One of the things I often do is push myself, and the last thing I like is to force myself. tired, aggrieved, sad...... This is something that is sometimes forced to reap the rewards. In my heart, the only thing that I will never force myself to do, is the matter of feelings.

I seem to have a crush on someone......

It was so inadvertently, and when, I was completely stupid and empty. I didn't even believe that I was liking, and secretly told myself that maybe it was because I had never been in a relationship, and I didn't know what it was like to really like someone, so maybe it was just a faint good feeling, not the so-called like. The more I told myself, the more I weighed the word liking, was it a joke with me, or was it true?

In fact, I often giggle at my phone now, because he has affected my daily mood, and even because of him, I actually have insomnia. Even so, I still told myself that it wasn't liking, no, no......

I also seem to be afraid of something...... What is it? Haha~ I'm so stupid, I don't know......

Now I really want to tell him, don't say ambiguous words again, don't feel sorry for me, don't worry about me, don't say that you are smirking like a retarded and waiting for my reply, don't care about whether I sleep well at night......

I told him that my heart was very stable, and it didn't stir my heartstrings because of his so-and-so words, but I didn't know that I had begun to fall little by little, so that I desperately wanted to grab something, so that I didn't sink down.

I've gotten used to letting my emotions change just because of me, and that alone sometimes makes me a little unbearable. I'm nervous, but now I have someone who makes me emotionally unstable, and I really don't know what to do for a while.

Of course, I'm not insane, but if I was, I would be proud~ It is said that every mentally ill person is a genius~

Now that it's clear that I really like it, what do I do next? Pinch off while you haven't liked it more deeply? Or just let it grow?

If I knew, I'm afraid I wouldn't be bothered here now~

I have to think, am I suffering from a phobia of love?

I'm afraid, for the beauty in love, I think of more hurt, I know that I can be very strong, and I naturally know that when I am vulnerable, I can break more than a dragonfly's wings. So, subconsciously, I'm stepping back in fear and restraining my feelings, which is actually quite uncomfortable.

I've always liked a person, but I don't know what it would be like to suddenly have someone around me? I was about to lose sight of Hongchen, but the problem finally came.

The answer is still waiting for me to find it, and whether I will be able to find my way is really unknown.