The last time I had insomnia was forty-five and a half days ago.

The most recent time was last night.

The feeling of silence will be tonight......

The warmth of spring, every time I walk outside, I have a small sense of crisis that I will be infected with the virus at any time.

Vertigo swept through my body, my body would be hot and cold, lying down, sitting, standing was the same uncomfortable, so sudden, even if I didn't know what was wrong with me?

Maybe it's just a moment of exhaustion, just make up for sleep; Maybe it's an illusion of the body, and it will be fine after a while; Maybe it's really sick and it's time to go to the hospital......

The hospital is a place where I only step in when I have to.

From the time I was sensible, I would hardly be sent to the hospital if I broke my knee, cut my finger, or even had a cold and fever.

When I saw the purple potion on the elbows and knees of other children, I felt a little envious, which was a color I had never had. It's just that he picked off half of the scab scar with his own hand, watched it blood flow again, silently stopped the bleeding, and let it continue to grow.

Although I can't be specific, I probably because of this, every time I get sick, I am used to enduring, as if I am a chick looking forward to the dawn, and when the day dawns, everything is full of brilliance.

I want to be cared for when I say it, and I won't say it a second time, because I already know that the person who accepts it is best to just be myself.

The words about all "independence" have formed two parallel lines with their own habitual lines, and when they look at it again, it is an equality.

Sometimes I see myself through the eyes of others, and I can't explain myself for contradictions, and in the eyes of outsiders, I am still living under the protection of my family, and I have not personally read the living textbook of society.

It's like a baby in swaddling clothes, with food to open your mouth, clothes to stretch your hands, and everything that involves the outside world, they will look at you with a lofty attitude, not just because they are elders, but also because they think you are still a blank piece of paper.

It is true that schools and societies do not draw equal signs, however, I think that there should be less than or equal signs between schools and societies.

It should be a matter for a person, and parents can only treat it as if it were air.

A person who bears all the difficulties is not just a person who really enters the society and starts to rack his brains to find a way to deal with everything. Perhaps, from the beginning of kindergarten, the consciousness of thinking about and solving problems on your own has begun to sprout.

Even at home, dare to ask which pair of parents know their children to the core? As far as I am concerned, if it weren't for a serious illness, I would endure it alone, say a few words of hypocrisy, and get a few words of comfort, and be said to be small? Write everything in your heart in your diary and hide it in your heart.

For them, no matter how many times they quarreled, they never said seriously: If you are good to me, just let me eat and dress well, please don't say hello to me again, the original understanding is just a thin ice on the surface, and it will be broken without effort, please don't say that you understand me very well, understand me, don't belittle me again and again, and if you go down, I can't even compare with the dust.

In the middle of jokes, he will also be said to be a white-eyed wolf, from the perspective of his parents, there is nothing wrong with saying this.

Whether it is natural to have children or not, I don't want to deny and affirm.

There is an attitude that I would like to correct, no matter what you give as your own kindness, a kind of happiness seed, no matter how much you reap, will you feel more happy?

It's like having a quarrel with your parents, and they move out to give birth to you and raise you, provide you with education, food, clothing, housing and transportation, and you seem to be very ignorant. Maybe the reason for the quarrel is very big, or maybe it's also very small, and the reason for moving out has been the same for more than ten years, as in the previous sentence.

What should I think about as a child?

Compared to other children, I am by no means a naughty and mischievous child who spends a lot of money and is not sympathetic to my parents, and I don't want to be judged how good I am. The misunderstanding between me and my parents is a kind of irreconcilable between children and elders, and the so-called generation gap feels like an abyss in the generation gap.

If you don't say it, they say you don't say anything, how can you know?

You said it, they talked about this sentence and that sentence, and they talked endlessly without being on the point.

It is better to ask for others than for yourself, and it is better to ask for your parents than for yourself.

You can confide in them your troubles, and if you don't get any comfort, don't add to your own discomfort, why haven't you thought about the results?

I hope that between parents and children in the world, that invisible gap can be shortened and shortened......