I was standing in the operating room, my mind in a mess.

This operating room should be the place where I have been fighting for the longest time, and every time I am in the mood of saving lives and helping the wounded, I can cure every patient's disease, but at this moment, watching the doctors work hard to save my sister, I can't do anything.

I leaned against the wall of the operating room, but it was like I was in an ice cellar, and I was so cold.

I don't know when Shi Xiangnan was already standing behind me in a sterile suit, he pulled my body, put my hands in his hands and folded them, and pressed his forehead against my forehead: "Don't look at it, He Xinyan will be fine, believe me, I haven't relaxed my search for a suitable donor." ”

Yes, I didn't dare to look at the scene in the operating room, I just bit my lip, and even left the operating room south with some tears.

I don't know how long I waited outside, but the lights in the operating room finally went out.

I couldn't care about my slight abdominal pain and immediately went to meet it.

When the doctors and nurses who rescued me saw me and Shi Xiangnan, they immediately told me without waiting for me to ask: "Vice President He, your sister's condition is really getting more and more dangerous, and her physical functions are getting worse, you should know that the best way so far is nothing but a heart transplant, if we can't wait for a suitable donor, it may be difficult to come out again next time we enter the operating room." ”

Of course, I didn't have a heart transplant until I had to do it, but I don't know if God was unfair to us, every time I had a donor, I was always not worthy.

Many times, I was always very powerless, and I wanted my sister to survive this catastrophe that lasted for more than 20 years, but it seemed like God was going to torture her to death.

This time, my sister was not in the ward like before after being rescued, but was admitted to the intensive care unit.

Because her situation is already hovering on the edge of death, it is possible that she will really leave me at any time and anywhere.

Although rescued, my sister fell into an extreme coma, in the recent days, I almost never left her, Shi Xiangnan every time persuaded me to go back to rest, although pregnant, but I was afraid that I would never see her again, so I didn't listen to him for the first time.

Shi Xiangnan also put down all the work he was doing and stayed in the hospital to accompany me.

I can't say that I wasn't moved, but in the face of my sister's current danger, I have no intention of expressing this feeling.

At noon on the fourth day of my sister's coma, she finally came to her senses.

I was answering the phone outside the intensive care unit at the time, and it was a call from the south.

Ever since my sister was rescued, there has been a question lingering in my mind.

A disease like her can only be so dangerous if she is stimulated or angry, but why is she so good?

So I asked Shi Xiangnan to help set up the camera to see who had been to my sister's hospital room.

Sure enough, Shi Xiangnan told me that, as I expected, someone did deliberately go over to harass her, it was a person wearing a nurse's uniform, and my sister had a heart attack just after she left.

Shi Xiangnan said that he would investigate the origin of this person and asked me to accompany him with peace of mind.

I hurriedly hung up the phone and immediately entered the intensive care unit, and saw that my sister was weak, her face was pale and breathing weakly, and the whole person looked lifeless, which made people feel particularly distressed.

When my sister saw me, she said angrily: "Anning, I'm still alive?" ”

"Sister, don't talk nonsense, you are so fateful, of course you are still alive." I choked up a little as I said this, but I tried to pretend that nothing happened.

Her voice sounded so weak, and even after I finished speaking, she stretched out her hand: "Come here, my sister has slept for a few days, I miss you." ”

I walked over slowly, and was about to sit down on the edge of her bed, but she reached over and stroked my belly: "You are pregnant, your belly is revealed, it's good, sister is very happy for you, you were so naughty when you were a child, I think he must be a naughty ghost, I just don't know if my sister can see him born." ”

"Sister, you must be ......"

"Shhhhh

She grabbed my hand, and the force was so tight, and then she continued, "Listen to me, I'm afraid I won't have a chance in the future." Are you still hating He Guangsheng now? Are you looking for trouble with him? ”

I was afraid that she would worry about me, so I simply replied to her: "No, he and I are already strangers, and you think too much." ”

"An Ning, don't lie to my sister, I saw a report about He Hui before, saying that he had been arrested for raping women, and the earliest news, saying that He Hui had kidnapped his half-sister with his comrades, I just had a heart attack, I am not stupid, I can still see that he was arrested and you will retaliate against him."

Yes, I admit that my sister's analysis is correct, and she is powerless to refute what she said.

I had no choice but to defend: "Sister, he deserves it, you don't have to worry about this, you just have to recuperate with peace of mind." ”

I was afraid that she would know about the previous news, and I was worried about my comfort, so I put all the newspapers away, but I still let her know.

I don't know what's wrong with my sister this time, in addition to interrupting my words, she also told me righteously: "He Anning, don't have any more dealings with them, and don't have any more resentment against He Guangsheng, in the future, I don't want us to have anything to do with them anymore, especially that Shen Yuexin, she knows that her son was put in prison by you, and she will definitely not let you go, do you have to worry about your sister in particular?" ”

My sister has never spoken to me in such a tone, and I am really scared when she is so serious suddenly, I always feel that she is explaining what is going on, and she is worried about me, especially worried that Shen Yuexin will be entangled with me, as if she is going to leave me in the next second.

I couldn't help but feel a sense of panic in my heart, and a huge sense of panic hit me, making my legs suddenly weak and powerless.

"Okay, I promise you, even if Shen Yuexin comes to trouble me in the future, I won't worry about her, sister, don't think about it, now you have to take care of your body, and when we have a suitable donor, we can do the operation." I am very sincere in every word.

My sister doesn't know what's wrong, this day is very persistent, no matter what I say, she will continue to talk to me.

"An Ning, apart from that incident, can you listen to my sister again?"

I nodded with tears in my eyes: "Okay, I promise you, as long as you recover well." ”

She slowly took off the oxygen mask and sighed: "Don't worry about my sister's heart in the future, I know that this heart is not said to have it, your life and work are getting better and better, there is still a baby in your belly, you have to live a good life, if there is a suitable opportunity to change the heart is better, if not, I don't want you to always feel guilty because I can't find the right heart." ”

"If next time I have heart failure like this, I hope you don't try to save me anymore, in fact, you are not a patient I don't know, I am struggling every day, I don't know when I am alive and when I am dead, it feels particularly uncomfortable, instead of letting me suffer like this, it is better to let me go like that when I am sick, our mother has been lonely for so many years, it is better to let me accompany her, I have such a good brother-in-law to accompany you, I am also relieved.

"Anning, okay? Promise my sister, don't let my sister hate you. ”

After hearing these words, I didn't know how I got out of the ward, I just felt that my legs were so heavy that I couldn't take a step.

My heart was trembling, and she said don't let her hate me, she said I wasn't her, and I didn't know how much pain she felt.

I always thought that as long as I could save her back, as long as I could let her live in this world, it would be the best for her.

It's a pity that I've been wrong all these years.

I clearly felt that the mood and tone of her words were so cold.

But every word of her words was like a knife stabbed at the tip of my heart, and with a casual slash, it couldn't stop being bloody.

At this moment, I wandered like a ghost in the corridor of the hospital, and I gradually slipped into the corner with my aching chest clutched.

Everything in front of me in the hospital gradually became blurry in my eyes, but on the contrary, the scene of me and my sister when we were children gradually became clear and abnormal.

At that time, I didn't know what heart disease was, but I thought that my mother took care of my sister more than me, out of jealousy, once my sister was quietly reading a book in the bedroom, and I was sitting next to me watching TV, and when she didn't care, I scooped up the quilt next to me and covered myself, and then shouted "There are mice." ”

My sister was so frightened that she jumped up, stood on the chair and cried, crying and crying and suddenly covered her heart and fell down, that time she was sent to the hospital for a long time to be rescued, my mother was about to scold me half to death, that was the first time I saw her sick, to see her weak appearance.

I really want to go back to that time and make up for my mistakes again, maybe there was no fright from that time, maybe her physical condition is not so bad, and now I want to slap myself hard when I think about it.

She was very sensitive when she was in school, and if anyone laughed at her, she could hold herself in her room and cry all day, no matter how I knocked on the door, she wouldn't open it, so after she was bullied and laughed at by a school bully in her class, I went to their class in a rage and found the woman.

I don't care if you are a school bully or what's the matter, it's not okay to bully my sister, so I stretched out my hand and tore it directly, scuffling with her, I even asked Gu Wanwan to help me break my arm on the way home, just to go home to show my mother, and finally my mother called the police, the police cleaned up the bullying, and the school also expelled her, although I put a plaster on my arm for three months, but I still feel that this is something I am particularly proud of my sister.

But now, no matter how much money I spend on what I do for her, I may just be adding to her burden in her heart, as well as her so-called torment.

At this moment, I suddenly couldn't see the road ahead, and I didn't know what the point of everything I had done for her was, even if she wanted to give up on herself so much, I was still paranoid about choosing my own decision.