Chapter 156: Reconciliation
"Ah Feng......" Lu Yao finally made a sound.
She let go of his hand and stood in front of him, her shoulders trembling with crying, and the back of her hands took turns wiping away the tears that could not be wiped away.
"You don't pretend to be pitiful anymore, it's useless, I won't ...... anymore"
"No," Lu Yao seemed to be unable to hold on any longer, she threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly, shaking her head desperately in his arms, "Don't say it, don't say it!" Ah Feng, can you come back and come back to me...... I don't know about the accident, I don't know about my mother and that person......"
"You...... Got it? Although he was mentally prepared, the fact that he said it from her mouth still made him breathe.
From shaking his head to nodding his head, Lu Yao felt that his already drowsy head was even more uncomfortable.
"Got it," she said, crying pitifully and innocently, "why don't you tell me all the time?" ”
"Tell you......," he didn't even notice it, and a pair of hands reflexively tried to wipe the tears from her eyes, "why bother to let you know those bad things?" ”
"However, if I had known that my mother's accident had nothing to do with you, I would not have wanted to get out single-mindedly. Ah Feng, you only think that I want to go abroad because of my childhood dream, but in fact, I desperately want to go out because I can't accept it, I can't accept that I actually fell in love with a person who killed my mother! I want to get out of here, out of you, because I like you! ”
"You think it's all my fault that we're where we are?"
"It's not your fault, I know you've endured my unwarranted hatred for you for so many years, all for me...... So, Ah Feng, let's make peace, okay, as in the past, okay? ”
Lu Yao felt that she had carved her into her bones tonight, and she was proud and conceited, and she cut it out of her body as if she had broken her bones and skinned her.
She laid them out in front of him, piece by piece, and let him trample them underfoot!
She only begged him to change his mind and stop being indifferent and ignoring her.
She couldn't bear his cold attitude towards herself, and after knowing the truth about her mother's accident, she felt that she owed him a lot, and she couldn't pay it off!
"Do you want me to come back to you, Haruka?"
Fingers pinched her jaw, lifted her face, and he looked at the beautiful pair of tears, as if to look into the depths of her heart, to the moment when he first saw her when he was ten years old.
He told her plainly: "Ah Yao, I can't go back to you again, unless, you are willing to come to my world......"
"You once told me that you have never changed, since I met you when I was ten years old, you are still the same person you used to be, and I am the one who has changed. So now, I need you to change, if you want me to do to you like I did to you in the past, then you have to make a change, you have to come out of your world, I won't go to your world again, Haruka, unless you take the initiative to come to me! ”
This is after the "Little TOEFL Jr" contest and a series of events that have been posted as a result, he has thought about it over and over again, and he wants to try his best to find the crux of all the problems in these things, hoping that through his own changes and efforts, they can return to the past.
But no matter how he solved it, all the explanations he got pointed to the same answer - because Lu Yao wanted to go abroad, she didn't want to stay by her side, she was different from him.
What Meng Zhichao sometimes says is really to the point, and it is terrifyingly correct!
Just like Uncle Lu and Aunt Yin, two people who originally did not belong to the same world, but because of one of them's insistence, they left their own world and wanted to reach the other, but the ending was that the worlds of the two collapsed together.
Didn't he give everything to an unattainable dream like Uncle Lu in the past?
So how will his ending be different from his?
Even if she can forget one Tang Fei, can she resist all Tang Fei? The relationship between herself and her is just a relationship of living under the same roof for a few years, what weight can she have in her heart?
She can always be dismissive of him, everything that happens between them, and give up easily!
If he wants to change this predetermined ending and really hold this person in the palm of his hand, then the most important thing he should do is not to keep chasing and approaching her, but to pull her into his own world, only by making her become the same person as himself, from "them" to "us", he can really get this person and tie her firmly to himself!
"I don't understand...... Lu Yao looked confused and puzzled, "Haven't we been together all the time, I just don't want to quarrel with you, I don't want to have a cold war anymore, I want to go back to when we were together before Xia Xianwen......"
Lu Junfeng suddenly grabbed Lu Yao's shoulders, shook her shoulders vigorously and yelled at her: "Lu Yao, don't you understand, this has nothing to do with Xia Xianwen!" ”
Lu Yao was shocked by his sudden anger and was stunned for a while.
He looked at her with crimson eyes: "It's you who look down on me!" You care about my birth and family, you've hated me since I was ten years old! Even if you say you like me now, you are just used to enjoying my love and care for you, what you care about is whether I will be as good to you as in the past, your so-called liking is charity and mercy for people like me! ”
"I didn't!" Lu Yao pushed him away, using too much force, her back hit the cabinet behind her, she endured the stinging pain in her back and explained to him, "I never thought about it that way, I 'disliked' you, but what I dislike is your incompetence when you don't dare to fight back when others bully you, your cowardice when you don't dare to defend your mother, and your cowardice when you obviously like me but hide from secretly coveting me!" ”
Lu Yao's explanation made Lu Junfeng close his eyes uncomfortably, and tears slipped from the corners of his eyes, "But I'm still incompetent, cowardly, and cowardly......"
"I know, but I, I'm already in love with you! I love you, Ah Feng ...... "It doesn't matter if he has changed or not, whether he will change or not, what kind of person he is, what kind of things he has done to her, how much she resents him and hates him, and even thinks he is disgusting, but all these things together can't stop her from falling in love with him!"
"Ah Yao, you ...... You said...... What the? He walked up to her, to her.
The lingering smell of Chinese medicine on her body made his heart tighten, and her face was full of tears, and her crying eyes began to make him reflect on what he had just done to her and what he said.
But the most important thing now is not the above, but what did Lu Yao say just now, what did she say to herself?
"I say......" A rapid and violent cough interrupted her, and she clutched her aching heart, which was disrupted by the rapid cough every time she tried to speak.
"Alright, alright!" He watched her cough until tears were in her eyes, her whole body was trembling, and finally she couldn't restrain her distress anymore, stretched out her hands and hugged her whole person into his arms, he went down her back over and over again for her, "No need to say it again, I heard it, I heard what you said, Ah Yao, you don't have to say it again, you just need to say it once......"
Under Lu Junfeng's reassurance and patting, Lu Yao gradually stopped this menacing cough.
"We ...... Is it reconciled? She buried herself in his arms and asked him cautiously.
He dropped a wistful kiss on top of her head, and unconsciously tightened his arms, "Reconcile." ”
At the same time, she tightened the hand around his waist, as if to put him in her body, so that he could never leave.
felt that her care and liking for herself was so strong, and it made his heart welled up with mixed feelings.
He had told her so categorically that he would never return to her, and he had threatened her to come to his own world, he was so scared and helpless!
He was afraid that she would refuse, that she would finally make the decision to leave him!
But now he finally got his wish, he won the gamble, he finally forced her to give up his original world, and they could be together for a long time, but he couldn't help but feel sorry for her in his heart, and trapped her with her love for him, forcing her to give up her original dreams and pride.
It's like dragging a person from heaven to hell and letting her accompany her in the dark.
He couldn't bear it, but he had to be so ruthless, because he had no other choice!
Lu Yao's concession finally brought this incident to an end to this protracted Cold War, and the two reconciled as before.
It's just that this "reconciliation" brought the conditions proposed by Lu Junfeng, although Lu Yao accepted all the orders, and Lu Junfeng was also very satisfied with her attitude of cooperation, but these "reconciliations" with additional conditions unconsciously and inevitably planted a haze seed in the hearts of the two.
When Lu Yun saw that the two children were no longer awkward, he sincerely sighed that his "third-party" stimulation method had finally worked.
In fact, when she came home from the city that day, he deliberately pretended to be cold to her but took good care of Xia Xianwen, just to make his daughter jealous, so that she could understand that no one would always be good to her for no reason and revolve around her.
It's best to force her to face her heart: whether she needs this home or not, whether she cares about them.
If she is indifferent and careless, then he will not force her to do anything anymore, and he will no longer restrain her wherever she wants to go in the future.
He won't force her like he forced his mother at the beginning, because he knows better than anyone that even if he can force her for a while, he can't make her willing for a lifetime.
What does not belong to you, no matter how tightly you grasp it, it will eventually disappear from your hands, and it will not be transferred by your will at all, and the consequences of you forcing her so hard are nothing more than a tragedy of your own!
Fortunately, Lu Yao is his daughter after all, not the kind of person who is mean and ruthless, and the two of them can finally reconcile because the relationship between them has reached the point where no one can break up.
This is what he has always wanted to see, and he hopes that these two people can be like the present in this life, no matter what happens in the future, they will never be separated.