When Grandpa was young, he had seen the world and thought about everything thoughtfully, he saw that Sun Xiaohong did not speak, and continued: "If you are an adult, don't be too long-winded, good medicine is good for making a living, it is always good to say it, don't you don't like to listen to it." Our sons and fathers have all climbed from the ditch in this way. Your dad didn't finish the book, they didn't catch up with the good time, and they were all delayed. In your generation, you have read a lot. Don't look at the fact that you haven't been admitted to university now, when you have nothing to do, you should also read more books, write and write, learn the knowledge in your head, and you can't lose it at any time. Although the opportunity is not easy to meet, maybe one day we can really meet it, and our books over the years have not been read in vain. You must not break the jar and waste everything you have learned! ”

Grandpa said, slowly putting the fan in his hand on his lap, he sat quietly at the door of the house, turned his face, squinted his eyes, looked at the clear sky, and said slowly. His resolute bronzed face grew serious.

"Uh-huh! Grandpa, I got it! Sun Xiaohong listened to her grandfather's words, bit her lip, nodded silently, her eyes were full of tears, she raised her hand suddenly, wiped it off vigorously, and looked at the sky stubbornly.

"You have to think about it, you can't use a gun, you can do what you want, isn't that a pit for yourself?" Grandpa said slowly, although his words were not much, but every word had weight.

There was a knock at the door of the garden, and Grandma came with a basket on her shoulder. She walked quickly to the grandfather and grandson, put the basket full of leek flowers in her hand, gently put it on the ground, and said while patting the dust on her body: "Look at these two grandfathers, one old and one young are so sticky, are they patronizing and chatting, and they even forgot to eat?" The food is all hot in the pot, and if you don't eat it, it will be cold! ”

Grandma's words reminded Sun Xiaohong, she hurriedly said "um", hurriedly ran to the house, took out the food from the pot, and gently put it on the kang table. I turned around and went to the cupboard behind the pot to take out a few pairs of bowls and chopsticks, put the rice into the bowl, and waited for my grandfather to come over to eat.

Grandpa bent over and walked slowly into the house. He took off his undershirt, shook it, and hung it on the wall. Then sit cross-legged on the kang, and the grandfather and grandson face each other to eat lunch.

Grandma took out a long cigarette stick from the tobacco pouch of the kang head, slowly filled a pot of dry tobacco, then put the jade cigarette holder in her mouth, bit it with her teeth, struck a match vigorously, held it with her hand, and then gently sent it to the tobacco pot, carefully lit a pot of dry tobacco, and then squinted her eyes on the bench at the door, and smoked the dry tobacco gracefully.

Those unrestrained smoke rings, with a smell of earth, soaked in the transparent air, slowly spread out the door, like a comfort, like a relief, mixed with an indescribable smell.

The sun after dusk gradually dimmed, a mist rose, and the whole yard became hazy. After a breeze, wisps of white clouds, floating on the blue sky, like a light dream, slid into the boundless emptiness, and dissipated in silence.

After dinner, grandpa and grandma sat under the windowsill and chatted. It's quieter inside the yard. Sun Xiaohong hid in her cabin, staring, staring blankly at the incandescent light bulb turned off on the ceiling, lying motionless. It was not until the stars came out that she went out of the door, stooped down and picked up a small stool from the corner of the house, and walked silently into the courtyard, where she sat lonely under the moonlit eaves, her face full of melancholy.

At that moment, she held her head in her hands, buried her face in her knees, and looked at the bright moon in the sky, and her whole person was immersed in undisturbed time.

With a "bang", the fence gate at the gate of the courtyard suddenly opened. With a shout, Dad drove the carriage to buy vegetables and quickly walked into the yard. Sun Xiaohong stood up very unnaturally, her heart was very entangled, and when she saw that the carriage had approached, she couldn't help but take a step back.

Mom sat in the car, dressed in simple clothes and pants. Her purple face was covered with dust, like the annual rings carved by the years on the vicissitudes of the old tree, rippling with traces of wind and frost one by one. Her eyes were sunken into their sockets, full of strength and tenacity. But she didn't notice Sun Xiaohong's subtle changes, and still scanned the chickens, ducks, geese and dogs in the yard with her browsing eyes as usual.

After the carriage stopped in the courtyard, Mom got out of the carriage. The vegetables in the carriage had been sold out, leaving only some yellowed rotten leaves, which were packed in an empty bag by Xiaohong's mother and placed in the corner of the wall. After dinner, she chops all the leaves with a kitchen knife, mixes them with grain and fodder, and takes them to the yard to feed the chickens and ducks.

Sun Xiaohong also came to help unload the car, and after everyone quickly unloaded the car, Dad tied the sweaty white horse into the stable, mixed the hay in the manger, and brought a basin of well water. The big white horse, which had been thirsty for a day, smelled the breath of well water, and immediately let out a "ho-ho" in its mouth, and quickly came over with its head, and it poked its head into the bucket vigorously, and drank most of the bucket in one gulp.

Grandma had already brought the meal, and after everyone was busy, they gathered around for dinner. Sun Xiaohong lowered her head and sat opposite her mother, she slowly brought the rice in the bowl to her mouth, chewing like swallowing a thorny grass fruit.

In order not to let her mother see the confusion and uneasiness in her heart, she deliberately covered half of her face with a bowl to hide her inner depression and loss. Seeing her so abnormal, her mother immediately put the rice bowl in her hand on the table, looked directly into her eyes and asked: "Xiaohong, you went to school today to get your graduation certificate, do you know that Zhao Jiayi was escorted, and children like him can go to college, and I don't know how to read all these years!" Mom's words were too harsh and hit the nail on the head to say something she didn't want to face. Sun Xiaohong heard it as if she had been stabbed by a needle, she trembled instantly, and suddenly lost her confidence, she buried her head lower.

She originally wanted to dodge the past vaguely, and then find a chance to talk about it, but she didn't expect her mother to still have a target. Now, she was especially afraid of her mother's gaze, for fear of being stabbed all over her body by this sharp sword. She had no choice but to hold on, feeling more vulnerable.

"Hmmm! He was escorted, and his family also gave a gift...... "Sun Xiaohong lowered her eyes, bit her lip vigorously in response, her brain boomed, her face became unusually pale, and she sat there stiffly, looking like she had suffered it. At this time, she was like a child who had done something wrong and didn't dare to face her parents, tears were rolling in her eyes, and because of extreme restraint, she didn't flow out. Her voice was small, but everyone at the table could hear it clearly. Everyone put down the dishes and chopsticks and focused their eyes on Sun Xiaohong's body, even if no one spoke, the atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly became extremely embarrassing.

"There's nothing to be ashamed of not being able to get into college! There are not many children in the village who are admitted to college, and they are like you who have big eyes like you who are sad all day long and can be worried about getting out of college, so it's strange, don't say anything else, just say that our family, if I and your father encounter some difficulties, just stand up at home, no one dares to work in the field, and the whole family must starve to death. I don't think you should worry about it at home, go out with us tomorrow to buy groceries, and you will have a long experience! ”

Mother's words eased the tense atmosphere and also made Sun Xiaohong feel relieved, she didn't expect her mother to understand her and forgive her so easily. She nodded hurriedly, picked up her rice bowl, and continued to eat without saying a word.

"Yes, Xiaohong, your mother is so right! Now all the children are studying in school, and not all of them can be admitted to university. There are many children in the village who can't get into college, and I think there are many who are promising. We don't lack noses, we don't lack eyes, we don't compare to anyone else, what can't we do. In this life, people eat bowls of rice for everything. Don't hold yourself back from illness because you haven't been admitted to college, it's not worth it......" Grandma's words, although chattering, Sun Xiaohong sweated profusely after hearing it, and her whole body was comfortable.

She also knows that some unemployed vagrants with high education and self-esteem are wandering in society, and they are even not as good as those who can't get into college. Although this is just an excuse for prevarication, it is also a fact that I have heard and witnessed. Thinking of this, Sun Xiaohong's heart was no longer so entangled.

Dad didn't squeak beside him, he thought for a long time and said, "Xiaohong, don't be discouraged if you can't pass the exam, if you still want to review, your mother and I will support you." The exam room is impermanent, maybe you can get into a good university after another year of revision! ”

"Dad, I don't want to go to revision, what if I can't pass the exam? I've thought about it, I'll go out to work with Sihuan and them first, and if I have the opportunity in the future, I'll take the social adult exam! Now there is an opportunity for adult exams, I can work and revise at the same time, and when it comes to the exam, I will try my luck again, maybe one day when it will run, and the blind cat will bump into a dead mouse! Sun Xiaohong kept shaking her head and said. Her fair face was a little stubborn.

"Do you think adult exams are that easy? It's not something anyone can get into. It's not that mom discourages your enthusiasm, you are silly at home every day, you are not in a good mood, everything in the test is in vain, it is better to go out to breathe, there is a chance, wait until this hurdle is over. Mother's words were all for her sake, Sun Xiaohong nodded silently.

Seeing that she didn't speak for a long time, her mother said, "There is work at home, I don't think you should go out to work with Sihuan and them." If you want to experience life is not easy, you don't need to go out of the village to find it, you can experience it directly at your doorstep. Tomorrow there happens to be a market in the village, find you an errand, after you finish breakfast, push the basket of vegetables picked from the vegetable garden this afternoon to the market with a unicycle and sell it out, the money from selling vegetables belongs to you, go to the city to add clothes to wear, what do you think? If you can't even sell your food, you'll have to go to school to revise! ”

Mother's words carried an indisputable toughness, she originally wanted to stump Sun Xiaohong with the method of agitation. But she never expected that her words did not intimidate the weak Sun Xiaohong, but aroused Sun Xiaohong's great interest. She didn't even think about it and said, "It's not a shame to buy groceries, what do I dare not go!" Well, I'll sell out all the vegetables in the basket tomorrow! ”