Chapter 8 Living in Hell
The cervical vertebrae are an important body structure that supports human survival, but for xenomorphs, they are dispensable.
Su Jing is beautiful and belongs to the type of little girl next door.
But at this time, she stretched out her right hand behind her back and forcibly broke her vertebrae, and then the wound there began to heal slowly, and the snow-white skin gradually appeared.
"Hand over that thing, you should also know that there are some special police officers in this school, and if you continue to fight, you and I will not have good fruit to eat." Su Jing said.
"It's impossible to hand it over because I've already given it to someone else." Zhang Ying replied indifferently.
"What did you say!?" Su Jing shouted.
"Yesterday I met a very close man, and I had a good conversation with him, and I gave him that thing as soon as I was happy."
"Do you know what you're talking about? You've been in the Order, and you know very well how horrible that thing is, and I don't want to joke with you, hand it over, and I can ask the higher authorities to stop hunting you as a traitor. ”
"A traitor?"
Zhang Ying exhaled a rough breath and suddenly roared loudly: "It's because I know how terrifying that thing is, so I stole it out of the laboratory, I just want it to thrive and finally destroy the organization that once saved me!" ”
"Why? I've read your information, ten years ago, you lost your legs in a car accident, and after committing suicide by taking drugs, you were brought back by someone in the organization, and it was the organization that gave you the qualification to stand up again and live in this world for the second time, for the life-saving benefactor, this is how you reciprocate? Why destroy it? ”
Su Jing couldn't understand Zhang Ying's behavior, she loved and respected the organization very much, because she had also lost everything, and it was the organization that gave her a second life.
"Shut up, what do you mean bitch know!"
What Su Jing didn't expect was that Zhang Ying's reaction was so strong, the latter had a hideous face and roared: "The person who saved me is her, it's not a bullshit organization, never!" In the last memory of my life, it was her hand that gave me hope and gave me the courage to stand up! ”
Zhang Ying danced with six tentacles, her scarlet pupils trembled, and she shed hot tears, shouting, "It's her!" She saved me! ”
Five years ago, when he broke through the protective fence and walked into Zhang Ying's house, the black-robed figure lifted his disguise, revealing a delicate face.
She stretched out her soft and boneless hand and entered the last moment of Zhang Ying's life.
Brought back to the laboratory, injected with TCC virus, and after waking up, the first thing Zhang Ying saw was her, what a touching smile it was.
Zhang Ying covered his head, his eyes were crazy, his thoughts were racing wildly between the past and the present, and that familiar face kept flashing in his mind.
"Hello, my name is Xu Yin, welcome to join us."
It was the first time he had skin-to-skin contact with her, though it was just a handshake.
"It's so boring in the organization, why don't we go out for a walk?"
It was his first date with her, though it was just wishful thinking on his part.
"I've lost everything and I've lived again, but I can't get back the feeling I used to have."
"Now I don't seem to be a normal human being, I don't resist cannibalism, after all, this is a cannibalistic world, we just magnify it infinitely and make it a reality."
Xu Yin is a field agent in the organization, responsible for searching for desperate people to join the organization.
She is used to seeing too many sad things, and Zhang Ying's experience is just a drop of water in the ocean, which will never stir up ripples in her heart.
However, love is blind, but Zhang Ying is deeply in love with this woman who appeared last in her life.
A year ago, on Chinese New Year's Eve, he bought roses and rings and rehearsed in front of the mirror hundreds of times before he mustered up the courage to walk to Xu Yin's room.
On that day, he will never forget that the bloody corpse was deeply imprinted in his heart.
So, he stole something in the laboratory, was chased by countless xenomorphs, and absconded to Zhengzhou in desperation, and after several breakouts and battles, he was hungry.
"You're talking about Xu Yin?" Su Jing asked.
"Shut up, what right do you have to mention her name!" Zhang Ying shouted angrily.
"As far as I know, Xu Yin was the best field agent in the organization a year ago, but it was later found out that he had colluded with the police, so he was ordered to be executed, this is not a secret, and everyone in the entire organization knows it."
Su Jing said lightly: "She is a traitor and deserves to be executed, and because of this incident, she resents the organization that saved your life, don't you feel ashamed?" ”
"Shut up! I repeat, the person who saved me was Xu Yin, not some organization! Zhang Ying's eyes were split, and he roared like a beast: "Five years ago, I lost the confidence to live, even if I was rescued and got the opportunity to stand up again, do you think I can live like a normal person?" ”
"There is a kind of trauma that comes from the heart, that kind of scar can't heal no matter what, that feeling of helplessness in a wheelchair I will never forget in my life, it was Xu Yin who accompanied me, it was her smile that gave me the motivation to heal my heartache, and it was her slightest contribution to my confidence to face the world again!"
"But you have killed her, ruined my love, ruined my faith, can I still make a merciful act of forgiveness in the face of a murderer like you!?"
Su Jing was stunned, she was distracted by the man in front of her, and a dusty memory in her heart was about to move, and some bad pictures were gradually remembered by her.
In a dimly lit alley, a naked woman was crying bitterly, pressed against the wall by a few young men dressed as gangsters, and venting behind her.
Helpless cries, weak resistance, she could not break free, and at that moment she felt like she was living in hell.
Occasionally, a few passers-by would pass by, but they all turned a blind eye, not only did not call the police, but accelerated away from the alley.
When she was done, she lay on the ground, covered in filth and tears on her face, like a piece of garbage, discarded by those few people at will.
"Shut up and stop talking!" Su Jing's eyes were red, and she tried her best not to think about those pictures.
"Haha, do you feel it too?"
Zhang Ying smiled wantonly, his scarlet pupils reflected Su Jing's painful expression, he pointed at the other party and roared: "We live in hell, we are people abandoned by the world, we are neuropaths accepted by the organization, we are aliens, we are monsters!! ”
He seemed to be crazy, laughing and crying and putting away his tentacles, and said: "You are the same as me, you are a poor worm living in this world, I had the opportunity to re-examine this world, but now that everything is gone, I don't want to hurt you, and I hope you don't stop me from destroying the organization." ”
"Do you think the organization is dedicated to people who are full of despair, do you think they really want to help us?"
"No, in their eyes, we are just a dog who will concentrate on helping them with a little benefit, and from some point of view, it is equivalent to God if it saves us!"
"Then why did you destroy God with your own hands?" Su Jing said in a trembling voice, already in tears.
"Because my faith is not in it, but in another person, she is my only hope in this world, and I believe that one day you will also find that person who can be your spiritual sustenance."
Zhang Ying left, did not choose to continue fighting, he smiled, and became a human again.
Su Jing was deeply touched by Zhang Ying's words, she covered her heart, and it suddenly hurt so much.
Sure enough, what the other party said was right, there is a wound that is difficult to heal in this life.
As for the specifics of the organization, she also has some understanding, and it is indeed dark inside.
Many xenos from the outside world have been taken away and never reappeared.
It's just that before, she regarded the organization as everything, and she didn't have the slightest doubt in her heart, but now that she thinks about what Zhang Ying said, it seems that there is some truth.
As a xenomorph, the organization is her home, but when she thinks that her home may not be safe, her heart is sad.
Human society is difficult for her to integrate into now, and the xenomorph organization is warm on the surface but dark on the inside, and these people at the bottom can only survive in the cracks.
Su Jing wiped her red eyes and said with a wry smile: "He is right, we all live in hell. ”