Facing the loess with his back to the sky, is it bitter?

The answer, of course, is bitter.

During the day, it was better when my feet didn't touch the ground, and whenever it was quiet in the dead of night, those physical pains and inner anxiety all poured out, and they became extraordinarily unignotable.

Fortunately, I am tired enough every day that I will fall asleep after lying in bed for a long time.

Sometimes in my dreams, I dream of the day my father was taken away......

But despite the bitterness, Yu Han has never thought about self-extermination and death like her mother.

It's better to die than to live, after Yu Jincheng was taken away, when the entire Yu family was full of birds, she didn't think about dying.

What's more, Ye Zhenzhen, who has always only liked to play with Fu Shasha, suddenly changed, she actually came to comfort her, encourage her, and help her in various ways, both openly and secretly.

Although she doesn't know why she has changed suddenly, the Yu family has been completely defeated, and there is nothing worth it for others to figure out in herself, she would rather believe that Ye Zhenzhen is really kind.

But Uncle Ye also resigned, and the situation of the Ye family was not much better than theirs.

Although Ye Chunhua repeatedly emphasized that she would help them, she did not dare to rely on others to help.

She thought that the life of their mother and daughter would go on like this, no, it should be said that they would survive.

It wasn't until Ye Zhenzhen gave her more and more unity in the letter that she couldn't help but be moved.

Looking at the glimmer blooming in Yu Han's dim eyes, her hands clenched and trembling, Ye Zhenzhen couldn't help but hook her lips and raised her hand to put it on the back of her hand.

"Sister Hanhan, what I did was not a good thing, at least at the moment, this matter was spurned and even violated by everyone, and it should not have made you have the same thoughts as me. But I thought, your life with your aunt has been so hard, how can you be bitter? It's better to find another way, as long as you are careful, earn money, and secretly buy yourself some delicious food, it is better than working hard all day and ending up exhausting yourself. ”

The mother and daughter have never worked much, and the composition has changed because of Yu Jincheng, she dares to say that even if the two of them can survive the rain and sunny weather, their bodies and minds will be greatly damaged.

In this case, it is better to earn a few dollars secretly, although you can't make a big change on the surface, but you have money in your pocket, at least psychologically relaxed.

"Well, I understand, these days are too hard, and other people's cold words are okay, the key is to work every day, and when you get home, you can't wait to eat and lie down. You still let me study, and that's it, I'm ...... I don't have time to study. But I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it......"

Zhen Zhen's letter said that she was a food seller, and there was a little girl who could make clothes with her, but she didn't have a very good talent in making food.

"As long as you are determined to do it, when the snow melts, the two of us will find a chance to go to the black market in the city together."

In their previous lives, the two of them were in a similar situation, and no one could take care of anyone, and she really didn't know what Yu Han was good at.

"Okay, then you can call me then."

Ye Zhenzhen nodded, "Okay, Sister Hanhan, I've been here for a while, why haven't I seen my aunt?" ”

Yu Han was about to reply, when he heard Song Ruixiang's voice coming in from outside.

"Zhen Zhen is here, Han Han, why don't you burn the fire, how cold it is in this house."

"Burn it right away."

As he spoke, Yu Han bent down and walked towards the door of the stove, while Ye Zhenzhen stood up and walked in front of Song Ruixiang.

"Auntie, come here, I made a dress for you and Sister Hanhan, come over and try it, it's not suitable."

Song Ruixiang is not very impressed by Ye Zhenzhen, although she has lived in a village in her previous life, Song Ruixiang does not give her a strong sense of existence.

Just like living in the city before, every time she went to Yu's house, the mother and daughter didn't like to talk much.

But Yu Jincheng used to be very good to her, sometimes when she bought something for Yu Han, she would think about bringing her one, even if it was for Yu Jincheng's sake, she should be kind to Yu Han's mother and daughter.

"This ...... Isn't that good? I...... I still have a lot of old clothes, and I will be able to wear them ......."

"It's the Chinese New Year coming soon, and of course it's time to wear new clothes. It's not a valuable item that I bought directly from the ready-to-wear store, I asked a friend to sew it myself, aunt, don't dislike it, it's good if it's not good-looking. As he spoke, he lifted the bag and shook off the one given to Song Ruixiang.

Song Ruixiang replied, Ye Zhenzhen was not good at discussing business with Yu Han, Song Ruixiang didn't talk much, Ye Zhenzhen couldn't tell her much, and after waiting for a while, she simply proposed to go home.

"Cook here and eat before you go, Zhenzhen."

Song Ruixiang was wearing the new padded jacket brought by Ye Zhenzhen, and enthusiastically wanted to keep guests.

"No, I didn't tell my mom when I first remembered it, I was afraid that she wouldn't go back for a long time, and she was worried, so I'll come back another day. Sister Hanhan, then I'm leaving, you're slowly busy. ”

Yu Han smiled and bowed his head at her.

"You kid, Zhen Zhen finally came to visit, why don't you open your mouth to let her eat?"

Yu Han didn't speak, but looked at Song Ruixiang with a twisted brow, and looked her up and down.

"Mom, why do you always wake up early and don't see anyone these days? Where have you been? ”

Song Ruixiang was caught off guard, her eyebrows jumped, and she quickly turned around and prepared to take off the padded jacket on her body.

"I didn't go anywhere, I just went out for a walk......

"Shopping? It's so cold outside, and there's snow on the ground, what's there to shop around? Yu Han's eyebrows furrowed, and his heart sank, and he intuitively felt that Song Ruixiang was lying.

"I feel uncomfortable at home every day, can't I go out to breathe?"

Seeing that Song Ruixiang kept denying it, Yu Han didn't force it, so he answered casually and turned around to get busy.

*

Two days later, Ye Zhenzhen really came to ask her to enter the city.

Yu Han thought that the two of them were just going to the town to have a look, and only then did Yu Han come back to his senses when he knew that he was dragged by Ye Zhenzhen and got on the shuttle bus from the town to Changyi City.

"Zhenzhen, aren't we just going to town? Why do you still want to go to the city, or to Changyi City? ”

Although Shanshu Village belongs to Yunhai City, it is actually closer to the urban area of Changyi City from their town.

But it's closer, and you have to take a car to get there, so if you walk, you don't know how long it will take.

Ye Zhenzhen glanced at the other people in the car, dragged Yu Han to the last row, and whispered in her ear.

"You should have been to Linyuan County, right? I won't take you to any places I've been, I'll tell you, if you want to make money, it's much easier in the city than in the county. ”

"But the fare is also expensive, I just saw that you gave six cents, one person is three cents, and one round trip is six cent......s."

Once upon a time, six cents was nothing in her eyes.

Now, don't talk about six cents, even six cents are all eager to spend on the blade.

"When you really find the way, you'll find that it's worth the money."