When I was a child, I always fantasized about a better life when I grew up, but when I really grew up, I looked back and found that it was still good when I was a child, the innocence at that time, without a trace of intrigue, whether she was too naïve, or that she was too stupid, stupid can.

It has been many days since I came to Pagu Village, and I have been uncomfortable at the beginning, and now, I am slowly getting used to it, from the insecurity at the beginning, to the current safety.

Because this is a remote mountain village and the signal is not good, she turned off her mobile phone from the moment she stepped into this place that day, first, she wanted to forget about those, and wanted to give herself a leave that no one bothered, and second, she felt that even if she turned it on, no one called her except for the agent who annoyed her, so she turned off her mobile phone.

I always feel that after getting along in the past few days, as well as this living habit, she can't help but like it here, like the simplicity of the villagers here, and the sincerity.

For example, she is now wearing a set of very earthy clothes, originally thin people, wearing her original clothes, are still loose, now, just like this, wearing the clothes of a girl named Ah Cui in the village, that girl is a little fat, and the age is similar to her, as for why she wears her clothes, it is because the clothes she brought, it seems that they don't match here, not that they are too conspicuous, but she wears short sleeves, and this place is already in the middle of nowhere, and there are gusts of wind from time to time, wearing her clothes, it's very cold, So, that's it.

I still remember that when she and Ah Cui met that day, she came to the village chief for something, but as a result, she only saw her, and she looked straight at her, and kept praising her, praising her for being so beautiful, so good-looking, and kept nagging, she is also a girl, how can she be so beautiful.

At that time, she saw strangers, they were all treated indifferently, and never, they would not go up to talk, but when she heard her words, she smiled in her heart, and finally, she still dealt with her emotions, and then, answered her words, and in this way, slowly she and her became something to talk to.

"Xiao Mo, what are you doing in a daze, are you tired?"

These days, she seems to want to play with her and chat with her, so since she got up early in the morning and ate the breakfast cooked by her grandmother, she came to pull her out and help her weed.

With a straw hat on her head, she helped weed the vegetables, but when she thought of the past few days, she had lived the happiest time since she entered the entertainment industry, so she started to stay.

"No, it's just that I'm so happy to think that I'm lucky to be here."

I looked up at her next to her, who was concentrating on weeding.

Looking at her innocent smile, as well as that carefree appearance, and also knowing from the village chief that her family background is not good, and she has stayed here since she was a child, she has never been far away, she yearns for the outside world, so she asks her from time to time, what is the outside world like, the eyes that are eager to know, she understands, very much like her former self.

"By the way, Xiao Mo, isn't the outside world very rich?"

The two weeded and chatted casually.

"Well, it's okay, it's rich, maybe."

After thinking about it, I really don't know how to answer her topic, in fact, if she is asked to answer the sentence in her heart, she feels that there are some things, there are gains and losses, and the two are relative.

She didn't understand the vague answer.

"When I was a child, my wish was to see the outside world, but it seemed that it was too far away."

Sighing, still smirking.

"Why?"

After finishing speaking, I found out that her family is not good, her parents are farmers, and she has a younger brother who is in high school, and she is only a teacher in the primary school here, and her salary is meager, which is not enough at all.

"Actually, when I was a child, my dream was the same as yours, and later, I worked hard to go to the outside world, and now, I am alone and adrift, and, for the so-called dream, I left my grandmother, and later, when I was busy with work, she left, and I didn't even see her for the last time."

Never mention these experiences to outsiders, never easily expose the pain in her heart in front of outsiders, at this moment, she just wants to tell her to cherish what is in front of her, not to be like her.

Tears swirled in her eyes, suppressed, and did not let them flow, and since the man had left, she had not allowed herself to shed tears, but, still, they flowed.

"It sounds so sad, I can't believe that you have such an experience."

From that happy mood just now, it became a little sad.

"So, I envy you."

Wipe away tears with your hands, suppress tears, sentimental sentence.

"I, what is there to envy, every day is either in class, or doing farm work, every day is a cycle of life, in this way, I have to let myself not doubt life, isn't it."

Self-deprecation of one's current life.

"At least, there's no intrigue, no sarcasm, and bad remarks, isn't it very good."

Thinking of the life she is in, the abyss of never having a quiet day, she yearns for this kind of life even more, and yearns for a life without cold eyes.

"Do you have a lot of bad people around you?"

I always felt that what she said was so sad, sure enough, when I saw her for the first time, her vigilant eyes, and the indifference that rejected people thousands of miles away, made her dare not approach, but her beauty made her bold, and when she became familiar with it, she found that she was not that kind of person, but she was very insecure in her heart and was afraid of being hurt.

"It should be, they only have interests in their eyes, and the others don't dare to be extravagant at all, for the sake of interests, they can fight you to the death, obviously they are still very good friends in the last second, but in the next second, they will come to naught."

I hid the words for a long time, and finally said it, only to find that I was not so painful in my heart, in the past, I was stubbornly guarding these, for fear that people would know and laugh at her, she has always been cold, heartless people, how can she care about this.

As everyone knows, the most loyal thing in her heart is that family and friendship are finally love, and, now that family affection is gone, friendship, thinking of the best girlfriend who used to be, after graduation, after working together, it has changed, and there is another one, I don't know, she has seen the letter she sent her, for friendship, she still has a bit of extravagance, as for love, when he was about to fall in love with him, he gave up, in her thought, can be pinned for a lifetime, but he gave up, no, it should be said, It was his family background that made her regress, a wealthy family, this is a hurdle that she can't cross in her life.

"Is it really that scary?"

The outside world she longed for was colorful, colorful and colorful, and how it became hell from her mouth, which made her have to think.

"It's not all about who you meet and the environment in which you work."

She didn't want to kill her dream of yearning for the outside world, after all, not everyone was as unlucky as she was in life.

"What do you do at work, you're so beautiful and so smart."

Looking at her dress that day, she looked so good, she had a good temperament, and I wanted to know what she did.

"I'm a play, a bad guy who specializes in deceiving people."

Let her say her position, but I remembered it, some time ago, I saw those comments written by black fans on Weibo, one of them is, Mo Xi, is a shameless slut, and the comment behind her is that the drama and the bad guys impress her the most, I still remember that at that time, she just laughed at herself, and asked herself in a self-muttering manner, she rushed to the announcement day and night, and she was so tired that she even forgot to eat, but in the end, it was such a result, is it worth it.

When she is idle, she often asks herself whether it is worth it, in fact, she can stay away from that circle for a long time, but every time, when she sees the fans who have worked hard for her all the way, she can't bear it, so she is irresponsible to them.

"Drama, bad guy, how can anyone say this about themselves."

The movements in his hands are still the same, and there is a trace of incomprehension.

I didn't answer the call anymore, I looked at the sickle in my gloved hand, and saw that the grass I cut was nothing in the countryside, because if I didn't cut it, it would rob the vegetables of nutrients, so it had to be removed.

"When are you leaving?"

Realize that what you said seems to be wrong, but the specific is not right, I don't understand, my own thoughts are just rural thoughts, unlike her, the thoughts of big cities, and, seeing these days, she is accompanied by herself, whether it is in class, or, doing farm work, she will pull her out, sometimes, when she is alone with a camera to take pictures everywhere, she is curious, so she asks her non-stop, in this regard, she has no time to take pictures, so she has to stop and analyze with her one by one.

She had seen the pictures she took, very beautiful, like a very professional look, like the photographer in the village, yes, in the village of Pagu, there was a photographer, who had only come in the past two years, and had never seen him before, as if he was a relative of a certain villager, as for what it was called, she didn't know, because the man had a strange personality and didn't like to talk to people.

"Leave, I don't think, I won't leave so soon, I haven't had enough fun, the scenery here is beautiful."

No longer look at the faintly aching palm, look up and see how many are still unfinished, and see, there are not many left, and it won't be long before it will be completed.

"Okay, then can I still go to you."

Thinking that she has been bothering her these days, many times, she is either reading a book, or enjoying the scenery alone, and from time to time she raises the camera in her hand to take pictures, and she is very uninteresting, so she stepped forward to disturb.

"Yes, I don't have anything to do, I can do it anytime."

Maybe it's because after these few days, someone is accompanied, and she is a little used to her being around, and when she doesn't know the village, those things, she will be very patient to analyze.

"Tomorrow I have class, can you come to my class, I want you to teach them, let you talk to them about the outside world, is it okay?"

When I think of the students I lead, I always feel that they know too little, and they only know too little from textbooks.

"Well, yes, but I've never taught children."

She was happy to be invited, but in fact, she had an idea in her heart that she wanted to improve the living conditions and educational conditions here.