And when Chen Jianjun tried to see the broken tangled lines, shapes, and colors, he suddenly felt angry and sad, which frightened him.

Zhang Weizhao told him to relax himself, not to treat these emotions with a hostile attitude, to allow them to exist, to pour them on the paper with a paintbrush.

He drew many distorted images on paper, some of which resembled whirlpools, and some of which resembled blurred and crooked faces. As he gazed at the images, he felt like he was almost hooked in.

Chen Jianjun never knew that he would draw such a thing.

These experiences are strange and unfamiliar to Chen Jianjun, but they have a fatal attraction.

That's the beauty of self-discovery.

Many people live according to an automated process. Learn to speak when it's time to speak, read when it's time to read, get married when it's time to get married, give birth when it's time to have children, and then grow old and die. But I never really went deep into myself to see what kind of person I am. What's inside of me? Why am I like this? Why am I who I am, with all these unique perceptions and feelings, and no one else?

Psychology provides an opportunity to see more of what is within you. In fact, the thoughts that people can feel in their daily lives are only the tip of the iceberg exposed to the water, and a large number of psychological activities are hidden under the surface of the water, and people have no chance to see them.

But once you do have the opportunity to explore this part, you will be amazed by the richness and depth of your own experience, and you will be fascinated by it.

What Zhang Weizhao did was to teach Chen Jianjun some methods, so that he could see the parts of himself that he had never been explored. Only then will he perceive the source of his pain and anxiety, and then he will have the ability and opportunity to deal with it.

As a direct result of this exploration, Chen Jianjun has more nightmares.

Originally, Zhang Weizhao suggested that Chen Jianjun meditate for a few breaths every day, and Chen Jianjun did so, and this kind of exercise made him relaxed and comfortable, so that the quality of sleep was significantly better, he fell asleep faster at night, and his nightmares were reduced.

This is the feeling of relaxation and joy that people who are just starting out in psychotherapy often experience, the joy of self-affirmation.

But that's just the beginning. And then dig inward, when those deliberately suppressed and "forgotten" memories are touched, it will evoke a lot of negative emotions.

This is like the inner demon encountered when practicing internal strength. At this time, if you are unwilling to face these demons, you will lose all your efforts. And when facing these demons, without the support of a strong counselor, it is easy to go crazy.

So when Chen Jianjun started to have nightmares again, and the content of the nightmare made him feel more frightened than before, he was very angry and called Zhang Weizhao to reprimand him.

Zhang Weizhao said, Congratulations to Your Majesty on the advancement of cultivation, which is a manifestation of the improvement of cultivation. Then he was taught how to deal with these nightmares.

There are two types of nightmares that Chen Jianjun often has.

The first is the dream of being chased by a black shadow, Chen Jianjun didn't know who the black shadow was, but its chase made him feel extremely terrifying. Chen Jianjun will run desperately in his dreams, sometimes waking up in horror when he is about to be overtaken, and sometimes falling off a cliff and struggling to wake up during the chase.

For this kind of dream, Zhang Weizhao told Chen Jianjun that when he dreamed of the black shadow chasing after him, he would stand still and look back at it to see what it looked like. It's hard, there's no way to do it in a short period of time, but every time I have a dream like this, I remind myself that this is my dream, I'm the leader of this dream, and now I can stand here and see who is chasing me behind me. Keep telling yourself like this until you can do it. If one day you can see it clearly, you will find that it looks far beyond your imagination and will surprise you.

Chen Jianjun still can't have the courage to look back when he is chased by a black shadow in his dream. He wondered what the black shadow looked like, and how it could surprise him. This curiosity is brought to the dream, and the chase in the dream is no longer a life-and-death competition, but has some flavor of the game, so being chased is not as terrible as before.

Chen Jianjun's second dream is that of a man with a distorted face, clamoring to torture him. Chen Jianjun tried to escape, but found that he was wearing very few clothes, or he was naked at all. This left him unobstructed before the injury. Sometimes he would wake up before the whip hit him, and sometimes he would experience the pain in his dreams as he tortured himself.

In this regard, Zhang Weizhao's response was to ask him to draw the torturer in his dream, and then think of a way to make him less terrifying. For example, add a big hat to the painting, and the hat covers his eyes, so that he can't see clearly; For another example, he is depicted as a dwarf, with short hands and short feet, and he poses no threat to people at all. In addition, any method that Chen Jianjun can think of can be tried, as long as it can make this image less scary.

The method that Zhang Weizhao taught Chen Jianjun to deal with the second dream was particularly useful to him. Because he repeatedly painted the torturer in various ways, drawing it as a dwarf, a monkey, and a lantern man as papier-mâché, when he was in a dream, he became less terrible. Sometimes, Chen Jianjun can even snatch its whip and drive it away from the house.

In this way, painting with Zhang Weizhao and telling her about his dreams made dreaming no longer a hard thing for Chen Jianjun, and every morning, deliberately remembering last night's dreams so that it would be convenient for him to further discuss with Zhang Weizhao during his practice, became a new habit for Chen Jianjun. Sometimes, he would take a piece of paper to write down his dreams, so as not to forget them during the day.

In addition, Chen Jianjun also found that his painting style was different from the past. In the past, when he painted, he pursued a clear and beautiful spirit, which means that the form should be delicate and the charm should be elegant. But now his paintings are no longer as carefully matched with colors and lines as before, and when he paints the pen, the picture seems to gush out of his chest, which makes his paintings have a kind of power that penetrates people's hearts, and the form or something is not important.

Chen Jianjun has been obsessed with painting for many years, he is very good at painting, but after he became an adult, he has not really grown. Now he is very surprised by this transformation.

All of the above has made Chen Jianjun more and more devoted to "practice". According to Zhang Weizhao's judgment, he originally belonged to the high-sensitivity personality, and people with this kind of personality often have an extraordinary enthusiasm for inward exploration. Chen Jianjun used to have too many traumas in his heart that he had not dealt with, which made him very reluctant to look directly into his heart.

Now, with Zhang Weizhao's help, he can safely explore his inner self, which makes him feel as if he has discovered a new world. It's much more interesting to explore this new world than to hang out and flirt with those delicate concubines. Although those concubines have their own beauty and talents, when they talk seriously, there are still a few routines. is not to flatter him for his wisdom and martial arts, or to praise him for his excellent painting skills and genius. They also know some paintings, but they don't understand people's hearts, and they can't get to the point at all.

Therefore, Chen Jianjun's recent time of staying alone in the Qianqing Palace has increased more than before. Not only did she go to other concubines less often, but she didn't go to Jin Guifei's Anxi Palace as often as before.

Today, Chen Jianjun summoned Zhang Weizhao to come to the Xinuan Pavilion of the Qianqing Palace to continue their painting practice. Zhang Weizhao gave him a problem and asked him to draw houses, trees and people on a piece of paper. The requirements are the same as before, don't carve carefully, just draw according to the impression that comes to mind first.

The Greenhouse Man (HTP) is a classic personality test first developed by American psychologist Buck Brown. J· H System Discussion. Although Fang Shuren's drawing is simple, it can truly reflect the inner conflict and traumatic experience of the mapper.

Zhang Weizhao and Chen Jianjun have been "practicing" together for a while, and she wants to use this test to make a summary and make a work plan for the next step based on the test results.

Chen Jianjun has adapted to Zhang Weizhao's work style, so he no longer asks what he is doing with these things, but lays out the paper, picks up the pen, calms down, moistens the pen with ink, and prepares to put down the pen.

At this moment, Huai'en's voice suddenly sounded outside the door: "Your Majesty, the agate of Anxi Palace is here, saying that the concubine Niangniang suddenly fell ill and couldn't get up from the bed, and the people who were waiting in the palace were frightened, and they came to return to Your Majesty." ”

Chen Jianjun frowned, he just didn't go to Anxi Palace for three days, and Jin Guifei suddenly fell ill? He put down his paintbrush, thought about it, and said to Huaien: "Drive Anxi Palace." ”

Then he turned back to Zhang Weizhao and said, "I will complete the painting of Fang Shuren with Zhaoming Zhenren on another day." ”

Zhang Weizhao raised one palm and bowed to Chen Jianjun: "Immeasurable Heavenly Venerable." May the concubine be in good health and all well. ”

Chen Jianjun hurriedly went out to Anxi Palace, and Zhang Weizhao took her own entourage Xiyuan back to the Ningxiang Pavilion. Since the last night in the forest encountered a plot, Zhang Weizhao also went out with people, at least it was convenient to ventilate and report the news.

However, before Zhang Weizhao could return to the Ning Xiang Pavilion, a little eunuch suddenly ran over in a hurry, saying that His Majesty the Emperor had asked Zhaoming Zhenren to go to see a doctor for the concubine.

What's going on?

Just now, when Chen Jianjun was "practicing", he suddenly received the news that Jin Guifei was sick, and Zhang Weizhao suspected that this Jin Guifei should not really be sick, but he just wanted to draw Chen Jianjun's attention back to her by pretending to be sick.

Now it seems that Jin Guifei's "illness" is not just to attract Chen Jianjun's attention, but more likely to come up with a new moth to deal with herself.

Zhang Weizhao instructed Nanxing to go back to the Condensing Incense Pavilion to get his medicine box, while secretly thinking about how to deal with it.