Chapter 190: If you are a king, you are destined to be lonely
Hearing Zhuang Yichen's human language, the undead was stunned for a moment, and then an idea came to his mind.
"Why do you always do such strange things? We are undead, not human! ”
Zhuang Yichen wanted to laugh, but this happy expression was transmitted to his face, just making the two soul fires in his eyes jump lightly a few times.
"So what does it matter? Yelena, you wouldn't tell the teacher anyway, would you? ”
She was helplessly silent for a while, and then slowly walked to Zhuang Yichen's side, followed his example, and sat on the ground very awkwardly.
Zhuang Yichen closed the book in his hand, and then reached out and gently constructed a miniature magic array in the air. "You can also give it a try, its practical voice expression is also very interesting."
After hesitating for a moment, she also followed Zhuang Yichen's example and constructed this magic array. "Yes, is that so?"
An equally hoarse and low voice sounded softly, silently dropping a few wisps of dust from the thick dust between the old bookshelves. This is the first time since the birth of the undead that the two undead have spoken to each other in the true sense of the word. It's a pity that the only thing that recorded the historic moment was the old bookshelves around them that no one cared about
"yes, that's it." Even though her voice was hoarse and low, but when it fell on Zhuang Yichen's ears, she undoubtedly heard the most beautiful voice in the world.
"Well, I'm going to teach you how to change the timbre and how to control the volume."
The soul fire in Yelena's eyes dimmed for a moment, and then she slowly shook her palm and dissipated the miniature magic array on her fingertips. "That's enough, I really don't know why you have so many weird ideas, don't you think these are a waste of time and boring?"
The communication of the undead is to directly convey each other's meaning through spiritual power, which is naturally more accurate and convenient than audio language. It's just that since the awakening of self-awareness, Zhuang Yichen has never been able to get used to this kind of silent and suppressed communication.
Feeling the anger and helplessness contained in that thought, he paused for a moment, and then the same thought was conveyed to the past. "Maybe it's really boring, but I'm curious, why did you choose Yelena when choosing a name again?"
"It's just a code name, it doesn't matter what you choose."
Hearing this, Zhuang Yichen continued to ask: "But Yelena is a girl's name, and you, this body is also the skeleton of a human girl. ”
"We undead are genderless, what the hell are you trying to say?"
"But the first time I saw you, I felt like I was different from you. Later I learned that the different feeling was because you were a girl, at least that's how I felt. ”
"And, don't you find out. Are we undead like humans in many ways of thinking? ”
Elena immediately came to her with a hurried thought, "The teacher has already answered this question. Our undead are the result of the recombination of fragments of human souls, so it shouldn't be surprising that we have some characteristics of human beings, right? Not to mention that intelligent beings with self-awareness all share some of the same qualities. ”
Zhuang Yichen paused for a while and did not speak. His thoughts drifted, and those strange feelings had always haunted him in the depths of his soul ever since he had awakened his self-awareness.
He will feel hungry, he will feel lonely, he will have all the subtle emotions that a normal undead should not have, and he will even crave human love. Those strange feelings were so real that even after he stood for a long time, there was a feeling of exertion in his body. And the undead have no flesh at all, how can they have such an experience of muscle soreness?
Every time he finished his cultivation and increased his magic power in a circle, he would relieve some of his hunger. He wanted to find the answer to all this, so he frantically flipped through the books of mankind for the past two years. But the more detailed he came into contact with the human world, the clearer he felt that his strange desires and perceptions were simply the experience that only normal human beings should have!
Even many times, during his cultivation, he subconsciously felt that his body had real flesh and blood.
However, whenever he finished his cultivation, he was still faced with that thin skeleton.
This strong gap has always troubled his mind, but he can't tell anyone about these doubts, let alone ask his teacher for guidance. The millennia of war has made the hatred of the undead for humanity deeply engraved in the depths of the soul. It is undoubtedly a shame for the whole race that an undead spirit possesses human perception!
After being silent for a while, Zhuang Yichen opened the book of poems in his hand again. Then he asked, "What do you say, what is love?" ”
Yelena paused for a moment, and then a clear and bright thought poured into Zhuang Yichen's mind. That thought contains all the good feelings of care, companionship, loyalty, devotion, and so on.
"Do you feel it? This is love. I love you and every one of my people. In the same way, every member of your clan loves you. ”
The undead can directly use spiritual power to convey feelings, and this kind of empathy and profound experience cannot be completed by thin human language.
"I know. But I'm not talking about this, I'm trying to say it, love. Love between a man and a woman. ”
"That's because human beings need to reproduce, so it will be a product of the continuation, every member of our undead clan is a gift from the god of the underworld, we have no gender, how can we have the kind of feelings you said?"
"There will be, there will be. Yelena, I can clearly feel that you are a girl. Zhuang Yichen's eyes looked at her, and the two soul fires in his eyes were dancing with scorching brilliance. In the lonely days of the past two years, he could only confide in the strange feelings in front of him, who was born at the same time as him.
Yelena was stunned for a moment, "You're crazy! ”
"yes, I'm going crazy. Those strange desires tormented me all the time, and I told myself every time that I was an undead and that I shouldn't feel anything. But it doesn't work, you know? I could even feel the blood flowing in my body and a heart beating in my chest.
Those feelings are so clear and unambiguous that I really can't fool myself! ”
The soul fire in Yelena's eyes struggled and jumped for a while, then hesitated, stretched out her slender palm, and held it in Zhuang Yichen's hand.
"Promise me one thing, you will never tell anyone else, let alone the teacher, okay?"
Feeling the solemnity in Yelena's thoughts, Zhuang Yichen nodded, and then said:
"But I'm really lonely."
Yelena's thoughts also carried a bit of pity. "I know. However, if you are the king, you are destined to be lonely. You are the most gifted clan of millennia, and you will ascend to the Throne of the Deep. So, promise me never to have these strange thoughts again, okay? ”