Xun Zhen didn't know what was going on, and after entering the house, he greeted Chen Ying with a smile, and asked, "The girl asked the maid to come over, but there is something to tell the maid to do?" ”

"There's something for you to do." Chen Ying said quietly.

At this time, she no longer had the weird smile on her face, but a flat face, and said: "Zhishi stays to look after the house, and if you find the truth, you will go to Mingyuan Hall with me." ”

Xun Zhen nodded yes, but Zhishi's face changed greatly, and he couldn't help but say, "Girl, are you going to find the old lady?" ”

Chen Ying looked calm, and said with a bow: "I want to say a few words to my grandmother." ”

Knowing the truth and hearing this, he immediately understood what Chen Ying was going to do, and couldn't help but feel anxious, although he knew his girl's temper, he still persuaded in a low voice: "Girl, I have alarmed the old lady so early, in case there is something unclear, the girl is going to be left behind." ”

Speaking of this, she lowered her voice a little and said, "Anyway, we know about this matter first, so the girl might as well wait a few days and see what is going on outside before making plans." ”

"Why wait?" Chen Ying asked rhetorically, and a trace of disgust surged up on his calm face: "Others come to calculate me, and I will calculate back, and just like this?" ”

She shook her head, the disgust on her face vanished, the smile on her lips seemed a little desolate, and she shook her head again: "I don't want to do this. ”

When she said this, the breath that was as quiet as water came back to her.

Seeing this, he opened his mouth to persuade again, but Chen Ying suddenly turned his eyes to look at her.

At this moment, in those clean eyes, there seemed to be something tangible, and as soon as the sight of the truth came into contact with it, somehow, the words that came to his mouth were swallowed back.

"Tell the truth, do you know how old is the average life expectancy of people in this era?" Chen Ying asked suddenly.

Zhishi was stunned, and then shook his head blankly: "Slave...... I don't know. ”

In fact, she didn't even understand what Chen Ying was talking about.

Chen Ying didn't care whether she understood it or not, she only raised her hand lightly and stretched out three fingers: "Thirty years old." She let out a long sigh, "The average lifespan of people in this era is only so much. ”

As she spoke, she turned her gaze out the window.

The sash is ajar, and a leaf shadow peeks through the curtain, drawing a slender shadow.

"I'll be fourteen soon. If I live on average, I only have 16 years left to live. Chen Ying's voice was very soft, as if she was talking to herself, and after speaking, a light smile appeared on her lips.

"You know, you know, I actually...... Very scared. She said, her eyes followed the swaying leaf shadow on the window screen, and her expression was melancholy: "I'm afraid that in this limited time, I won't have time to finish what I want to do, so I will leave without success, and when I close my eyes, I ......"

"Girl, don't say that!" Zhishi quickly interrupted her, and for a moment she was so anxious that she was about to sweat.

She only understood the latter half of Chen Ying's words, and only listened to the latter half, which was very unlucky.

The more she thought about it, the more frightened she became, and when she finished speaking, she hurriedly spat on the ground, clasped her hands together and muttered a prayer: "Buddha bless, Guanyin Bodhisattva is above, the girl is still young, you should not have heard what you said." Please bless her with a long life and good health. ”

Seeing her panicked face and her face turned pale with anxiety, Chen Ying knew that her words were afraid that she would scare this loyal maid, so she put aside the topic and turned back to the moment: "All in all, know the truth, I hope you understand that life has an end, although time is infinite, life is limited." I don't want to waste my time and energy in these senseless battles. ”

She stretched out her hand to the shadow of the tree in front of the window, and smiled at the corner of her mouth: "Look, isn't this tree beautiful?" He pointed around again: "Aren't these things I like worth my time?" As he spoke, he stretched out his finger and pointed at himself: "And myself, just in my youth, is walking on the best road in life." ”

Speaking of this, the smile on her face gradually deepened, and her clean eyes seemed to be filled with a clear spring, overflowing with joy and admiration: "To be born as a human being is the favor of God and the gift of creation, what a beautiful thing? I don't want to waste any more time on things that don't make sense. Not at all. ”

Just like in the previous life, in a meaningless battle, go through the whole life.

Chen Ying answered in her heart.

In that kind of life, she no longer wants to come back a second time.

Zhishi finally understood these words. Even Xun Zhen, who didn't know it on the side, understood something from Chen Ying's words, or from Chen Ying's expression when he spoke.

"The maid understands what the girl means." Zhishi said, his voice was very low, and he lowered his head: "The girl forgives her sins, and the maid only wants to vent her anger, but she forgets the girl's ordinary temperament. So saying, he fell to his knees.

Chen Ying hurriedly stepped forward to grab her, and said gently: "It's not your fault, it's me who is too weird." ”

A person who intends to get along with the whole era is not only eccentric, but simply beyond his means.

Chen Ying pulled the corners of her mouth self-deprecatingly.

However, neither self-esteem nor self-esteem is a reason to allow mistakes to continue.

Knowing that it is rotten and knowing that it is cruel, is it right to deceive oneself and act as if it was not visible, and to use "survival" as an excuse not to make any changes?

Chen Ying doesn't think so.

Admittedly, she also doesn't see anything wrong with those who conform to the times.

This is a matter of values, and everyone has different values, and the choices they make will be different, and there is no right or wrong in between.

And now Chen Ying only wants to face his heart and take a path that he didn't have the courage to walk before.

So much for.

"I'll go back as soon as I go, and I won't be delayed for too long." Seeing that Zhishi was still full of sadness, Chen Ying comforted her.

"The servant will guard the Mingfeng Pavilion firmly." Zhishi immediately replied.

Chen Ying nodded with satisfaction.

She didn't want to tell Li about this, and Zhishi obviously understood her words.

Xun Zhen, who had never spoken on the side, looked at Chen Ying at this moment, and then looked at Zhishi, and said softly: "The girl wants to go to see the old lady, do you want to change her clothes and go again?" ”

She knew that Chen Ying was definitely going to do something very important, so she was a little worried, afraid that her description was not perfect enough and would not please Old Madam Xu.

When Chen Ying heard this, she showed a strange smile as usual: "No need. ”

She is also wearing a freshly cut summer shirt today, and there are a few beaded flowers in her hair, although it is not gorgeous, but it is enough to see an elder.

After listening to her words, Xunzhen and Zhishi glanced at each other, and both stepped forward, one dusted off Chen Ying's skirt, and the other tidied her hair bun.

Chen Ying realized that because she had been tidying up her things, she really had a lot of dust on her body, and she really needed to clean it up.