Still with those hands, he touched her forehead and whispered: "Fortunately, I don't have a fever, I used to have a small fever when I was drunk." ”

Hearing the sound of him talking, Lu Yao suddenly seemed to think of something, and struggled to get up, but was pushed back to the bed by Lu Junfeng.

"Lie down and don't move, I'll go get you a towel." As soon as he turned around, his hand was grabbed by Lu Yao.

"Ah Feng?" As soon as she spoke, she frowned, "No, it's not Ah Feng, there is no Ah Feng, there is no Ah Feng for a long time!" Who are you? Who are you......"

Lu Yao was really drunk this time, he didn't know what he was talking about, and all the words he said jumped out of his head, and he was not as retouched and hidden as when he was sober.

"Ah Yao, I'm Ah Feng, it's your Ah Feng!" Hearing her incoherent words, he half-knelt beside her bedside and wrapped her hands in the palm of his own.

"No, you're not...... Ah Feng has left, he has left. He told me that he would never come back after he left......" Lu Yao's eyes were full of tears, and as her wings trembled lightly as she spoke, tears fell into Lu Junfeng's heart one by one.

Lu Junfeng's heart was so distressed that he was about to crack, he hurriedly reached out to wipe away her tears, put her hand on his face, and repeated over and over again: "I'm sorry, Ah Yao, I'm sorry......"

"I don't want your 'I'm sorry'," Lu Yao's other hand took the initiative to touch his face, and her face was close to him, and she said expectantly, "Ah Feng, you don't apologize to me, I don't want it, I just want you...... Come back, come back to me. Ah Feng, I'm really tired and in pain, every day is a ......"

"Dad died, and they treated me like that, I don't know how to explain it to them. Foot wash ...... The red ink is as terrifying as blood...... And that night I was cold and scared, and I wanted to escape, but I had nowhere to escape. ”

"Every day after you left, I was waiting for you to come back, and I sometimes think, you don't have to help me and I don't have to explain to them when you come back, I just want to ...... I just want to hug you again...... When I was at my coldest, tiredest, and most painful, the only thing I longed for was to hug you. I've always wondered if I could see you again...... If I can be held in your arms again like I did in the past, then even if my heart hurts again...... No matter how hard it is...... I'll be able to hold on to it......"

Lu Yao's forehead was against Lu Junfeng, and the words she said were almost intermittently unable to be connected into a complete sentence.

Her current state may be half-asleep, and she even thinks that the person in front of her is just a fantasy of herself, a shadow, a person who easily dare not think of it, and only dare to reveal the slightest grievance to him under the catalysis of alcohol.

"Ah Yao......" When she finished the last word, he was already so heartbroken that he couldn't breathe!

He used all his strength to hold her tightly in his arms, gritted his teeth and endured to prevent himself from crying, but the tears fell on Lu Yao's head uncontrollably.

He kissed the hair on the top of her head over and over again, eager to rub her into his own body, and pour all the wounds and sins she had suffered on himself!

If he could go back ten years, he would definitely pick up that knife from the ground, and then insert it into his chest accurately, and sink the tip of the knife into his heart without an inch of deviation!

As an authority on heart and brain surgery, he knows exactly where to stab himself so that he will never survive!

Lu Junfeng, Lu Junfeng, you hypocritical, despicable and shameless villain, why did you abuse her so much, hurt her and abandon her, and why could you still listen to her call you "Ah Feng"!

What did you do to her ten years ago!!

"Yao, how are you feeling, do you want to drink water?"

Lu Yao sat up from the bed crookedly, rubbing her temples with her palms, and it took a while to regain a little consciousness, but when she caught a glimpse of a figure out of the corner of her eye, she was so frightened that she almost fell out of bed!

"What's wrong?" Lu Junfeng got up from the chair on the side and hurriedly walked to her bedside, supporting her crumbling body.

Lu Yao dodged his touch like an electric shock.

"Ah Yao?"

"Don't call me! Don't touch me either! Lu Yao subconsciously shouted.

"Ah Yao, I'm just ......"

"What are you?" Lu Yao sneered, "You're nothing!" Please get out right away! ”

Lu Junfeng sat back in his chair in a daze, relying on the dim bedside lamp, and unscrupulously fell his hard gaze on Lu Yao, but his face was filled with too many emotions, and he spoke again indifferently, "Do you really hate me so much and don't want to forgive me?" ”

"Lu Junfeng," Lu Yao said word by word with great clarity, "I hate you!" ”

"What do you have to do for me to forgive me?" Although he had known that she hated herself, hearing her say it with his own ears, his heart still couldn't help but tingle.

"You can't pay it back," Lu Yao looked coldly at Lu Junfeng, who was in pain in his heart, and his heart was refreshed, "It was Lu Yao who hated you ten years ago, and you asked for forgiveness, so you should go and ask her for forgiveness!" As for me, the current Lu Yao, I don't hate you, and I don't care what you think of me, do you want my forgiveness or continue to hate me. I don’t care！ ”

Lu Yao spread his hands, looking indifferent, "So, don't always come to me to beg for scolding, and don't seek comfort for your unpassable conscience." ”

"I didn't come to you for this."

"What you think has nothing to do with me, if you don't want me to call the hotel security to 'invite' you out, you better get out of yourself!"

"Haruka ......"

"Get out!" Lu Yao pointed in the direction of the door and said sharply, unwilling to say another word to him!

After Lu Junfeng left, Lu Yao poured out the glass of water on the bedside table, and then poured himself a new cup, drank it in one breath, and then sat on the edge of the bed in a daze for a long time.

Although she was awake now, her head was still a little drowsy, and there was a throbbing pain in her temples.

Then little by little, she wanted to recall what had happened before she woke up, but their Lu family's "sip" was by no means a mouthful, the so-called "juice" she drank was actually a vodka cocktail, and the foreign wine was very strong, and with her amount of alcohol, she could get dizzy in a small sip.

So she couldn't recall anything at all, she was really completely broken.

However, the dream that Lu Yao had before waking up just now has always been clear in her mind, she has not had this dream for a long time, she doesn't know what kind of wind she smoked today, and she dreamed again.

The dream she used to have......

In the dream, Lu Junfeng finally called himself, choked up and asked her if she had made enough trouble, and her tears fell immediately after listening to his words, and she kept saying that I won't make trouble, I won't make trouble, Ah Feng, I want to go back to you.

Yet each time, she would wake up from her dream before he could promise her return.

Anyway, he couldn't sleep, so Lu Yao simply packed his luggage.

She booked an early flight today, and although it was still early, she decided to go to the airport earlier, as if going to the airport would give her peace of mind.

She spread things all over the place, but in fact, there were not many things, just a few sets of change of clothes, toiletries and some information about the Masai Mara, which were quickly packed, Lu Yao was changing his shoes, dragging his luggage and preparing to go to the lobby to check out, when the mobile phone rang for no reason.

Lu Yao looked at the name flashing on the screen suspiciously, and picked up the phone: "Eric? ”

There is a six-hour time difference between China and South Africa, and if there are no special circumstances, her colleagues are usually already resting at such times.

"YoYo......" Lu Yao's colleague from New Jersey has always been a happy treasure, and his usual voice can drown out the sound of the pickup truck engine in the camp that is about to be scrapped, but he is now on the other end of the phone, and he doesn't know how to talk to Lu Yao.

"What's wrong?" Lu Yao's heart suddenly tightened, "Is there something wrong with Simbo!" ”

"No, no, no, no, it's not simbo, it's good, it's very good, and I fought with the new friend today, you don't have to worry, it won!"

Lu Yao: "......"

“YoYo。” There seemed to be a different person on the other end of the line.

"Captain?"

"It's me, YoYo, it's hard to speak, but I still have to tell you about it." The captain paused, as if he was thinking about how to say it to minimize the impact on Lu Yao, but after thinking for a moment, he still decided to tell the truth, "I'm sorry, you can't come back for the time being." ”

Lu Yao didn't understand what the captain said for a while, and she repeated: "I don't understand what you mean by 'can't come back'?" Can't go back to work at the association, or can't I go back to South Africa? ”

"I'm very sorry," the captain sighed helplessly, "although we need you here very much, and you have been doing a good job, but because of your identity, you can't go back to South Africa for the time being." ”

Lu Yao didn't know what kind of expression he should show now, inexplicable? Wailing? Or do you want to cry without tears?

Lu Yao sat on the edge of the bed, silent for a while, remembering a series of things that had happened since returning to China, and felt that all this seemed to have been arranged.

From the moment she stepped off the plane, a person silently and invisibly imprisoned her in this place where she had been eager to escape, no matter how she ignored, refused, and indifferent, it could not change that person's desire to control herself.

Lu Yao looked thoughtfully at the suitcase packed at her feet, ten years ago, it was also such a box, containing a few changes of clothes and her broken heart, she almost fled here in a hurry, she thought she had escaped from the source of all the pain, but it turned out to go around and go back to the same place.