
Jiang Zhuo was very naughty and hurriedly asked, "President, how much?" We need to know what's actually going on! ”
"Ten thousand each!"
"Wow! Long live the president! ”
There was a frantic shouting in the room.
I looked at him with slightly drunken eyes, "Hah! You're here to smash the field? ”
I whispered.
Even though I said it casually, many people heard it. They both laughed and looked at the two of us.
"Capitalists!" I scolded, "This doesn't give me face!" ”
Xiao Tianyu smiled, and he whispered in my ear, "How come, I want to slip you!" ”
"Why are you here?"
"Arrange for that Peter to dine here with Xiao Wan!" Xiao Tianyu said.
I was a little surprised, "Why are you so approachable, aren't you not accompanied?" ”
"At Xiaowan's strong request, I had to ......," he shrugged.
I knew that he was afraid that Xiaowan would be on the right track and deviated, so he did it himself.
Everyone made trouble for a while, and Xiao Tianyu saw that I was a little drunk, so he said to everyone, "I have to say sorry to everyone, your 'head' is not strong enough to drink, and you are already drunk, I will take her away first, and you can play for a while." ”
I didn't want to roll up his face, so I had to stand up with him obediently and tell Jiang Zhuo softly, I really couldn't continue, so I was taken out by Xiao Tianyu.
The rain had long since stopped outside, and the air was very humid, and I remembered the time when I had just returned to China, when he invited me to dinner, and it was also after the rain that day, and the air smelled like this.
Xiao Li watched me go out with Xiao Tianyu, but didn't come out, and now it's just the two of us.
Xiao Tianyu looked at me and asked softly, "Did you really drink a lot?" ”
"Nope!" I laughed, very charming!
This is my hateful drunken performance, and every time I drink a small amount of alcohol, I smile charmingly, which is said to be charming.
He stretched out his hand to hold me, who was a little flashy, and said dotingly, "Still say no?" It's all dangling at a forty-five-degree angle and not falling! ”
I giggled, "What's the matter, less coming, forty-five degree angles?" Your family still doesn't fall at a 45-degree angle? Really! ”
"Shall we take a walk?" Xiao Tianyu's voice was warm, asking for my opinion.
"Okay!" I walked slowly, but I actually felt a little flashy myself, leaning on his body.
I glanced at Xiao Tianyu and said to him, "Five years ago. That day, the day I saw my mother off, I really had nothing to love, watching the plane that flew into the sky to take my mother and sister away, and my whole world collapsed, as if I had been abandoned by the whole world. ”
I felt Xiao Tianyu's arm around my waist tremble slightly, and he tightened to bring me closer to him.
"At that moment, I sat in the parking lot of the airport, crying without tears! At that time, Qiao Xin was the only one with me, well! Qiao Xin is the only one who will never leave my side. ”
Xiao Tianyu, who was following me, was silent, and I knew that he was speechless.
I just want him to know what right he has to show off his favor in front of me!
"It just so happened that Brother Haonan called and said to go to dinner together, and at that moment Qiao Xin said to me, 'Look, there are friends by your side, with me and Qin Haonan, you are not lonely! Everything will be fine! 'Hmmm! I am also convinced that everything will be fine! ”
I said it lightly as if I was talking about someone else's business, after all, it was already in the past for me, and the scar forgot the pain at that time.
"I went to have dinner with Brother Hao Nan with joy, but I saw you with Xiang Lingxue! At that time, you were really good, you could be my face, and I was like a thorn in my side! I said as I walked, giggling as I spoke.
Xiao Tianyu was silent and didn't explain, but I could feel that his hands were trembling and his breathing was a little unsteady.
There are also pedestrians passing by, the city is gorgeous at night, and there is a lot of traffic around.
The headlights in front of or behind us reflect us like a dream, and the edges of the whole person are glowing and shining.
I looked at Xiao Tianyu's good-looking face, sharp and angular, handsome and plump.
"I was really out of luck at that time, and the pain was so bad that I didn't care at all, but I pretended not to care at the end of the crossbow, but in fact, I cared! It's stupid to care! ”
I turned my head to look at Xiao Tianyu, his face was glowing with innocence under the dim street lamp, and his thin lips were tightly pursed, as if he was forbearing.
"That's right, I'm really a little loveless, and I've thought that if I die like this, it must be a kind of happiness, and it's better than living in a world where no one regrets."
I looked at the road under my feet with a smile on my face, walking and playing, stumbling, the breeze blowing, and the wine seemed to be in full swing.
"Qiao Xin understands me, she can't see that I am injured and wronged, she was really angry that day, half dead of anger, angry like a frog, bulging, so she had to leave early, cleaned up her house for me, and gave me the big bedroom."
Xiao Tianyu walked beside me wordlessly, holding my waist tightly.
"When I couldn't hold it, I left, and I really didn't eat that kind of food, like chewing wax!"
I don't know why, but I don't mean anything else to say this, I just want to say it.
Xiao Tianyu didn't stop me, he listened tightly, paying full attention, I don't know what he was thinking? He had a dark belly and didn't know what he was thinking.
"On the car back, I said to Qin Haonan that I still want to drink, he thought about it for a while, and said a word to me, okay!" I naughtily stretched out a finger and showed it to Xiao Tianyu, just one word!
Silly!
I laughed again, in a sweet voice, as if I was laughing at someone.
Then he parked and went to the supermarket down the street and bought a lot of wine! What a night it was! It's the most I've ever drunk! A lot! I can't even remember how much I drank! The bottle is always empty anyway...... Always empty! ”
I took a deep breath of the fresh air after the rain, with a hint of bitter fragrance on the leaves!
"Tianyu, you know what? That day, how embarrassed I was, my mother left, didn't say a word to me, didn't look back at me, didn't tell me a word, didn't leave a penny......" I said.
"Really, I didn't ask, I didn't ask for a penny! At that time, I couldn't get a penny out of my body! All of them were taken away by my mother! ”
"At that time, without Qiao Xin, I really wouldn't be alive, life has no meaning to me! To live is a torment, to live is a shame, to live is to trample on my self-esteem! ”
"Stars! I'm sorry! Xiao Tianyu's voice was extremely soft, so light that I could hear it, but it was not real.
"That night, Brother Hao Nan and I sat in the veranda of the Lin family community, drank all the wine, I told him everything, he just drank with me, listened, and accompanied! That's what I needed, and he did it! Very well done! He also lent me a shoulder so that I could lean on, humble gentleman! ”
I said it very solemnly, and my tone was very heavy.
I actually didn't mean to crusade against Xiao Tianyu at all, no, not at all. However, I especially want to talk to him today.
I think he knows these words in my heart, and I want him to do nothing in front of me as if nothing has happened, in fact, I remember them in my heart! It's like I was talking about drinking as little things.
Ha! As long as he says it, I'm afraid it will be a crusade against him.
What kind of TM grandson is pretending to be around me.
"Tianyu, I really want to know your state of mind at that time."
"I ......"
"No, it's not that I want to know now, it's then, I want to know then, I really want to! I don't want to think about it now......" I interrupted, shaking my head frequently.
"Tianyu, let's continue to drink some more bars!" I looked at him, his face was so good-looking, it made my heart beat faster, he was really handsome and unmatched, no one could surpass him.
"Xingchen, obedient! Don't drink anymore, I'll talk to you, huh? He looked at me in the crook of his arm and comforted me softly.
"Hahaha!" I laughed abruptly, "Tianyu, this is the difference between you and Brother Hao Nan, he never uses his own will as a diversion to control my thoughts and control my thoughts!" ”
He looked at me with a little me in his eyes, as if it was hidden deeply.
"That day, I was very drunk, until Qiao Xin packed up her house and came back to the Lin family to look for me, Qin Haonan carried me back to the Lin family in front of Qiao Xin, that night was the last time I lived in the Lin family, moved out of the Lin family, I had nothing, living in the hut that Qiao Xin built for me, and wanted to live."
I tilted my head and looked at the inky night sky, glowing with the glow of goose-yellow streetlights.