Chapter 090: A Forgiveness
No lie can be told so calmly, and what is cold is sincere, and in this gravely calmness it makes a real presence felt.
A few storms of fate often stir up such waves in our hearts.
I only need a forgiveness, the forgiveness of my own conscience.
Out of a disturbed conscience, he is a man whose conscience is awakening. Among them, there is a rather mysterious meaning of feeling that today is and yesterday is not.
Such impulses from justice and goodness are not the attributes of the idle, and the awakening of conscience is the greatness of the soul.
It wasn't easy for him to hide this confusion from Cosette, but love was a talent, and Marius finally covered it up.
Whenever the soul wanders on the edge of the precipice between hell and heaven, God quietly sends messengers to guide you in the right direction.
The last darkness, the supreme dawn.
"Monsieur Baron," replied Denardi, with a deep bow, "grateful for it. “
So Denardi went out, and he was inexplicably pleasantly surprised by the bombardment of this sweet thousand-franc bombardment of the banknotes like lightning strikes.
He was indeed struck by lightning, but he was also happy, and if there was a lightning rod, he would regret it.
Cosette pulled her scarf down and threw her hat on the bed.
"It's inconvenient to wear." She said.
She sat on the old man's lap and brushed his white hair away with a lovely gesture and kissed him on the forehead.
Valjean was at her mercy, looking dazed.
Cosette vaguely understood something, and she redoubled her affection, as if to atone for Marius's sins.
Valjean said vaguely: "What a fool I am! I thought I wouldn't see her anymore. Think about it, Mr. Peng Meixu, when you came in, I was thinking, 'It's over, her little dress is here, I'm a miserable person, I won't see Cosette anymore.'" "When I think so, you're going up the stairs. How stupid I am! So stupid! We think about the problem without thinking about God. The merciful God said, 'You think they have abandoned you like this, fool!' No, no, never. Come on, here is a poor man who needs an angel. Then the angel came, and I saw my Cosette again, and I saw my little Cosette again! Yes! I was in great pain! “
He was almost speechless for a while, and then continued:
"I really need to come and see Cosette once in a while. A heart needs a little sustenance. But I also feel that I am a superfluous person. I convinced myself: 'They don't need you anymore, stay in your own corner, you don't have the right to stay forever.' 'Ahh Thank God I see her again! Did you know, Cosette, that your husband is beautiful? Yes! You have a beautiful embroidered collar, which is so nice. I love this trick. Your husband chose it, right? Also, you should have a few cashmere scarves, Mr. Peng Meixu, let me call her 'you'. It won't be long. “
Cosette went on to say:
"How unkind you have left us like this! Where have you been? Why Is It So Long To Be Away? Previously, you traveled for a maximum of three or four days for multiple trips. I sent Nicolet, and he always replied, 'He has not returned.' 'When did you come back?' Why not tell us? You have changed a lot, you know? Yes! Bad father! He was sick, and we didn't know it! Behold, Marius, touch his hand, and it's so cold! “
"So you're here! Mr. Peng Meixu, you forgive me. Valjean said it again.
Listening to Valjean repeat this sentence, everything that was jammed in Marius's heart found an opportunity to vent and burst out:
"Cosette, do you hear me? He still said so! I want to forgive him. Do you know what he does to me, Cosette? He saved my life. He did more than that, he gave you to me. After saving me, after giving you to me, Cosette, what about himself? He sacrificed himself. He is such a person. But to me, an ungrateful man, to a forgetful man, to a cruel man, to me, to a sinner, he said, 'Thank you! 'Cosette, I can't repay him even if I have done all my life for him. This barricade, this gutter, this fire pit, these sewage ditches, he has experienced them all, for me, for you, Cosette! He carried me on his back and kept me away from all mortality, while he himself endured everything. He has all bravery, all morality, all heroism, all sacred virtues! Cosette, this man is such an angel! “
"Shhhh Hush! Valjean whispered, "Why do you say these things?" “
"But you!" Marius said angrily but respectfully, "Why don't you say these things? It's also your fault, you saved someone's life, and you have to hide it from others! In particular, it's scary to say that you're slandering yourself under the pretext that you're going to expose yourself. “
"I'm telling the truth." Valjean replied.
"No," said Marius again, "to tell the truth, to tell the whole truth, and you did not tell it. You are Mr. Madelan, why didn't you speak? You saved Savoy, why don't you talk about it? You saved my life, why don't you tell it? “
"Because I think the same thing as you, I think you have a point. I should have walked away. If you know about the gutter, you will keep me with you. So I shouldn't have said. If I say it, everyone will feel constrained. “
"Restraint what! Who restrains it? Marius replied. Do you want to stay here? We're going to take you away. Yes! Oh, my God! It occurred to me that I learned about this by accident! We're going to pick you up, and you're inseparable from us. You are her father and mine. You won't stay another day in this horrible house. Don't think you're still here tomorrow. “