Chapter 293: Learn to reconcile with yourself
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Jin Shang returned to his room and found that the bedding and sheets had all been replaced with new ones, and the windows were bright and clean, and they looked like they had just been cleaned.
Although the old man kept his room for him, he couldn't come back a few times a year, let alone live at home, and every time he came back, he didn't go to the old man, but thought about his mother.
There are not many things in his room, just a bed and a sofa, and there are no extra wall clock ornaments on the wall, only a photo is inlaid on the east wall, which is a beautiful woman, it is Ni Tang.
This photo is still Ni Tang's previous stills, she played a celebrity in the Republic of China, wearing the most popular hat at that time, wearing a fashionable dress, graceful and luxurious, and peerless.
Many people say that Jin Shang looks more like his mother, especially when he is acting, he is full of affection and sorrow between his eyebrows, which is exactly the same as when Ni Tang was young.
But on the stage, Jin Shang's domineering and fanatical are more like his father, and he is not inferior to Jin Wenzhuo's style back then.
Jin Shang stared at the photos on the wall for a while, he didn't set up an incense case, and he didn't need to incense his mother, he knew that his mother didn't care about those false courtesies, as long as he could look at him.
Maybe his son was born to kiss his mother, Jin Shang was very sticky to his mother when he was a child, plus he was beautiful when he was a child, like a doll, his mother always loved to dress him up as a little girl, he didn't understand it at the time, just to make his mother happy, wearing a small skirt and being cute or something, watching his mother laugh, he was happy, and now that he thinks about it, he may have been accidentally cheated by his mother.
If my mother is still alive and knows that he is with a man now, I don't know if she will be sad or blessed?
Jin Shang didn't care much about his father's thoughts, but he wanted to know his mother's.
He thought, he must have been blessed.
Jin Shang choked a little, sniffed, and fell on the big bed in a "big" shape, not daring to close his eyes, for fear that if he closed his eyes, the memories of his childhood would come back like a tide.
Many people think that four or five-year-old children don't remember, his mother just died, Jin Wenzhuo took him to his side, some uncles and sisters touched his head and sighed: "This child is still young, it will be good when he grows up, and when he grows up, he can't remember things clearly when he was a child, and the feelings are slowly cultivated. ”
He sneered in his heart at that time, and then secretly warned himself: "Listen to Jin Shang, you can forget everything, but you can't forget how your mother died!" ”
In his mind, his dad was the culprit who killed the fuck.
Others may have forgotten, but he clearly remembers that before the age of five, there were only two people in the family, he and his mother, plus a nanny, the three of them lived together, "father" is just a strange symbol for him, it exists in his mother's mouth, often chattering, but he can't arouse any emotions, he thinks it's not his father, how can his father not hurt him?
Father and son have not been in harmony for so many years, and he is not happy in his heart.
Who doesn't want a family and a harmonious life, can live a good life, he hurts his father with words, and he can't stand it anymore, but he can't swallow the breath in his heart, and wants to get justice for his mother, but sometimes it's very boring to think about it, the nest fight has always been to kill a thousand enemies and lose eight hundred, while hurting the old man to the point that he was completely injured, he himself was also scarred.
Why bother?
After being with Luo Lan, probably because of the sustenance and comfort in his soul, he eliminated a lot of hatred in his heart, and he was no longer so cynical, with love in his heart, everything was clear.
Especially when he saw that Nan Ting's relationship with Ji Dong had gradually become harmonious over the years, and he was quite touched and envious when he saw the scene of filial piety and harmony between father and son.
Nanting's situation is similar to him, his mother was miserable by his scumbag father, and she died with a thin face.
He and Nan Ting are close to each other, a large part of it is because of the same disease, but Nan Ting is much luckier than him, his mother has been with him for at least more than ten years, and his parents have also been affectionate, he has lived a single-parent family since he was a child, only his mother, not his father. His mother was too weak, and Nan Ting's mother was too strong, and in the end they all embarked on a road of no return.
He talked to Nan Ting and asked him how he got rid of the knot.
Ji Nanting smiled bitterly and told him that what to eliminate the knot in his heart is just that he is afraid of losing. The turning point in the relationship between him and his father was when his father had a stroke and the Ji family was in crisis, he watched his father, who had always been tough, turn white overnight and fall down, at that moment it was as if a mountain in his heart had collapsed, and he was suddenly afraid that he would become an orphan whose parents died, even though he had become a year.
"The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait. I didn't understand the truth of this sentence before, but when I really understood it, it was a little too late. ”
Ji Nanting patted him on the shoulder and said earnestly: "Sometimes letting go of others is actually letting go of yourself." When you grow up, it's time to learn to reconcile with yourself. ”
It's not that Jin Shang doesn't understand the truth, but it's not as easy as he imagined to really do it.
After many years of knots, once you want to untie it, where is it so simple?
Jin Shang sighed leisurely, thinking that the two of them had been chatting for so long, it was estimated that it was about the same, when would the old fox take him away, and the two of them would go home to play under the covers?
Can't wait, Jin Shang turned over and got up, about to go down to find Luo Lan, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw the servant coming over with Luo Lan.
He was surprised, "Why are you here?" ”
A faint smile tugged at the corner of Luo Lan's mouth, "What, I can't enter your room?" ”
Of course not that's what it means.
Jin Shang pulled Luo Lan's hand and dragged him into the room, closed the door, and asked with a star, "What's the situation?" The old man just let you go? Didn't bother you, did you? ”
Luo Lan chuckled, "That's your father, and it's not a poisonous snake and beast, how can you drop me?" ”
I would like to add another sentence in my heart: It is a real poisonous snake and beast, and Lao Tzu is not afraid!
Seeing Luo Lan come back in a dignified manner, Jin Shang felt awkward in his heart, and muttered in a low voice: "What, it seems that the old man really didn't take me seriously, my son was abducted by others, so he asked symbolically and let you go?" It's too easy......"
Luo Lan listened to him muttering for a long time, angry and funny, stretched out his long arm, clamped Jin Shang's head under the squeaky nest, and raised his hand to burst chestnuts, "What do you mean kid?" ”
Jin Shang's little monster-like monster shouted, "Ah...... It hurts ......."
Luo Lan let him go, and his backhand was pressed on the bed, facing Jin Shang's aggrieved little face, his heart immediately softened, and he patted him on the little face, "Wronged?" ”
He knew more about Jin Shang, how could he not know what awkward this stinky boy was doing.
On the one hand, he is afraid that the old man will embarrass him, but on the other hand, he hopes that his mother's family can come to embarrass him.
Jin Shang flattened his mouth, stared at his eyes, and asked curiously, "What did my dad tell you?" ”
"It's nothing, it's just that I want to treat you well, if I dare to bully you, he will find someone to beat me."
Jin Shang immediately grinned when he heard this, "My dad wants to find someone to beat you?" He wouldn't know who my man was, would he? ”
The child's appearance is rare in Luo Lan's eyes.
Luo Lan's eyes sank, and he wanted to ~ come as soon as he said it, he reached out to pick up Jin Shang's pants, and was so shocked that the hair on his body exploded, "What are you doing?" Don't fool around, this is the old man's house! ”
"It doesn't matter whose family he is, if Lao Tzu wants you, no one can stop him."
Luo Lan's rogue attribute came up, where did he care, peeled off the little fox's pants, and went in, Jin Shang screamed in pain, "Oh, you belong to a donkey?" ”
Soon he couldn't scold, and he was only left screaming by Luo Lan, and he was afraid of recruiting his father, so he could only hum quietly.
Jin Wenzhuo sat by the pool for a while, and went through Luo Lan's words in his mind N times, but he didn't catch a fish, so he simply threw the fishing rod and went back upstairs to talk to his son.
The servant wanted to call, but he waved his hand and said no, he went by himself.
When he walked to the door, he was about to knock when he heard the sound of the hair colliding and the sound of his son snorting.
Jin Wenzhuo clenched his fists, so angry that he wanted to bang on the door and go in immediately, Luo Lan, who got out of you, dared to bully my son in my house, this is completely out of my eyes!
It's clearly deliberate, it's just a donkey!